Tue, April 22, 2025

lost spirit

In this episode, I open up about the feeling of being disconnected — not just from the world, but from your own spirit. That quiet emptiness no one sees, but you carry it everywhere. We talk about how trauma, people, and life itself can pull us away from who we really are… and what it takes to find our way back. This one’s for anyone who’s ever felt numb, unseen, or just tired of pretending. It’s not about having all the answers — it’s about learning to listen to the whispers within. Because sometimes, getting lost is the first step to finally being found.

Sat, April 19, 2025

Ramadan Update: Ich hab nicht gefastet, aber Allah hat mich trotzdem getestet

Während alle "für Gott" gefastet haben, habe ich einfach für ihn überlebt – umgeben von Hunger, ASMR Gebeten, Eier Atem und familiärem Cringe. Am Ende war Bayram keine Erlösung, sondern eine spirituelle Therapiestunde die in mir sehr viele offene Fragen hinterlassen hat. Das schlimmste ist .... das war eines der "guten" Ramadans.

S3 E3 · Sat, March 01, 2025

Ramadan: Fasten & Verurteilen (so hat der Prophet es sicher nicht gemeint)

Ramadan ist da, also Zeit für spirituelle Erleuchtung! Oder eher: Fasten, Jammern, Essen zählen und andere dafür verurteilen, wenn sie nicht mitmachen. Ich spreche über alles, was mich an diesem Monat nervt—von der fehlenden festlichen Stimmung (weil wir es leider nie gelernt haben) bis zu den selbsternannten Haram-Polizisten, die nur Fasten als religiöse Pflicht kennen, aber ihre Zunge nicht mal zwei Sekunden zügeln können und der Mundgeruch stärker als der Iman ist. Wenn du gerne getriggert wirst, Elhamdulillah ist das deine Folge. ps: ich wünsche euch und euren Familien eine schöne Fastenzeit

S3 E2 · Thu, February 27, 2025

Rebranded Demons

New city, new life-same damn personalities haunting me like unpaid bills. I swear, I can't escape these copy-paste people. In this episode, we're diving into why we keep attracting (or being haunted by) the same energy, no matter where we go. Also, let's talk about a certain coworker who's giving me major flashbacks to an old close friend-the one who vanished the second she got a boyfriend. Relationship prison really does claim its victims, huh? Buckle up for some spicy reflections, brutal truths, and a little existential dread.

S3 E1 · Tue, February 25, 2025

Welcome Back, Losers. I Missed Me Too!

Guess who’s back? (Not that it matters—you were all irrelevant without me.) Welcome to another season of broke spoiled hot, where I remain undefeated, unhinged, and unapologetically better than you. This episode? Oh, just a little warm-up. A casual reminder that humility is a scam, I have no god, and my ability to talk sh*t is stronger than your will to improve your life. We’re covering everything: poor life choices, why I still run this show, and the harsh reality that some of you should’ve been left behind in the last season. So sit tight, stay fragile, and get ready for another season of me carrying the weight of this podcast industry on my back. You’re welcome.

Tue, October 15, 2024

Rage to Realization: Living Life on Your Terms

Ever felt angry and wondered why? Is it really just frustration, or is there something deeper waiting to be discovered? In this episode, we dive into the power of anger and how it can actually help you understand yourself better. What if being angry is your mind’s way of telling you to live life on your terms? What if it’s a chance to stop feeling guilty for others and start focusing on what YOU truly want? Tune in as we explore how to turn anger into an opportunity for clarity, self-discover...

Fri, September 13, 2024

life update #4: TikTok, ChatGPT, Gym, me going dellluulluuu

sup! read the title and HMU for content ideas <3

Wed, July 17, 2024

outgrowing toxic conversations

whether it's your friend, your family or your coworker. Sometimes people are not on the same path as you are, which can lead them to have a lower level in life than you. They will pull you down with toxic conversations about the same thing over and over again , but how do you feel about this? Do you even wanna talk about these things? Are you looking for excuses not to see them because you know exactly that it will be about them the whole entire time and not about you? If yes, congratulations...

Wed, July 17, 2024

no expectations

you will eventually make it anyway ... so shut up

Wed, July 03, 2024

how much to trust your senses ? (call out for help)

Mon, May 20, 2024

WHO AM I LIVING FOR ?

i'm sorry for my language in advance. I'm just super mad about a couple things that needed to get released in such a gore way I guess. The thought of others, judging you or thinking about, you will kill you slowly and leave a huge damage behind. own up the things you do for yourself and for the person you are. they will talk. they always do. if they already have stamped you with a certain label, no matter what you do, you won't ever get rid out of this. so why worry, and why do so many m...

Sun, March 31, 2024

A FAN OF MYSELF?

after experiencing the worst months of my life, I found my microphone in my drawer, dust off the dirt, spoke with my therapist and hopped back on the podcast game. growing means way more than just finding out more about yourself. it means realizing things that you had to oppress inside of you, because you were too afraid of the truth. or simply, it was just not the right time to realize it. everything is happening for reason, but the most important thing is that you understand WHY certain thi...

Sun, September 24, 2023

isn´t it weird?

Hello everyone! Life is genuinely weird and a pretty odd place to figure things out on your own. If you think about it closely everything and anything is weird.. even breathing. but a few things were holding me up all night and I wanna know if I'm going dellluullluu ????

Mon, September 04, 2023

the new life dilemma

Welcome back to Season 3! In this episode, I'm talking about getting lost and finding yourself on your own in life. Being left alone with your thoughts and your insecurities will make you question a lot of things and a lot of decisions. But figuring everything out and putting the pieces together and trying to learn from these things are creating the artwork. Friends, family, money, habits and materialistic things are all replaceable as long as you understand that you AND ONLY YOU can make you...

Wed, April 19, 2023

ramble session #1

Hello everyone! Since rambling is the best I can do I thought why not make this into a thing and drop any now and then a good old ramble session into the show. Now, everything and anything can happen in these episodes, be aware of a lot of nonsense or spiritual awakenings. These episodes are great when you are running errands, doing household chores, short distance walks, listening to your fighting parents who should've get divorced or when you're alone at home and you wanna escape the fact t...

Thu, April 13, 2023

comeback

enjoy! everything you need to know

S1 E18 · Wed, March 08, 2023

i am garbage and i have depressions

Attention listener. I was high as a kite recording this episode and the stuff I say ... well let's just say it's a raw and unfiltered. I didn't gave it a listen so if this episode will offend you or people you love, I apologize. Lately, I'm going through a rough time where I got rejected from people I love and where I am walking clueless to a future that will have a big impact for my life! PS: someone please contact my therapist ... check out all my links! (i hope the link is working) https://withkoji.com/@tarik

Sun, December 11, 2022

life update #3: TURNING POINT

Hello everyone! Welcome to a mini update on what's been going on in my life. Things are working out really good. Yes, I do be having ups and downs but that's part of life I guess? I'm trying to keep a healthy positive mind and I'm trying to go through the things with trying to be the best version of myself. POSITIVE MIND POSITIVE THINGS.

Wed, November 23, 2022

guilt trip

In this episode were going to talk about feeling guilty about a couple things we can maybe not control or we don't maybe have the right energy in that specific moment to deal with it. parents are also extremely influential when it comes to making yourself feel guilty about certain things. feeling guilty about somethings is human and maybe it's a good feeling to feel like you know you could've done better. but don't let your guilt trip get into your way when you know you're doing the right thi...

Tue, September 20, 2022

life update #2: i don't do good

hey everyone, in this episode, I'm giving you a little peek into what's been going on in my life and to be fair I wish I could tell you positive and better things. I hope I will do better. I hope I will get better and I hope that I will record an episode one day and tell you that I mastered everything, that I feel really good and that I'm the best version of myself. don't forget to drink water and watch House of The Dragon.

Wed, September 14, 2022

THINGS I LOVE

so in this episode i´m talking about the main things i love doing or having in a daily basis. maybe you can relate to a couple things. ps: bella is wrong for choosing edward over jacob.

Wed, September 07, 2022

THINGS I HATE

WARNING: DON´T LISTEN TO THIS EPISODE IF YOU DON´T HAVE A DARK SENSE OF HUMOR OR UNDERSTAND SARCASM. I DON´T WANT THIS TO HAUNT ME WHEN I BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS ....

S1 Enull · Wed, September 07, 2022

THINGS I HATE

WARNING: DON´T LISTEN TO THIS EPISODE IF YOU DON´T HAVE A DARK SENSE OF HUMOR OR UNDERSTAND SARCASM. I DON´T WANT THIS TO HAUNT ME WHEN I BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS ....

Sun, August 28, 2022

my material addiction

hey guys. Things we want in life reflect our desires and if we start feeling more attached to these desires, we become materialistic. owning everything can feel very pleasing and good sometimes. In this episode I'm talking about how wrong the idea of "buying stuff that you don't need" can be. I think this is an interesting topic since I never really admitted the fact that I have an addiction over materialistic things. Don't be the one who is owned by YOUR materials. This can be a serious prob...

Tue, August 16, 2022

missing the past

hi! in this episode I'm talking about my childhood and the stuff that we've been doing when we were kids in the early 2000s!seems like I'm still not over the fact that I have to grow up ...

Tue, August 09, 2022

life update

this is just a quick update episode on what the hell is going on lately. if you need mental help, please contact a therapist or listen to SZA

Sun, July 10, 2022

blood doesn´t make family pt.2

Being in an unfunctional family can be tough. you may have to deal with any sort of problems or persons who just don't vibe with you. but the most important thing is that you do not have to stick around for that! know your worth and stand up for yourself. RESPECTFULLY! it took me a while to realize that but I got there and I feel better than ever. sometimes it's friends above anything, partners above anything or you above anything.

Wed, June 29, 2022

flashbacks, memories and dreams

hey guys, this is just an episode where I talk about my most recent brainstorming session.if I would have to go to a new therapist ... I would let her listen to this first.

Thu, June 02, 2022

we don't talk anymore

people come and go. they matter and then they don´t. what matters is what YOU take for the road without them. friends, family, loved ones are temporary ... you are forever. we are in two totally different places in our lives. but we´ll find each other back. ps: i love you, your boy with luv

Fri, May 27, 2022

PLAYED LIKE A PLAYSTATION

What I'm trying to say is that life will damage you in every kind of way with every kind of material or people. Trust me, I'm still healing. This is going to be a series where I get rid of emotions, thoughts and HOT TEA! In this episode I am talking about the traumatic life experiences of someone who is one of the most extravagant and iconic human beings in the world with his rich and inspiring work of art in life .... me, tarik. Don't let yourself get played by people who can't even put one ...

Thu, May 19, 2022

i´m not doing well

I don't know how to keep up with life lately. The struggle of staying active and living a healthy life is NOT HAPPENING! I'm planning on taking actions from now on and changing what makes me unhappy. purrr

Thu, May 12, 2022

daddy and i

in this episode i'm talking about me and my dad trying to figure out who we are to each other and what his TOXIC actions are causing in our relationship. i wish things would be different, but I'm asking for too much... Trigger Warning: massive daddy issues

Thu, May 05, 2022

cinema culture

some people don't understand how to behave in a movie theater! in this episode i'm telling you a lot about my trauma that i experienced in cinemas lately and i'm pretty sure that marvel movies cursed me. in this episode you will experience anger issues, traumatic experiences, cursing and a wonderful lesson on how to behave in a movie theater! enjoy

Thu, April 28, 2022

blood doesn´t make family pt.1

life can force you to choose between things where you shouldn't be choosing .. some people are just not meant to be in a pack of wolves. the mindset that blood makes family is as old as jesus himself tbh. love, acceptance, comfort and freedom is what makes family. so I'm asking you ... do you have a family around you ? or do you need therapy ?

Sun, April 24, 2022

bad habits

Hey everyone! welcome to the very first episode of Broke Spoiled Hot. I've been struggling with myself a lot lately about my bad habits and how to get rid of them .. sometimes I feel so lost that doing nothing is the best thing to do! maybe you can relate to some of these and help a brother out!?