lovelustfear
lovelustfear exposes real stories about toxic dating and relationships. Host Jake Deptula (Strictly Stalking) welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. Every episode explores true dating and relationship stories—from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution. If you would like to share your story on lovelustfear or would like your st...
Bonus · Sat, April 26, 2025
lovelustfear | presents | Critical Incidents
Introducing: Critical Incidents — the podcast hosted by law enforcement veteran Kyle Ashley, featuring candid conversations with individuals from diverse backgrounds, exploring the pivotal moments that have shaped their lives. From triumphs to challenges, these unfiltered stories offer listeners an authentic glimpse into the human experience. Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/critical-incidents/id1793167009 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/1XheQUBCO4U9gAekwkgdYQ Amazon Music https://www.audible.com/podcast/Critical-Incidents/B0DVFYFSHF For More Information: https://www.instagram.com/p/DIsJUDVJiq6/ If you have a compelling story to share, we’d love to hear from you. Reach out to us at CriticalIncidentsPod@gmail.com. EPISODE TITLE: Inside the Mind of the Golden State Killer || Profiling Evil with Former FBI Agent Julia Cowley What does it take to hunt one of the most prolific serial predators in American history? In this episode of Critical Incidents, I spoke with retired FBI profiler Julia Cowley about her in-depth work on the Golden State Killer case — before the world even knew who he was. Julia unpacks the behavior patterns that linked a string of burglaries, sexual assaults, and murders across California. She also shares her unexpected path into the FBI’s elite Behavioral Analysis Unit (BAU), the truth behind what profilers really do, and how behavioral science guided one of the most chilling investigations in modern history. We also dive into strange DUI cases and forensic toxicology. Plus, Julia reflects on the emotional toll of seeing life interrupted — and how she finds peace through purpose. Topics Covered: Profiling the Golden State Killer Behavioral patterns of serial offenders FBI profiler selection + training process Israel Keyes, DUIs, and crime scene analysis Mental health, family, and coping with trauma Subscribe, rate, and share if you’re into real stories of criminal psychology, unsolved mysteries, and frontline law enforcement insight.
Bonus · Fri, April 11, 2025
From Heartbreak To Hallmark: A Writer's Journey | lovelustfridays
Jenna Brister is a comedian, actor, and screenwriter behind the feel-good Hallmark movies adored by millions. She bravely opened up about her harrowing experience of being trapped in an abusive marriage with a volatile chef in episode 6 of lovelustfear , titled “No One Gets Out This Early,” Now, she joins Jake Deptula to reflect on the red flags she faced, the healing power of comedy, and how her real-life romance with her new partner—who she’s traveled the world with—mirrors the kind of love she now brings to life in her scripts. Jenna shares her journey of surviving trauma, finding her own leading man, and how food, humor, and holiday movies helped her write her way to a true happy ending. Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for Lovelust Fridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Jenna Brister – Links Instagram https://www.instagram.com/jenna.brister/ Google Knowledge Panel https://g.co/kgs/9nrnGbm IMDB https://www.imdb.com/name/nm4488723/ Discussion Links https://www.thehotline.org/ Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or
Bonus · Mon, March 31, 2025
lovelustfear | presents | Ice Cold Case
Introducing: Ice Cold Case — In 2002, Madison McGhee’s father, John McGhee, was shot and killed in his own home in Belmont County, Ohio. Driven by her desire to find justice she began conducting her own investigation into his murder that remains unsolved to this day. The police investigation did not yield any significant leads, leaving Madison and her family with more questions than answers - until now. Join her not only on a quest for justice, for closure, for answers and she stops at nothing to answer this question: Who Killed J.C. McGhee? It doesn’t get more personal than this. Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/ice-cold-case/id1685378007 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/5KZGIllYsj8jrQ6itE2AfB Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/d613a5ff-760a-4f12-b84a-0de717fa2ff3/ice-cold-case For More Information: https://www.icecoldcase.com/ https://www.instagram.com/icecoldcase https://www.instagram.com/madison_mcghee/ EPISODE TITLE: A Case as Cold as Ice This is the story of what happened to J.C. McGhee on July 11, 2002 according to police records — some of which may not be entirely accurate nor adequate. Twenty years later, the search for answers begins. Credits: Ice Cold Case is brought to you by Yes! It is written and produced by Madison McGhee Also produced by Jeremy Benbow Recorded by Danny Sellers Mixed by Cody Campbell Our music is by Matt Bettinson With creative direction by AJ Christianson
Bonus · Fri, March 28, 2025
"I Didn't Think There Was a Way Out": Facing Abuse, Misogyny, and the Battle Within | lovelustfridays
In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Heather, who previously shared her emotional journey in episode 18 of lovelustfear, titled "I Did Not Want to Lose This Man." Heather opens up about her battles with self-worth, controlling relationships, and emotional and psychological abuse, revealing how she found the courage to break free and rebuild her life. Heather and Michele also discuss their unique rivalry-turned-friendship, shedding light on the complexities of love, vulnerability, and personal growth. The conversation delves into Heather's experiences navigating the worlds of fitness competitions and the legal community, highlighting how predatory attitudes, misogyny, and gossip have impacted her life. Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for lovelustfridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Discussion Links https://www.thehotline.org/ Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.in
Sat, March 22, 2025
lovelustfear | lynn | everyone is going to take advantage of you
After enduring sexual harassment in her early teens, Lynn turns to older men for comfort as she enters adulthood. She becomes pregnant by an abusive partner, faces the heart-wrenching decision of abortion, and suffers further assault. Despite her longing to heal, she becomes caught in toxic cycles, growing increasingly isolated and trapped. Driven by the need to end the cycle of abuse, she fights to break free. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:24) next on lovelustfear (02:23) about lynn (03:18) lynn’s story (46:04) questions & answers (58:59) closing thoughts (01:00:08) charity & organizations (01:00:38) submit your story (01:00:50) disclaimer ** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, physical abuse, and abortion. Please listen with caution.** quotes “I developed very fast. I felt like I almost went from being a little girl to being a young woman, who was leered at and gawked at…” - Lynn “They became abusive…you never knew what kind of person you were gonna get with him.” - Lynn “…there's no way that I'm gonna get pregnant. and that's exactly what happened.” - Lynn “A few months later I got a phone call from the father of the baby, from my previous boyfriend, He broke into the house in the middle of the night. He walked into my bedroom, scared the hell out of me. And then in the morning he had left me this incredibly creepy note that said, amongst other things, I just wanted to watch you sleep.” - Lynn “…that was his way of getting me away from everything that I knew, my job, my friends, my hometown, any connection that I had to anyone to get me alone in a new state to isolate me.” - Lynn “I encourage everyone out there who has experienced any type of abuse, whether it be emotional or physical, psychological, sexual, to find a good outlet.” - Lynn “I feel like every time I tell the story, now that I gain a little bit of myself.” - Lynn topics | #Relationships #EmotionalAbuse #ToxicDynamics #Trust #SelfWorth #AbusiveRelationships #EmotionalManipulation #SexualAssault #ToxicRelationships #RedFlags #Support #Silencing #Fear #Trauma #Reporting #Assault #GenerationalTrauma #Healing #Partner music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, cybercutie, TheoJT, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, Samuel Kamau, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lynn) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ <a href="https://www.facebook.com/Nation
Bonus · Fri, March 14, 2025
Psychics, Soulmates, and Spiritual Awakenings: Unlocking Your Next Realm with Amber Rasmussen | lovelustfridays x Next Realm
In this episode of lovelustfridays , hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke explore the intersection of spirituality, relationships, and personal transformation with guest Amber Rasmussen, host of Next Realm and Ex-Wives Undercover . Jake opens up about his intense connection with a karmic soulmate, while Michele shares her deep-seated fear of visiting a psychic. The conversation unpacks the role of psychics, spiritual mediums, and the often-misused concept of twin flames, exploring cosmic and karmic connections. Amber shares how the death of her nephew ignited her spiritual curiosity, leading her to uncover signs and experiences that shaped her beliefs. The discussion also highlights how spirituality and religion can influence relationships, helping individuals set boundaries and recognize toxic patterns. Amber details the real-life story behind Ex-Wives Undercover , revealing how she and her co-host exposed a serial manipulator, ultimately saving a woman’s life. The episode includes a thought-provoking discussion on the contrast between spirituality and organized religion and their impact on love, trust, and personal growth. Amber Rasmussen + Next Ream | Links Website: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nextrealmpod/ Story Submissions: NextRealmPodcast@Gmail.com Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for Lovelust Fridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Discussion Links https://www.thehotline.org/ Spiritual Abuse: https://www.thehotline.org/resources/what-is-spiritual-abuse/#:~:text=Regardless%20of%20either%20partner's%20religious,creating%20an%20emotional%20safety%20plan Ex-Wives Undercover: https://linktr.ee/Exwivesundercover Next Realm: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/ Jake’s Episode of Next Realm: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/8-beyond-t
Fri, March 07, 2025
lovelustfear | heather | i did not want to lose this man
After escaping a series of turbulent relationships, Heather finds hope in a charismatic and attractive bodybuilder. However, she soon becomes ensnared in a web of drug addiction, sex, pornography, and psychological manipulation. The relentless abuse drives her to multiple suicide attempts, leaving Heather's life hanging in the balance. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:24) next on lovelustfear (02:23) about heather (03:18) heather’s story (01:13:08) questions & answers (01:18:37) closing thoughts (01:19:39) charity & organizations (01:20:10) submit your story (01:20:22) disclaimer **This episode contains explicit content including descriptions of sexual assault, physical abuse, image-based abuse, pornography, drug abuse, child sexual abuse, psychiatric situations, and the loss of a child. Listener discretion is advised.** quotes “I had a boyfriend, he cheated on me…I was so devastated. I just hated men. I hated what they did to me. I hated how they made me feel. I hated who I was trying to please them.” - Heather “I ended up dating again because I love relationships. I do. I like to be in one. I like to feel special to somebody.” - Heather “We were married. And he told me that one of his fantasies was to have two girls and a guy.” - Heather “When he found out that I had this emotional relationship, I allowed him to do certain things that were very humiliating…but I felt like I deserved it because of what I did.” - Heather “At one point I prayed. I'm like, God, listen, Just make me okay with being alone and then, a month later is when I met (him).” - Heather “I found my perfect man, like in every sense of the word, this man was everything I didn't think I deserved, but knew I deserved.” - Heather “He had to tell me what kind of relationship he wanted. And he presented to me something called the hot wife lifestyle.” - Heather “Every single time that we did anything, it would just suck another piece of my soul 80 percent of our conversations only revolved around sex, only revolved around who he wanted me to sleep with.” - Heather “We're doing drugs so much we couldn't communicate unless we were fucked up, unless we were high.” - Heather “I would succumb to whatever he wanted to do. My anxiety was through the roof. My depression was just getting worse and worse And so that's when I actively tried to commit suicide.” - Heather topics #ToxicRelationships #LoveAndPain #SelfWorthJourney #MentalHealthAwareness #SelfDestruction #HotWifeLifestyle #RelationshipTrauma #DepressionAndAnxiety #OvercomingAddiction #FindingStrength #SuicidePrevention #RecoveryJourney #LoveAndLoss #ToxicLove #AbusiveRelationships #EmotionalPain #RecoveringFromAbuse #FindingSelfLove #RelationshipHealing #AnxietyAndDepression #OvercomingTrauma #HopeAndHealing #InsecurityAndHealing #TurbulentRelationships #EmotionalPain #Body
Bonus · Thu, February 27, 2025
lovelustfear | presents | Next Realm (w/ guest Jake Deptula)
Next Realm: Beyond the Veil: A Grandmother’s Last Goodbye and Life Lessons From his grandmother’s unwavering support during his childhood to the vivid dream that coincided with her final goodbye, Jake reflects on love, loss, and the mysterious signs that transcend this realm. Next Realm Submit Your Story NextRealmPodcast@Gmail.com Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/next-realm-beautiful-stories-from-beyond/id1768386038 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/3tRhWVtSSdDfhqeGqMyo4T Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/2272e97b-c58c-48c7-9570-d03a27e430fe/next-realm-beautiful-stories-from-beyond Website https://www.nextrealmpod.com/ Instagram https://www.instagram.com/nextrealmpod/ You can also check out Amber Rasmussen’s other podcast Ex-Wives Uncover: Liars, Cheaters, & Love Cons where she and co-host Athena go undercover’ to help women understand the seedy tactics of love criminals so you can live happily ever after, Psychopath Free! If you love stories about romance scams, catfishing, cheaters exposed, gaslighting, and people who live double lives, this podcast is right up your alley – where the line between true crime and matters of the heart blurs. Ex-Wives Undercover shares chilling tales of survivors who conquered the ultimate crime of toxic love. Learn to spot the red flags, protect yourself, and find solace in the stories of those who've walked away from the brink. Subscribe now to join our community and become an undercover detective in pursuit of healing and justice. Every Tuesday, the investigation continues. Ex-Wives Undercover: Liars, Cheaters, & Love Cons https://www.exwivesundercover.com/ https://www.instagram.com/exwivesundercover/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/ex-wives-undercover-liars-cheaters-love-cons/id1536067021 https://open.spotify.com/show/5goyIEk4DkTi79WFl0fg29
Bonus · Sat, February 15, 2025
Galentine’s Day Unwrapped: A Deep Dive Into Celebrations, Expectations, Gifting, and Love Languages | lovelustfridays
Jake, Michele, and Haley team up with Lauryn ( lovelustfear ) for an epic battle between Galentine’s Day and Valentine’s Day, sharing awkward dating experiences that have shaped their views on the holiday. They dive into the communication struggles between men and women, the decisions behind regifting, and how their understanding of love languages has changed over the years. Their conversation also touches on classic Valentine’s Day topics—proposals, gifts like chocolates and stuffed animals, and the pressure to make the day unforgettable. To wrap it up, they get playful with games like ‘Never Have I Ever’ and ‘Love it or Leave it.’ Discussion Links https://rosetoyofficial-us.com/ (Tell them Michele sent you!) https://stlzoo.org/give/zoo-parents-program/valentine https://www.farmsanctuary.org/news-stories/2025-valentines-day/?utm_source=chatgpt.com https://www.walmart.com/ip/DesignPac-Jack-Links-Valentine-Meat-Fur-You-Heart-Box-0-625oz/2465067498 https://manlymanco.com/products/meathearts?variant=31479920951379 https://www.etsy.com/market/valentines_coupons Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ music | sounds On Hold for You Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Licens
Bonus · Fri, January 31, 2025
lovelustfridays x Weird True Crime | Unbearable Pain, Unbreakable Spirit: Judy Malinowski’s Battle for Justice
In this episode, Jake and Michele are joined by Gina and Amber from the Weird True Crime podcast to discuss the tragic story of Judy Malinowski, a mother of two who was set on fire by her abuser, Michael Slager, and bravely fought for 696 days to survive—ultimately making legal history by testifying against him. The discussion delves into the devastating impact of domestic violence, the legal significance of Judy’s case, her brave testimony, and the historic role she played in speaking out against her abuser. The panel also explores the warning signs of abusive relationships, the difficulties victims face when trying to escape, and the lasting legacy of Judy’s Law. They emphasize the importance of raising awareness about domestic abuse and the vital work Weird True Crime is doing to highlight lesser-known cases and bring attention to critical issues in the true crime world. **PLEASE NOTE** The topics discussed in this episode are dark in nature and may be distressing to some listeners. We will be exploring sensitive subjects, including domestic violence, severe fire burns, and murder, which may not be suitable for all audiences. Listener discretion is strongly advised. Support Links https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.thehotline.org/resources/get-help-50-obstacles-to-leaving/ https://www.facebook.com/Judysfoundation.org Weird True Crime https://www.weirdtruecrime.com/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/weird-true-crime/id1642363009 https://open.spotify.com/show/3BHNffWPPzW79m0s5phIWM https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/9d0c54e2-1ec0-4994-bc3c-33c8a0c3dcaf/weird-true-crime https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcAPlqQ1t9nzA9B6kAKifmA Case Source Links https://lawandcrime.com/crime/michael-slager-pleads-guilty-to-murder-after-dousing-girlfriend-with-gas-setting-judy-malinowski-on-fire/ https://www.judysfoundation.org/about/ https://people.com/judy-malinowski-woman-set-fire-ex-testified-grave-behind-bars-life-7503471 <a hre
Bonus · Thu, January 30, 2025
lovelustfear | presents | You Probably Think This Story’s About You
Introducing: You Probably Think This Story’s About You — This isn’t your typical true crime story. Brittani Ard steps back into the shadowy labyrinth of memories, scars, and fragile ties that bind us to our past. Where wounds still ache and the bonds of connection blur between salvation and entrapment. After revealing her own story in the first 8 chapters, she’s pulling at the threads of the past—threads so delicate they threaten to unravel everything. This time, it’s not just her story. It’s the stories of others whose lives intertwine with hers in ways no one could have predicted. A woman searches for a photograph of her abusive ex, but the picture holds more than just memories. A foster youth exchanges black trash bags for a voice that refuses to be silenced anymore, revealing a haunting past that demands to be heard. And a story of rekindled love, as strength and vulnerability collide to reveal what was always meant to be. You Probably Think This Story’s About You is raw, haunting, and achingly human—a tapestry of messy, beautiful lessons stitched together by the lives we touch and the stories we share. The secrets we carried no longer have power over us. Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/you-probably-think-this-storys-about-you/id1747985859 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/1bWj4R9vKhs7eM3jvmNeDB Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/f75a73c1-15fe-4050-9449-641515196f61/you-probably-think-this-story%E2%80%99s-about-you EPISODE TITLE: It Started as a Love Story *Some names and details have been changed to conceal the identities of those who wish to remain anonymous.* When Brittani Ard matches with Kanon on Hinge sparks fly. Their first date revealed an instant connection and chemistry. Kanon is devastatingly handsome with a charm that disarmed even the most guarded heart — plus he is surprisingly emotionally available for a man in his forties. It’s as if the universe has conspired to bring them together, two soulmates destined to find each other. The couple spends the next five months diving fast into a whirlwind romance. Their connection so intense and their bond so deep that it seems like Brittani’s fairytale has finally found its happy ending. Until one weekend that changed her life forever. Executive Producer Brittani Ard Follow Brittani @Brittani.Ard on all platforms This episode contains mentions of suicide. If you are having thoughts of suicide, please reach out to the resources below. Suicide & Crisis Lifeline Call or Text 988 More info at https//www.988lifeline.org
Bonus · Sat, January 25, 2025
lovelustfridays | From Tragedy to Advocacy: How Peggy Klinke Inspired a Movement
In this episode of lovelustfridays, host Jake Deptula and producer Haley Gray discuss the importance of National Stalking Awareness Month. They discuss the legacy of Peggy Klinke, whose tragic murder led to the establishment of National Stalking Awareness Month, and discuss the significant work done by advocates like her sister, Debbie Riddle, and organizations such as SPARC. They delve into the often-overlooked crime of stalking, its relationship with domestic violence, and the misconceptions surrounding it. Haley shares her personal experience with stalking, highlighting the realization and challenges faced by victims. The conversation emphasizes the need for awareness, better legal support, and community resources for stalking survivors. Resources and contact information for further support and advocacy are provided. Stalking Support | Links https://www.stalkingawareness.org/ https://www.standupresources.com/ https://www.actionagainststalking.org/ https://victimsofcrime.org/ www.womenslaw.org www.victimconnect.org https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.lenoraclairellc.com/ Additional Links Peggy’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000556692586 Haley’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000683900247 Strictly Stalking Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 https://www.instagram.com/strictlystalkingpod Moms And Mysteries Podcast https://www.momsandmysteries.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ Case Source Links <a href="https://web.ar
Bonus · Fri, January 17, 2025
lovelustfridays x The Consult | FBI Profiling and Domestic Violence: The Deadly Case of Vashti Forrest
In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michelle Locke sit down with retired FBI agent and profiler Julia Cowley, who reflects on her 22-year career investigating serial killings, sex offenses, and other violent crimes. Julia discusses the realities of working as an FBI profiler, sharing her insights into high-profile cases, including those involving intimate partner violence. They cover the heartbreaking case of Vashti Forrest, a mother of two killed in 2011 after filing for divorce from her abusive husband, Brett Seacat, a police officer. Julia sheds light on the warning signs of domestic violence, the psychology of offenders, and the emotional toll of such investigations. As the host of highly rated The Consult: Real FBI Profilers podcast, Julia offers an honest, in-depth look at the complexities of FBI profiling, debunking myths often portrayed in TV and film, and providing a deeper understanding of criminal investigations. guest links | Julia Cowley https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-consult-real-fbi-profilers/id1586909557 https://open.spotify.com/show/4BRyHb1KZjdGYrMfu2zMeM https://www.truecrimeconsult.com/ https://facebook.com/theconsultpod https://www.instagram.com/theconsultpod/ https://www.twitter.com/theconsultpod links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com Additional Links Strictly Stalking Podcast - Featuring Julia Cowley “Real FBI Profiler” https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/207-real-fbi-profiler-julia-cowley/id1494237083?i=1000640310287 http
Bonus · Fri, January 10, 2025
lovelustfridays | Dating, Drinking, and The Challenges of Sobriety
In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Debra, who shared her harrowing story in lovelustfear Episode 12, “I’ve Always Seemed To Attract The Crazy Type.” Debra talks about her journey to get sober after a tough first marriage and dealing with toxic relationships. They dive into the challenges of staying sober, how addiction can impact relationships, and how important it is to have self-worth and resilience in recovery. Michele and Jake also share their own experiences with alcohol and dating and the pressure to drink at social events. They also discuss online dating, dating age gaps, narcissism, and the rise of professional matchmaking services. guest links | debra The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/alternative-hair-alchemist-a-podcast-about/id1627588998 links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com Additional Links Three Day Rule - Matchmaking Service https://www.threedayrule.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify <a href="https://op
Bonus · Wed, January 01, 2025
lovelustfridays | Reflections, Connections, Dating Deal Breakers, and the Problems with People Pleasing: A Look Back at 2024
In this lovelustfridays 2024 Year-End Wrap-Up, Hosts Jake, Michele and Producer Haley engage in a candid conversation about relationships, personal growth, and the valuable lessons they've learned throughout 2024. Jake opens up about his three dating rules—and why they still keep getting broken. Michelle reveals her essential dating hygiene must-haves, while Haley reflects on her people-pleasing tendencies and where they stem from. In addition, they delve into the application of AI—specifically ChatGPT—to analyze their personalities and uncover surprising insights. The conversation wraps up with an exciting announcement: a brand new podcast series for 2025, aimed at demystifying the legal system and examining how it impacts relationships. links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com Additional Links National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear mo
Bonus · Fri, December 27, 2024
lovelustfridays | Overcoming Toxic Love: From Heartbreak to Healing
Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michelle Locke are joined by Lauryn from Episode 17 of lovelustfear, titled “You Have to Learn to Trust Me.” Lauryn reflects on her first toxic relationship, sharing the emotional toll of repeated breakups and reconciliations that led her to question her self-worth. She describes how these painful cycles pushed her to emotional extremes and behaviors she didn’t recognize in herself. Lauryn also opens up about her struggles with body image, self-confidence, and how societal pressures influenced her perception of beauty. The conversation delves into the challenges women face today, the journey to self-acceptance, and the critical role of family and friends in overcoming adversity. Michelle offers valuable advice for parents on how to help their children navigate emotionally challenging breakups. links Lauryn Lugo Here’s a link to my show Border’d on YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3XBICHsy7GjVKinY7RhZXh8gy67zOSNZ&si=sYPzspemX3P1e1EG Here’s a link to my show Little Things on YouTube: https://youtu.be/BowNWLggBzQ?si=mGcgCnGkVUrcNdmb Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com Additional Links NAMI https://www.nami.org/ NAMI is the National Alliance on Mental Illness, the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. The Gift of Fear Survival Signals That Protect Us from Violence by Gavin De Becker (Book) https://www.amazon.com/Gift-Fear-Gavin-Becker/dp/0316235776/ One Tree Hill https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One_Tree_Hill_(TV_series) Sources https://people.ucsc.edu/~sgrabe/Shellys_Home_page/Publications_files/Grabe%20&%20Ward,%20Hyde,%20Media%20Meta%20(PB,%202008).pdf <a href="https://www.pewresearch.org/internet/2020/05/0
Thu, December 19, 2024
lovelustfear | lauryn | you have to learn to trust me
Lauryn’s romance with her movie theater coworker spirals into a toxic cycle of heartbreak, doubt, and obsession, leaving her emotionally crushed but driven to prove her instincts right. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (02:08) about lauryn (03:14) lauryn’s story (31:26) questions & answers (38:49) closing thoughts (39:53) charity & organizations (40:23) submit your story (40:34) disclaimer quotes "...in middle school when girls and boys were starting to pay more attention to each other. And I had crushes, but they were not reciprocated..." - Lauryn “At the time, I was just like, we're going to be together forever. We had talked about it. You're the love of my life. I'm the love of your life.” - Lauryn "He breaks up with me, I'm devastated, I start to move on, he calls me, we get back together, he starts to pull away again." - Lauryn "I'm crying and sobbing, and I wake my parents up. I wake my mom up, and I tell her…I feel like I'm going to die and I will do anything to make this pain stop." - Lauryn "I'm begging him, begging him, please just break it off with me. I can't do this anymore. I know that you're cheating on me. I know something's going on. I feel it. He was like, I know that we've been through a lot, but you have to learn to trust me." - Lauryn “Most people that know me, I guarantee you would be like Lauren would rather eat glass than sit around and let someone disrespect her because it's not who I am. But back then, it was who I was…” - Lauryn topics #romanticmovies #toxicrelationships #heartbreak #infidelityandbetrayal #selfesteemjourney #comingofagestory #emotionalrecovery #lifeafterheartbreak #loveandselfdiscovery #cheatingandrecovery #teenageromance #lovecycles #findingyourself #healingafterheartbreak #toxiclovepatterns #copingwithbreakups #romanticizedlove #boundariesinrelationships #heartbreaktohealing #redefininglove #trust #stability #doubts #cheating #breakup #devastation #infidelity #confrontation #betrayal #trauma #mentalhealth #recovery #chronicillness #podcasting #awareness #support #podcast music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lauryn) Women Deliver https://womendeliver.org An Unwavering Advocate for Girls and Women – Women Deliver We’re a global advocacy organization guided by one end result: that every girl and woman exercises her rights to full bodily autonomy and health. <br
Bonus · Sat, December 07, 2024
lovelustfridays x The Unlovely Truth | Faith, Hypocrisy, and Spiritual Abuse
Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michele Locke are joined by Lori Morrison, a retired private investigator, speaker, author, podcaster, and church safety coach. Lori shares her insights into spiritual abuse, the role of women within religious communities, and offers advice for those seeking guidance in handling church-related disputes. The episode also covers Lori’s journey into private investigation and her continued dedication to helping victims through her podcast, The Unlovely Truth. The conversation emphasizes the gender-based power dynamics prevalent in many faiths and how women need to challenge such oppressive structures respectfully but firmly, highlighting the paramount importance of understanding and asserting one's rights. Jake and Michele also discuss their personal experiences with the Catholic Church, addressing issues such as the hypocrisy observed within religious institutions and how churches handle misconduct accusations. They highlight the problematic nature of internal conflict resolution within churches and discuss the broader issues of abuse and cover-ups in various denominations. links The Unlovely Truth Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-unlovely-truth/id1490970256 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0oOJagNw54yyATuQ5dI6l0 Lori Morrison https://theunlovelytruth.com/ https://www.facebook.com/theUnlovelyTruth https://www.instagram.com/theunlovelytruthpodcast/ Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com Additional Links National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion h
Bonus · Sat, November 30, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Terra's Baddy Club feat. Jake Deptula
Jake Deptula, host of l ovelustfear and cohost of Strictly Stalking , sits down with Terra Newell to discuss his journey and the inspiration behind his podcasts. Jake opens up about his own experiences with toxic relationships and how they shaped l ovelustfear , which delves into the darker side of dating. Terra and Jake discuss the importance of providing survivors with a platform, creating safe spaces for sharing, and the challenges of covering such sensitive topics. Their conversation also touches on self-discovery, setting boundaries, and the impact of generational trauma. Terra Newell - Instagram https://www.instagram.com/terranewell/ Other links https://www.terranewellsurvival.com Barking B**ches Adopt Juneau! https://www.barknbitches.com Book a 1 on 1 call! HTTPS://linktr.ee/terranewell Terra’s 30 Day Trauma Journal https://square.link/u/DvXXYN27 Exclusive Content on Patreon! http://patreon.com/Terrasbaddyclub lovelustfear - Guest Submission E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod Strictly Stalking - Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 https://open.spotify.com/show/5dw1NJIObaOsj0o7JdruVQ
Bonus · Sat, November 23, 2024
lovelustfridays | Relationships, Red Flags, and Dating After Divorce
Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke and Gabi Conti, an author, producer, and TV host known for her candid discussions on dating and relationships. This episode explores the challenges of workplace romances, the impact of dating apps, and how to recognize and address emotional and physical abuse. Gabi, who previously shared her own toxic dating story in LoveLustFear Episode 4, "We Can’t Break Up," offers valuable insights on spotting red flags and empowering others through her work, including her book 20 Guys You Date in Your 20s and her podcast Bad Influencer . Michele reflects on her own hesitations about reentering the dating scene after two decades post-divorce, while Gabi provides practical advice for navigating modern relationships—emphasizing the importance of practice, staying open-minded, and prioritizing personal well-being. The discussion also features workplace anti-fraternization policies, celebrity relationship dynamics, and essential steps for identifying and escaping toxic situations. Gabi - Episode Link "We Can’t Break Up" https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-gabi-we-cant-break-up/id1735876283?i=1000654153175 https://open.spotify.com/episode/3GFc3ga6PgAKaAOGqySQFY links Live Event 12/6 Los Angeles, CA See Gabi in Holy Cannoli Comedy at the Hollywood Improv Lab on 12/16 https://improv.com/hollywood/event/holy+cannoli+comedy+with+jaclyn+marfuggi+caprio+and+gabriella+maria+conti%21/13938693/ Gabi Conti personal website | https://www.gabiconti.com/ instagram | https://www.instagram.com/itsgabiconti/ tiktok | https://www.tiktok.com/@itsgabiconti twitter | https://twitter.com/itsgabiconti book | https://www.gabiconti.com/book-twenty-guys-you-date-in-your-twenties-by-gabi-conti bad influencer | podcast | https://link.chtbl.com/LdLb8v6u Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call <a href="http://1.
Bonus · Fri, November 15, 2024
lovelustfridays x When Heaven Meets Hell | Love, Lies, & Long-Distance Deception
Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke and Allyn Amerongen, a survivor, advocate, and podcaster, featured in lovelustfear episode sixteen, "It’s A Lot Worse Than We Thought." Allyn opens up about her traumatic experience in a long-distance relationship, the double-edged nature of vulnerability, and the challenges survivors face when navigating relationships after trauma. She also shares her personal journey while creating her podcast, “When Heaven Meets Hell”, and its global impact on listeners. The conversation emphasizes that survivors should never feel pressured to prove their trauma and be encouraged to embrace their truths. The episode highlights the importance of setting clear boundaries, fostering trust, and supporting survivors as they share their stories and continue their healing journeys toward recovery. **This episode of lovelustfridays contains topics including sexual abuse. Please listen with caution.** links When Heaven Meets Hell Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/when-heaven-meets-hell/id1757647021 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0Ck1Xm1rqmu8BgEUbZpyfE Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/596cc7d9-1ad4-4777-838a-8680c1b62cf6/when-heaven-meets-hell Allyn Amerongen Instagram https://www.instagram.com/allyn.amerongen/ Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links War Party Movement https://warpartymovement.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ su
Fri, November 08, 2024
lovelustfear | allyn | it’s a lot worse than we thought
Allyn meets a captivating man who swiftly declares his love, asks her to be his girlfriend, and proposes. But as their long-distance relationship deepens, she uncovers his lingering connection with an ex, leading her down a dark path of deception. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:40) about allyn (02:38) allyn’s story (56:35) questions & answers (01:01:54) closing thoughts (01:02:40) charity & organizations (01:03:10) submit your story (01:03:21) disclaimer quotes “My criteria was something more serious and committed in hopes of finding my person in marriage and all the things that I had kind of been shown and was striving for in life…” - Allyn “He was all the things that I hadn't experienced in conversations prior with people, and that was something that really drew me in and that I appreciated about him.” - Allyn “Within less than a week, he told me that he loved me. That was right after our first FaceTime, within probably twenty minutes of us getting off the phone. At that same time, he told me that he wanted to have kids with me, couldn't wait for me to be their Mom.” - Allyn “Within two hours, probably two hours of being there, I was with his mom…and his mom was with me and she ended up on the phone, on speaker with someone. And they said, Allyn and, and him are going to be coming by, they're with us now, we'll all be together later or something. And the person said, who's Allyn? Who's that? I can't keep track of them.” - Allyn “And I leaned down, pull something, and out comes lingerie from under his bed. And I just froze. And I look under there, and there's also a woman's shirt and a purse. And I'm thinking really fast, how do I want to handle this?” - Allyn “...but, in my mind, I was just waiting for, we were waiting for something to happen with his work, we were waiting for a green light on something, and again, he left me in limbo. I just felt like a weird suspended state.” - Allyn topics #datingjourney #onlinedating #datingapps #socialawkwardness #whirlwindromance #commitment #engagement #intertwinedfamilies #engagement #honesty #secret #trust #stability #housing #ex-girlfriend #frustration #gaslighting #doubts #cheating #breakup #devastation #infidelity #confrontation #devastation #anger #remorse #cover-up #betrayal #trauma #mentalhealth #recovery #chronicillness #podcasting #awareness #support #podcast music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Geoffrey Harvey, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (allyn)
Bonus · Fri, November 01, 2024
lovelustfridays x Sins & Survivors | Custody, Conflict, and a Deadly Dispute
Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke, along with Shaun and John from "Sins and Survivors: Las Vegas True Crime," to explore the heartbreaking case of Ashley and Dennis Prince, who were tragically killed by Ashley's ex-father-in-law, Joe Houston, during a deposition. The discussion reflects on Ashley and Dennis's lives, the legal proceedings, and the emotional and legal complexities that culminated in their deaths. They examine the intense divorce proceedings and custody battle, highlighting how Ashley's attempts to escape an abusive relationship were overlooked by a justice system that missed vital warning signs. Michele provides valuable insights into the motivations of those involved, pointing out the instability within the legal framework. The conversation also tackles systemic issues surrounding domestic violence and the emotional strain on families while advocating for greater community awareness and resources for survivors. Shaun and John reveal their mission to enlighten the Las Vegas community by shedding light on these devastating stories. topics | True Crime, Domestic Violence, Ashley Prince, Dennis Prince, Legal Perspectives, Advocacy, Community Awareness, red flags, relationships, divorce, Las Vegas, survivor stories, law, podcasting, courtroom, legal profession, community, instincts, lawyers, professionalism **This episode of lovelustfridays contains graphic depictions of murder. Please listen with caution.* links Sins & Survivors: Las Vegas True Crime Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/sins-survivors-a-las-vegas-true-crime-podcast/id1712245894 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/1W2swCx9LP38sFY06294pB Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/18ce5b73-c8ec-4e38-827d-df4119e845ea/sins-survivors-a-las-vegas-true-crime-podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/sinsandsurvivors/ Website http://sinsandsurvivors.com Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links (Topics Discussed) The Vegas Justice League (Cold Cases) https://www.vegasjusticeleague.com/ Original Episode Link https://sinspod.co/episode36 National Domestic Violen
Bonus · Wed, October 23, 2024
lovelustfridays | Deceptive Dates & Cringe-Worthy Encounters
Host Jake Deptula speaks with Desiree, who shares her dating misadventures, including cringe-worthy encounters with older men who misrepresent themselves. Their conversation highlights issues like catfishing and the bait-and-switch phenomenon. Desiree reveals the aspects of old-school dating and the early days of AOL Online romances. She emphasizes critical criteria for partners, such as having a job, apartment, and car, and discusses the dangers she has faced, including awkward and potentially risky situations. She reflects on the importance of personal safety and learning from past mistakes while navigating the modern dating landscape. The episode also touches on sensitive topics like sexual assault and boundaries in relationships, encouraging listeners to be aware of red flags and the significance of trust and accountability in dating. **This episode of lovelustfridays contains topics including sexual assault. Please listen with caution.** topics | bad dates, catfishing, true crime, online dating, SMITTY, dating stories, friendship, betrayal, dating criteria, dangerous situations, dating experiences, personal growth, dating, personal stories, domestic violence, abuse, sexual assault, boundaries, relationships, trust, instincts, accountability, sharing experiences, red flags Desiree - Episode Link "His Name Was SMITTY" https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 https://open.spotify.com/episode/1jQ7VjUQ0S7feHDADg1fM6 National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open
Bonus · Thu, October 17, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Next Realm
Introducing: Next Realm - Have you ever felt a presence, heard a familiar voice, or received a sign that made you believe your loved ones were reaching out from beyond the veil? Next Realm is the podcast that explores the profound and heartwarming stories of individuals who have experienced messages from their departed loved ones. In each episode, we delve into personal accounts that transcend the boundaries of the physical world. From mysterious dreams and unexplained coincidences to undeniable signs, our guests share their extraordinary encounters that go beyond the realms of explanation. Host Amber Rasmussen guides you through these captivating narratives, exploring each encounter's emotions, connections, and spiritual significance. Together, we embark on a journey into the unknown, where love transcends the boundaries of time and space. Whether you are a skeptic or a believer, ’NEXT REALM’ invites you to open your heart and mind to the possibility that your loved ones may communicate with us in ways we never imagined. Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/next-realm-beautiful-stories-from-beyond/id1768386038 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/3tRhWVtSSdDfhqeGqMyo4T Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/2272e97b-c58c-48c7-9570-d03a27e430fe/next-realm-beautiful-stories-from-beyond Website https://www.nextrealmpod.com/ Instagram https://www.instagram.com/nextrealmpod/
Bonus · Thu, October 10, 2024
lovelustfridays | Navigating The Aftermath of Teen Dating Violence
Host Jake Deptula speaks with Danielle, a caregiver and spiritual healing advocate, who shares her traumatic experiences with domestic violence in high school. Danielle details the verbal, physical, and sexual abuse she suffered at the hands of her then-boyfriend, along with the stalking that ensued. Danielle highlights the critical support from her family, especially her mother, which helped her escape the abusive relationship and reveals the challenges of rebuilding her life in a new school, finding supportive friends, and learning to trust again. Inspired by her role as a caregiver for her mother, who is battling cancer, Danielle emphasizes the importance of spiritual wellness in her healing journey and aims to raise awareness about domestic abuse and spiritual paths to recovery. **This episode of lovelustfridays contains topics including the sexual assault of a minor. Please listen with caution.** topics | domestic violence, abuse, sexual assault, teen dating violence, stalking, healing, relationships, support systems, spiritual wellness, caregiving, mental health, awareness, cancer, cancer patient, domestic violence awareness month links Danielle Gray Newsletter: https://daniellegray.substack.com/ Awaken with Danielle Gray YouTube Channel: https://youtube.com/@awakenwithdaniellegray?si=HpHa_D653N7oAAOZ Link To Danielle Gray's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamdanielleegray/profilecard/?igsh=MXJsYjRvbGl4ZDVodg== Additional Links (Topics Discussed) Strictly Stalking Episode 157 “Stalked At School: A Campus Confrontation” https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | <a href="https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/l
Bonus · Mon, October 07, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Morbidology
Introducing: Morbidology – a true crime podcast created and hosted by Emily G. Thompson, author of “Unsolved Child Murders,” “Cults Uncovered” and co-author of “Unsolved Murders: True Crime Cases Uncovered.” Morbidology was voted ‘Best International Podcast’ at the iHeartRadio Podcast Awards. Join Emily as she covers a new true crime case – solved and unsolved – released weekly. You can listen to Morbidology across all podcast platforms. I’m going to play a preview of episode 277 on the murder of Lise Fredette, a 74-year-old woman who failed to show up for her shift in Walmart in Peterborough, Ontario, Canada. Her daughter drove over to her home, and when she pulled up outside, she observed her car parked in the driveway. She headed up the drive but was stopped in her tracks by a large pool of blood on the ground. An investigation into her whereabouts got underway, and suspicion immediately fell upon an ex-boyfriend who had refused to accept that the relationship was over. FULL EPISODE 277 HERE: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/277-lise-fredette/id1463979546?i=1000672013286 Website https://morbidology.com/ Visit and Join Patreon https://www.patreon.com/morbidology Apple Podcast Subscriptions https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/morbidology/id1463979546 Spotify Podcast Subscriptions https://open.spotify.com/show/69LQv3VWf6wodCBqvVmfZG Social Media https://www.instagram.com/morbidology/ https://www.facebook.com/morbidology
Bonus · Sun, October 06, 2024
lovelustfridays | Surviving Domestic Violence and Focusing on Victim-Centric Stories
Host Jake Deptula and former family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Terra Newell, a victim advocate, public figure, and survivor of multiple toxic relationships. They explore the complexities of toxic relationships and the expectations placed on survivors who become public figures. They also confront misconceptions stemming from media portrayals that often oversimplify these experiences, particularly beyond the sensational headlines of “Dirty John.” Additionally, they discuss the responsibilities of true crime content creators, focusing on the glorification of serial killer culture and the ethical considerations that come with storytelling. Also, how advocating for a victim-centered approach is essential for fostering safe spaces for survivors and recognizing that each individual's journey through trauma is uniquely their own. topics | terra newell, domestic violence, toxic relationships, true crime, survivor stories, ethics in media, accountability, red flags, healing, victim support, dirty john, survival, podcasting, serial killer culture, responsibility, survivor, domestic violence awareness month Terra Newell - Episode Link "I Want You To Always Be Available To Me” https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-terra-i-want-you-to-always-be-available-to-me/id1735876283?i=1000663173031 https://open.spotify.com/episode/2H7GJVeaVXV3cLvCsBTuC7?si=TlkZexWPT5WsIVcbm4I5Nw links Terra Newell https://www.terranewellsurvival.com I'll Take The Stairs Merch 25% of Sale Proceeds go to Season of Justice! https://www.terranewellsurvival.com/shop/page/2/ Book a 1 on 1 call! HTTPS://linktr.ee/terranewell Sign up for the podcasting course! https://coaching.terranewellsurvival.com Terra’s 30 Day Trauma Journal https://square.link/u/DvXXYN27 Exclusive Content on Patreon! http://patreon.com/Terrasbaddyclub Terra’s Baddy Club (Podcast) https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/terras-baddy-club/id1477935020 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links (Topics
Trailer · Sun, September 29, 2024
lovelustfear | special announcements | october 2024
This October, lovelustfear returns along with brand new episodes of lovelustfridays! We'll dive deep into compelling topics like cheating, catfishing, love bombing 101 stalking, and the FBI's approach to battling romance scams. I'll be speaking with new guests and guest speakers, including therapists, dating coaches, law enforcement professionals, private investigators, legal experts, celebrities, authors, and influencers. Additionally, I'm excited to announce I'll be participating in a True Crime Podcasting Ethics course with Terra Newell. You can find more information on her Instagram here: https://www.instagram.com/terranewell/ And if you'd like to share your dating and relationship story, I want to hear it. You can reach me at lovelustfearpod@gmail.com or: https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear If you're listening and eager for more dating and relationship stories, please consider supporting the show by rating and leaving a review wherever you listen. Thank you so much for listening, subscribing, and sharing your support.
Bonus · Thu, September 26, 2024
lovelustfridays | Fighting Narcissistic Abuse, Racism, and Inequality in Family Court
Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lorraine, a narcissistic abuse survivor from episode fifteen of lovelustfear, "You Have To Be Very Careful With Him.” They delve into Lorraine's experience of escaping an abusive relationship with a partner diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder and her legal challenges co-parenting with him. They also examine the significant struggles she faced within the police and court systems, which may have displayed bias and racism, particularly in Family Court. Also, they discuss how the judicial system focuses on child protection and how it sometimes fails to consider the best interests of the abuse victim, emphasizing the urgent need for reform in family courts to provide better support for victims. topics | toxic relationship, unfair treatment, police, court system, bias, racism, co-parenting, narcissistic ex-partner, self-care, narcissism, white privilege, family court, psychological evaluation, coercive control, court reform, self-discovery, support networks, humor Lorraine - Episode Link "You Have To Be Very Careful With Him.” https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-lorraine-you-have-to-be-very-careful-with-him/id1735876283?i=1000664798749&itscg=30200&itsct=podcast_box&ls=1&mttnsubad=1000664798749 https://open.spotify.com/episode/54b3WJWHzDo324QLD2VU1o?si=P9hTAjHKTjW4HV73DUFYsw links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Lorraine Go Fund Me Page: https://gofund.me/5bd8a430 Narcissism The Comedy Night: https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-a-comedy-night Narcissism The Improvised Musical: https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-the-musical-a-fundraising-event Instagram: www.instagram.com/thestarparentpodcast Woman Aware: https://www.womenaware.ca/ Natalie Bedard better known as NatNat Energy Healing Specialist: Regulating the Nervous System and Relieving Emotional and Mental Pain Through Breathwork Website: www.LiftOneSelf.com IG: <a
Bonus · Sun, September 22, 2024
lovelustfridays | The Impact of Cultural Obligations on Abusive Marriages
Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Lena, an abusive marriage survivor from episode nine of lovelustfear, “He’s Your Problem Now.” They discuss Lena's toxic marriage and the influence of cultural obligations in her Armenian community, the nuances of recognizing abuse, and how she found her voice and empowerment through her second husband's supportive and matrilineal Native American culture. The conversation also highlights the themes of coercive control, gaslighting, financial manipulation, and the emotional toll these experiences have on physical health, including the long-term effects of trauma. Also, they discuss the importance of support systems and reflect on the necessity of self-care in the healing process. topics | cultural obligations, empowerment, trauma recovery, self-care, mental health, women's rights, love, relationships, trauma, abuse, relationships, cultural expectations, toxic traits, vulnerability, healing, hashimoto's disease, independence, personal growth, podcasting, toxic relationships Lena - Episode Link "He’s Your Problem Now" https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-lena-hes-your-problem-now/id1735876283?i=1000657913302 https://open.spotify.com/episode/3VuTd9CszCR6CyVMNmddRW?si=zHN5QTHhRXGe-VK61UY9jg links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk M.D. (Author) (Book Recommended By Michele) https://www.amazon.com/Body-Keeps-Score-Healing-Trauma/dp/0143127748 More About Hashimoto's Disease https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/hashimotos-disease/symptoms-causes/syc-20351855 Music Playing During Lena’s Freedom Ride, aka “The Grapevine” Siouxsie and the Banshees (Spotify Playlist) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1DZ06evO0KJgF1?si=k68HOnZbQVSZRBxD9OSVuQ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START
Bonus · Mon, September 16, 2024
lovelustfridays | Co-Parenting with a Substance-Abusing Ex
Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Mira, a survivor and parent, from episode five of lovelustfear, “A F**king Broken Mess.” They discuss the challenges of co-parenting with a narcissistic ex-partner, the complications substance abuse brings to custody battles, and how custody laws can prioritize parental rights over child welfare. The discussion also touches on why therapists might be reluctant to testify in custody cases. Strategies for handling high-conflict situations include documenting interactions, careful planning, and setting boundaries. Additionally, they examine the appeal of toxic relationship patterns and the warning signs to watch for. topics | custody, co-parenting, substance abuse, family law, child welfare, parental rights, therapy, legal advice, family dynamics, psychology, custody battles, personality disorders, toxic relationships, red flags, mental health, empathy, codependency, legal representation, domestic violence Mira - Episode Link "A F**king Broken Mess" https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear-mira-a-f-king-broken-mess/id1735876283?i=1000654910765 https://open.spotify.com/episode/1grB6rj9w4wYwYefeEXQIG links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Narcissistic Trauma Healing (Recommended By Mira) https://carolinestrawson.com/ Caroline Strawson is a multi-award winning Qualified & Accredited Trauma Therapist & Coach, Founder of The School of Trauma Informed Positive Psychology - a school with a mission to create a wave of change around trauma healing and education both personally and professionally. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ <b
Bonus · Sat, September 07, 2024
lovelustfridays | Trauma, Trust, and Rebuilding Relationships
Host Jake Deptula and former associate family court judge and family law attorney Michele Locke sit down with Kaitlyn, a domestic abuse survivor, from episode ten of lovelustfear, “We Didn’t Have Boundaries.” They discuss how trauma can disrupt memory, making it difficult for survivors to recall details and affecting their ability to seek justice effectively. They also explore how growing up in toxic environments can impair one's ability to trust gut feelings and make sound choices. The conversation also addresses the unique challenges faced by romantic partners of abuse survivors, highlighting the importance of empathy, patience, and open communication. topics | toxic relationships, domestic violence, trauma, legal system, healing, support, trauma, relationships, recalibrating instincts, toxic environments, trust, picker, broken picker, compassion, understanding, abuse, validation, court system, support, partners of trauma survivors, understanding, compassion, communication, safe space, education, forgiveness, triggers, boundaries, domestic violence Kaitlyn - Episode Link "We Didn’t Have Boundaries" https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-kaitlyn-we-didnt-have-boundaries/id1735876283?i=1000658756399 https://open.spotify.com/episode/3vQ4DO13Irvg50QWX74aZK?si=J0qsPr9aRhu1awFqQj6yfw links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Chartable https://link.chtbl.com/lovelustfear Amazon Music <a href="https://
Bonus · Fri, August 30, 2024
lovelustfridays | Navigating Trauma and Justice for Military Spouses
Host Jake Deptula and Family Law Attorney Michele Locke sit down with Justine, a former military wife and domestic abuse survivor, from episode three of lovelustfear, "You're Never Allowed to Leave Me." They discuss the challenges military spouses face in abusive relationships, the complexities of navigating the court system, and the biases that can impact legal outcomes. They also explore the journey of finding love and healing after trauma, the power dynamics within abusive relationships, and the vital importance of sharing survivor stories. Topics: abusive relationships, power dynamics, military spouses, survivor stories, healing, love, toxic relationship, military, support, court system, biases, listening, comfortable environments, survivors, domestic violence Justine - Episode Link "You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me" https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear-justine-youre-never-allowed-to-leave-me/id1735876283?i=1000653439092 https://open.spotify.com/episode/5bNWUWoj1deSI8kcANsGpo?si=7945e7c09356460e links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Military Spouse Support https://www.militaryonesource.mil/ Talk: 1.800.342.9647 Military OneSource is your 24/7 connection to information, answers, and support to help you reach your goals, overcome challenges, and thrive. As a member of our military family, you are eligible to use this Defense Department-funded program anytime, anywhere. Turn to Military OneSource for tax services, spouse employment help, webinars and online training, relocation, and deployment tools, and much more. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ Justine - Episode Link "You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me" https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 https://open.spotify.com/episode/5bNWUWoj1deSI8kcANsGpo?si=7945e7c09356460e guest + story | submission information If you have
Bonus · Mon, August 26, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Haunted Detective
Introducing – Haunted Detective A true crime podcast that investigates the Macabre side of the world. Kelsey Childs and her friend Pamela J explore Paranormal mysteries nestled within the strangest crime cases you will ever hear about. From human doll makers and odd hauntings to people who vanished without a trace, the Haunted Detective podcast is a series that will make you question everything. The Murder of Pravin Varughese: Police Negligence & Racial Discrimination Kelsey and Pamela are going to be deep diving into the murder of Pravin Varughese; a case that has involved horrific displays of racial prejudice, police negligence and just overall bizarre court rulings. OFFICIAL FB PAGE FOR PRAVIN & AND PETITION https://www.facebook.com/ justiceforpravin/ https://www.change.org/p/united-states-supreme-court-justice-for-pravin Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.instagram.com/haunted.detective/ https://link.chtbl.com/haunteddetective https://www.spreaker.com/ podcast/haunted-detective--6251382/support
Bonus · Mon, August 12, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | sins & survivors: las vegas true crime
Introducing: Sins & Survivors: Las Vegas True Crime – What if the system you trust to protect you fails miserably? We're diving into a narrative that paints this grim picture in the tale of Phoukeo Dej-Oudom and her children. Tragically, their plea for protection fell on deaf ears, and the consequences were fatal. They were robbed of their dreams and their lives in the city that markets itself as the city of second chances - Las Vegas. This heart-wrenching episode of Sins & Survivors brings to light the intersection of domestic violence and gun violence. The haunting echo of Phoukeo’s story is resounding in our current legal landscape, with a Supreme Court case considering the constitutionality of gun removal in the cases of protective orders being argued in November 2023. It’s a complex matter, and we’re taking a hard look at the way victim blaming permeates these narratives. Join us as Shaun and John confront the unrealistic expectations of easy answers. http://sinspod.co/episode2sources Domestic Violence Resources http://sinspod.co/resources Visit and join our Patreon now and access our ad-free episodes and exclusive bonus content & schwag! https://sinspod.co/patreon Apple Podcast Subscriptions https://sinspod.co/apple Let us know what you think about the episode https://www.buzzsprout.com/twilio/text_messages/2248640/open_sms Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you. Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/sins-survivors-a-las-vegas-true-crime-podcast--6173686/support .
Fri, August 09, 2024
lovelustfear | lorraine | you have to be very careful with him
After her divorce, Lorraine sought advice from a shaman, who encouraged her to let others take the lead. She started taking dance classes and began dating her partner, who eventually revealed himself to be a manipulative and controlling narcissist, drawing her into a cycle of escalating abuse. **This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, racism, and mental, emotional, and physical abuse. Listener discretion is advised.** chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:58) about lorraine (02:51) lorraine’s story (47:10) questions & answers (49:34) closing thoughts (50:37) charity & organizations (51:07) submit your story (51:17) disclaimer quotes “I decided to take therapy sessions from a shaman. And she said to Lorraine, you have problems being led.” - Lorraine “I always already checking off all the boxes of how could I be the helper in this the Savior in this relationship?” - Lorraine “...she said, it took me eight years to get my life back together after what he did to me. And she said, This man will break you down until you are absolutely nothing.” - Lorraine “I would often lock myself in rooms to get away from him because sometimes things became violent…” - Lorraine “...the Police officer flips open his gun, puts his hand on his gun and says to me, are you resisting arrest? And that's when it hit me. I'm like, Oh my God. I am a black English speaking woman in a French speaking province. I am fucked.” - Lorraine “We keep our head up and we walk strong and we believe in God. And we believe in higher power, and we believe in kindness, and that's what's kept me through.” - Lorraine music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Samuel Kamau, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lorraine) Go Fund Me Page: https://gofund.me/5bd8a430 Narcissism The Comedy Night: https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-a-comedy-night Narcissism The Improvised Musical : https://www.montrealimprov.com/shows/narcissism-the-musical-a-fundraising-event Instagram: www.instagram.com/thestarparentpodcast Woman Aware: https://www.womenaware.ca/ Natalie Bedard better known as NatNat Energy Hea
Bonus · Wed, July 31, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Women & Crime
Introducing: Women and Crime — Two Criminologists cover a new female-focused case each episode. You’ll hear the stories of these women, paired with the science that tells you where it all went wrong. We’ll explore the causes of female crime, victimology, the legal system, as well as celebrate heroines who have left their mark on the criminal justice system. Dr Meghan Sacks and Dr Amy Shlosberg are both Professors of Criminology at Fairleigh Dickinson University. Both have years of first-hand experience working with offenders and professionals in the criminal justice system. They teach classes covering topics such as: Women & Crime, Race & Crime, Criminology, and Serial Killers. Find us wherever you listen to podcasts, or go to: https://womenandcrimepodcast.com/how-to-listen/ Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/women-and-crime/id1485129718 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/6TCBkYEtwkBsDl5UrYDa1b Follow us: • Instagram @womenandcrimepodcast • TikTok @womenandcrime
Wed, July 24, 2024
lovelustfear | terra | i want you to always be available to me
At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship. **This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.** chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:42) about terra (02:23) terra’s story (33:25) questions & answers (36:46) closing thoughts (37:43) charity & organizations (38:12) submit your story (38:23) disclaimer quotes “I found myself leaning into the attention whenever I would get it. And then when the attention would stop, I would seek it out.” - Terra “…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra “With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra “It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra “I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terra music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001 - 003) and Neon City by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Cybercutie, AlesiaDavina, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (terra) https://seasonofjustice.org https://www.terranewellsurvival.com National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ I'll Take The Stairs Merch 25% of Sale Proceeds go to Season of Justice! https://www.terra
Trailer · Tue, July 16, 2024
lovelustfear | special announcements | july 2024
lovelustfear is being developed as a streaming TV series! (Listen for more details.) L.A. Not So Confidential Live Video Q&A with Jake Deptula https://www.youtube.com/live/CMkObn9BTc0?si=VGaG0rDPZUGHuKe5 Story Submission (Podcast & Streaming TV Series) E-mail: lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Form Submission: https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear DM: https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ For video previews, check out our Instagram https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ Strictly Stalking Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 https://open.spotify.com/show/5dw1NJIObaOsj0o7JdruVQ L.A. Not So Confidential Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier/id1293032240 https://open.spotify.com/show/21dpgZ5V9I9m2RI8tB8Nr2 Thank you so much!
Wed, July 10, 2024
lovelustfear | emma | you should be scared
Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:29) about emma (02:23) emma’s story (28:31) questions & answers (32:40) closing thoughts (33:37) charity & organizations (34:07) submit your story (34:17) disclaimer quotes “All in the same week, I lost a dog, a job, a relationship, and a house. It was just like one of those things where your world is completely turned upside down and you're very vulnerable, right?” - Emma “I run into Ben again, and Ben is somebody that women do see and say, wow, that guy's very attractive. And, we exchanged numbers and decided to go out for drinks one night… within a couple weeks, he had said, I want you to be my girlfriend.” - Emma “He'd always kind of put on this good face for other people and then if there was any sort of stress or something that he perceived as a stress it would set him off.” - Emma “My sense of safety around him, I think I was always aware that the day could be a bad day or like, I hope he's not in a bad mood and anything could really put him in a bad mood.” - Emma “And I said something like, you're really scaring me, and all of a sudden he goes looks at me and he goes ‘you should be scared’ and he puts his foot on the gas like all the way, you know, ninety miles an hour swerving, screeching, whipping around and I'm just absolutely freaking out.” - Emma “I didn't want to give him the power to ruin romantic love for me or the idea of a relationship for me, I wasn't going to do that.” - Emma music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001 & 002) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (emma) Kimberly Weeks https://www.thenarcissisticabusecoach.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featu
Bonus · Wed, July 03, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Ex-Wives Undercover: Liars, Cheaters, & Love Cons
The podcast that goes ‘undercover’ to help women understand the seedy tactics of love criminals so you can live happily ever after, Psychopath Free! If you love stories about romance scams, catfishing, cheaters exposed, gaslighting, and people who live double lives, this podcast is right up your alley – where the line between true crime and matters of the heart blurs. Ex-Wives Undercover shares chilling tales of survivors who conquered the ultimate crime of toxic love. Learn to spot the red flags, protect yourself, and find solace in the stories of those who've walked away from the brink. Subscribe now to join our community and become an undercover detective in pursuit of healing and justice. Every Tuesday, the investigation continues. EX-WIVES UNDERCOVER: LIARS, CHEATERS, AND LOVE CONS Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/the-trail-went-cold/id1084020770 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/5goyIEk4DkTi79WFl0fg29 Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/5f456d64-3863-418f-8359-bbd91cf184ff/ex-wives-undercover-liars-cheaters-love-cons Instagram https://www.instagram.com/exwivesundercover/ TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@exwives_undercover Website https://www.exwivesundercover.com Podcast Episode Strictly Stalking 164 “Shared Stalker: Ex-Wives Undercover” https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/s4-e164-shared-stalker-ex-wives-undercover/id1494237083 Podcast Episode Ex-Wives Undercover: The Maintenance Man [Part 1 of 2] feat. Jake Deptula https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/juliette-the-maintenance-man-part-1-of-2/id1536067021?i=1000641811492
Wed, June 26, 2024
lovelustfear | debra | i’ve always seemed to attract the crazy type
After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:38) about debra (02:18) debra’s story (27:03) questions & answers (34:50) closing thoughts (35:36) charity & organizations (36:15) submit your story (36:26) disclaimer quotes “...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra “I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra “So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra “Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra “And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra guest links | debra The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/alternative-hair-alchemist-a-podcast-about/id1627588998 music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( https://incompetech.com/ ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (debra) National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism https://www.niaaa.nih.gov/alcohols-effects-health/niaaa-middle-school/helpful-resources The mission of the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism is to generate and disseminate fundamental knowledge about the adverse effects of alcohol on health and well-being, and apply that knowledge to improve diagnosis, prevention, and treatment of alcohol-related problems, including alcohol use
Trailer · Tue, June 25, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Crime Salad
Ashley and Ricky, the dynamic duo behind Crime Salad, bring their unique perspectives and captivating storytelling to unravel some of the most intriguing criminal cases. With each episode, they dive deep into the details, providing listeners with a thought-provoking exploration of the darker side of humanity. Join them every week as they serve up a chilling dish of true crime that will leave you craving for more. Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/crime-salad/id1457141569 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/3i7DxU0YyDnaMVdDrF4fpG Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/e46bf5f7-2c1e-4b53-8fe0-b98da37c20df/crime-salad Instagram https://www.instagram.com/crimesaladpodcast Facebook https://www.facebook.com/crimesaladpodcast/
Trailer · Thu, June 20, 2024
lovelustfear | special announcements | june 2024
Thank you all for listening and subscribing to lovelustfear. I'm so grateful to all the brave guests who have joined the show and shared their important stories with us. If you're listening and eager for more dating and relationship stories, please consider supporting the show by rating and leaving a review wherever you listen. Listeners on Spotify can engage with one-click polls after each episode and share their own dating experiences and thoughts on the episodes in the comments. https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec And I'm excited to announce lovelustfridays, a panel discussion series available here every other Friday where I invite previous guests and experts for an extended exploration of their stories and give you a chance to submit any questions you have. For video previews, check out our Instagram https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ And if you'd like to share your dating and relationship story, I want to hear it. You can reach me at lovelustfearpod@gmail.com or: https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear Thank you so much!
Wed, June 19, 2024
lovelustfear | kenzi | i think we met awkward twelve minutes ago
Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:42) about kenzi (02:26) kenzi’s story (22:00) questions & answers (29:22) closing thoughts (30:19) charity & organizations (30:49) submit your story (31:00) disclaimer quotes “I started to really realize like, okay, I'm going to have to leave this marriage because if I don't leave this marriage at some point, I'm not so sure I'm going to make it out at all.” - Kenzi “I have got to rebuild my life. And I finally get to this point where I want to start the process of exploring dating.” - Kenzi “And he just looks me dead in the face. And he says, If you're not going or staying the night, I might as well just go ahead and get this over with.” - Kenzi “I'm just like, God, please let me get my shoes on and get the fuck out of here, like, please, just let me get the fuck out of here safe, like, please don't let anything happen to me.” - Kenzi “And what I would tell them is that you have no idea what somebody is going through until you are standing right in their shoes and you're put into the exact same situation. You don't know how you would react. You don't know how you would act. You don't know what you would say.” - Kenzi guest links | kenzi Inside The Case | Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/inside-the-case/id1679471501 Instagram | Kenzi Durbin https://www.instagram.com/thisiskenzi_/ music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Jan Hill, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (kenzi) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission infor
Trailer · Tue, June 18, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | Cheating: When Love Lies
Affairs are prevalent but rarely talked about relationships. The podcast, Cheating: When Love Lies , is a deep dive into the complex emotions surrounding these secret unions. Creator and host, Jillian Hamilton, delves into this taboo topic and asks the hard questions about affairs: how common are they, who's having them, and why? These questions illicit unexpected answers that reveal both men and women as people actively seeking something - validation, escape, understanding, vengeance, thrill, love, sex, and romance - outside of marriage or committed partnerships. Cheating: When Love Lies resists the condemnation of affairs as uniquely wrong or bad and instead considers their usefulness in learning as much about relationships as we learn about our ourselves. On the podcast, Jillian Hamilton narrates short fictional stories about cheating based on true life events. The narration is followed by a roundtable discussion with everyday people who share their unique perspectives. Jillian also interviews cheaters and betrayed partners. These interviews are raw and real-and at times maddening or heartbreaking. Listen now to Cheating: When Love Lies . Are you ready for the truth? Apple Podcasts https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/cheating-when-love-lies/id1575403464 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/51sjxVIFw6QhbtuwIg8166 Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/d862fa78-ec68-43fe-ad28-9df4d0fc8268/cheating-when-love-lies Instagram https://www.instagram.com/cheatingwhenlovelies/ Websites https://www.jillianhamilton.online/about-podcast-cheating-when-love-lies https://www.podcastone.com/pd/Cheating-When-Love-Lies
Wed, June 12, 2024
lovelustfear | kaitlyn | we didn’t have boundaries
Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:21) about kaitlyn (02:11) kaitlyn’s story (19:02) questions & answers (23:30) closing thoughts (24:18) charity & organizations (24:48) submit your story (24:59) disclaimer quotes “I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn “We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn “He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn “I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (002-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (kaitlyn) Cleveland Rape Crisis Center https://clevelandrapecrisis.org/ Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change. Futures Without Violence https://www.futureswithoutviolence.org/ For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lo
Bonus · Mon, June 10, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | L.A. Not So Confidential
L.A. Not So Confidential is a True Crime and Forensic Psychology podcast hosted by two Los Angeles - based psychologists currently working in the criminal justice field. Dr. Shiloh & Dr. Scott have a unique perspective on True Crime as residents of the center of the entertainment world and the birthplace of the Noir Crime Genre. Listen on Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier/id1293032240 Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/21dpgZ5V9I9m2RI8tB8Nr2 Listen on Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/4e44887d-a989-4d5b-afb7-e10fff6b6acb/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier-forensic-psychology-podcast Website https://www.la-not-so-confidential.com/ Instagram https://www.instagram.com/lanotsopodcast/ TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/tag/lanotsoconfidential
Wed, June 05, 2024
lovelustfear | lena | he’s your problem now
Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:46) about lena (02:47) lena’s story (33:10) questions & answers (37:59) closing thoughts (38:50) charity & organizations (39:19) submit your story (39:30) disclaimer quotes “I came from a traditional Armenian family. my cultural heritage is from Turkey. my grandparents were both survivors of the Armenian genocide. my parents were first generation, I'm second. And I was raised in a very strict household.” - Lena “My father would say conflicting statements like you can do anything you want to do in life as long as you put your mind to it. Whereas my mother on the other side would say a girl's place is in the home taking care of her family.” - Lena “He took me to the most extravagant Restaurant. he was dressed to the nines, and he got me flowers and gifts, and you're beautiful. You're perfect. I've never imagined myself with anybody so wonderful as you and I think that we could build a future together.” - Lena “It progressively got worse and worse and worse. he started to degrade me, and he got very controlling. He told me what I could wear, how I could wear it. how to wear my makeup, how to wear my hair, And he told me what type of underwear to wear, and if I didn't do it, then there was going to be some form of emotional punishment.” - Lena “And she said, ‘You've got 30 minutes to get your cats in their carriers, get your purse on your back, and get out of the house or I'm going to call the police.’” - Lena “...if you're in a situation where you're dealing with a narcissist and you're married to that, start planning, look for a way out. stash money away, get your jewelry, and hide it. And when the time is right, it's going to present itself and you get the hell out when you know you're supposed to leave and don't look back.” - Lena music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Leigh Robinson, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (lena) The Midnight Mission - TMM (Downtown Los Angeles, CA) https://www.midnightmission.org/ <a href="https://www.instagra
Trailer · Tue, June 04, 2024
lovelustfear | presents | The Murder Diaries
Hosts Natalie and Paige use straightforward storytelling to spotlight cold cases, missing persons, and suspicious deaths— often incorporating original audio from the victim’s friends and family. The podcast also includes monthly interviews about the true crime genre as a whole, whether that’s discussions on ethics, survivors sharing their stories, or other relevant topics. Connect with them at themurderdiariespodcast.com or on socials @themurderdiariespod Listen on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/55kyDPfEhaYMsEuTjChWE4?si=646fb6c4b8c24fc2 Listen on Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-murder-diaries/id1475609603
Thu, May 30, 2024
lovelustfear | laura | true love always
Laura reconnects with her grade school sweetheart sparking a wave of nostalgic romance. However, the warmth of their reunion soon fades as she becomes subjected to his abusive and destructive behavior. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:46) about laura (02:46) laura’s story (23:18) questions & answers (26:32) closing thoughts (27:44) charity & organizations (28:14) submit your story (28:25) disclaimer quotes “We went to fifth-grade camp. we were hanging out all the time, and I kind of got one of my crushes, you know, and I guess he did too, and then we ended up connecting…So we were boyfriend and girlfriend.” - Laura “We were joking about how we dated when we were younger and we still had the same sort of sense of humor, and the things that made us get along. I felt a special connection to him.” - Laura “We'd get into arguments and he would. Grab me by my throat and squeeze and choke me and look into my eyes….It was like something else took over him and sometimes I just see him enter a room and he would look like that and I was like, Oh, I better not talk.” - Laura “And, he was in there with a girl and he looked shocked and she didn't, because she didn't know about me, apparently she's just sitting there. I walked up to him and I was like, Oh, hi. And he looked at me like, Oh, And I said to her, hi, I'm his girlfriend.” - Laura “I saw more and more examples of healthy relationships like around me and I started recognizing it and being like this is just I can do better than this…” - Laura “I think that rationalizing is a problem. You can't try to justify other people's behavior. You can't try to rationalize other people's behavior. If you're doing that, there's a problem.” - Laura music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Fae Spencer, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (laura) NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) https://www.nami.org/ NAMI is the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. NAMI works to educate, support, advocate, listen and lead to improve the lives of people with mental illness and their loved ones. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to
Wed, May 22, 2024
lovelustfear | sadie | i could kill you right now
Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:42) about sadie (02:53) sadie’s story (24:43) questions & answers (29:30) closing thoughts (30:33) charity & organizations (31:03) submit your story (31:14) disclaimer quotes “I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie “...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie “I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie “And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door. And I was like, please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie “I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (sadie) https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free. CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and supp
Wed, May 15, 2024
lovelustfear | jenna | no one gets out this early
Jenna is swept off her feet by a charismatic chef and finds herself married within ninety days. But under his charming facade lurks a volatile temper as Jenna becomes the target of his rage, threats, and physical intimidation. chapters listen with caution | 00:00 next on lovelustfear | 00:16 about jenna | 01:20 jenna’s story | 02:12 questions & answers | 21:56 closing thoughts | 25:46 charity & organizations | 27:07 submit your story | 27:36 disclaimer | 27:47 quotes “And I was instantly taken with this man. he was tall, he was really, swarthy, dashing and would speak to me in Spanglish. And so we ended up making out and hanging out all night.” - Jenna “I knew this was moving really fast and I wanted it to I think I just felt so ready I want to get married and this guy was just so passionate and all about me.” - Jenna “...and he was calling me, blowing up my phone saying like, you better come home now or I'll kill myself and you have to deal with the body or I'll kill you if you don't come home.” - Jenna “And so as I was leaving, this woman pulled me aside…And she's like, Jenna, I read your file and this guy's going to try to kill you.” - Jenna “...I'm not going to blame myself because I just didn't have all the information. And then once I did get it, I took action. I knew I had to get out.” - Jenna music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay Crazy Love written by Van Morrison Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (jenna) Peace Over Violence https://www.peaceoverviolence.org/ Peace Over Violence is a nonprofit 501c3, multicultural, community based and volunteer centered organization dedicated to building healthy relationships, families and communities free from sexual, domestic and interpersonal violence. To achieve this mission our agency manages five departments delivering the services of Emergency, Intervention, Prevention, Education and Advocacy. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ <
Wed, May 08, 2024
lovelustfear | mira | a f**king broken mess
After tying the knot, Mira finds herself fostering an emotionally immature man-child whose public intoxication, abusive tendencies, threats of suicide, and troubling fixation with firearms put Mira and her daughter's lives at risk. chapters listen with caution | 00:00 next on lovelustfear | 00:16 about mira | 01:17 mira’s story | 02:05 questions & answers | 21:32 closing thoughts | 25:09 charity & organizations | 26:24 submit your story | 26:54 disclaimer | 27:05 quotes “I never really learned how to date in a healthy way. in my twenties, I definitely was part of that more of a big, binge-drinking culture where you went out on Friday night and drank a lot. And so then I'd meet men drinking, and then they turned out to, you know, have alcohol problems.” - Mira “When I started internet dating, I got all those responses, including him. We were first talking, and I took screenshots of those back then because I knew it was not quite right.” - Mira “It was very eye-opening in a lot of ways because in a sense, it was like adopting him as a teenager, really what it felt like because I had taken on all of these responsibilities.” - Mira “And I was afraid he was going to commit suicide. I was afraid he was going to kill us. and he was driving by the house and all this shit and so he had no support system. He's never had any friends.” - Mira “I had to trust my path and I don't do well with that. I like knowing what comes next. So you have to trust that you will be okay and you have to lean on others and come into a space of receiving and acceptance and put that out into the universe.” - Mira music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Samuel Kamau, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, and TheoJT from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (mira) One Mom’s Battle https://www.onemomsbattle.com/ One Mom’s Battle is the intersection of narcissistic abuse and child custody issues. The mission at One Mom’s Battle is to raise awareness and educate family court professionals on post separation abuse as it relates to co-parenting and the family court system (divorce, paternity and child custody battles). Education on high-conflict individuals and post separation abuse will allow family court professionals (Judges, Commissioners, Magistrates, CPS workers, Guardian ad Litems (GAL), Parenting Coordinators (PC), Custody Evaluators, therapists and attorneys) to recognize the ab
Wed, May 01, 2024
lovelustfear | gabi | we can't break up
Gabi's dating life takes a darker turn when she finds herself entangled in a toxic workplace romance with an abusive partner and is forced to conceal his drug addiction and self-destructive tendencies to protect his career. chapters listen with caution | 00:00 next on lovelustfear | 00:17 about gabi | 01:19 gabi’s story | 02:24 questions & answers | 21:15 closing thoughts | 26:24 charity & organizations | 27:41 submit your story | 28:11 disclaimer | 28:22 quotes “I was in my early to mid-twenties, really living my best life in West Hollywood. I was really at an exciting point in my career where it felt like anything was possible.” - Gabi “When I found out that we would be working on a show together, I knew that that was wrong. I was like, I don't want to date someone I work with. That's really problematic.” - Gabi “…there would always be alcohol. He'd always be drinking when I first went to his place. And I'm like, oh, he must, like, have friends over a lot and he must party a lot.” - Gabi “He went from being someone who was so supportive of me and encouraging of me and my career to someone who was telling me I wasn't good enough. I wasn't funny enough. I'll never amount to something.” - Gabi “And he would do things to make that very difficult. Bring different girls every night to the tapings of the show, flaunt that he was dating other people in front of my face. He really went out of his way to make me feel like crap, and to make it really hurt.” - Gabi “That relationship messed me up. That abusive relationship did not look like what I thought abusive relationships looked like.” - Gabi learn more about gabi personal website | https://www.gabiconti.com/ instagram | https://www.instagram.com/itsgabiconti/ tiktok | https://www.tiktok.com/@itsgabiconti twitter | https://twitter.com/itsgabiconti book | https://www.gabiconti.com/book-twenty-guys-you-date-in-your-twenties-by-gabi-conti bad influencer | podcast | https://link.chtbl.com/LdLb8v6u music | sounds Music Attribution: Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 and The Question Is (Quizpackage) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Piotr Witowski, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalen
Wed, April 24, 2024
lovelustfear | justine | you’re never allowed to leave me
When 19-year-old Justine fell for a mature and charming military man, she believed she had found her forever. But the husband she once trusted to protect her became the very person she needed protection from. chapters listen with caution | 00:00 next on lovelustfear | 00:16 about justine | 01:19 justine’s story | 02:14 questions & answers | 28:20 closing thoughts | 37:00 charity & organizations | 38:00 submit your story | 38:39 disclaimer | 38:40 quotes “This guy came to our house. I had seen a photo of him and my dad, in their, army uniforms. So the very first time I ever met him, I thought he was, like, even better looking.” - Justine “My parents would like very gingerly tell me like, ‘hey, I don't think he's treating you the way you should be treated.’ I just pushed it aside, and thought that, they just didn't know him as well as I did. They're gonna eventually see how wonderful he is.” - Justine “I would be laying in bed in the middle of the night and be like, I'm gonna be a statistic. I'm gonna wake up one morning and he's just gonna decide that he's done with me living.” - Justine “…there had just been so many years of hearing how I was, like, the bad one, I was the bad person, um, and so it took me a long time to, like, break myself of that habit of thinking that I was always in the wrong.” - Justine music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) and Cinematic Suspense Series Episode 004 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Jalal Mansour Amine, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Oleksii Holubiev, and Syouki Takahashi from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (justine) YWCA of Greater Harrisburg http://www.ywcahbg.org / National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | <a href="http://
Wed, April 17, 2024
lovelustfear | desiree | his name was SMITTY
In a time before Tinder, Desiree takes the plunge into online dating. She catches the eye of Smitty, a seemingly handsome stranger whose Polaroid profile snapshots obscure his hidden reality. chapters listen with caution | 00:00 next on lovelustfear | 00:16 about desiree | 00:58 desiree’s story | 02:19 questions & answers | 15:41 closing thoughts | 24:28 charity & organizations | 25:30 submit your story | 26:00 disclaimer | 26:11 quotes “So I block him. Even when I would block him, there would be other accounts that I would have to block later. He was all over the place. I mean, I couldn't avoid him.” - Desiree “So my best friend says, give the guy a chance. I don't necessarily trust her instincts, but this time I'm like, maybe I'm wrong.” - Desiree “Now, at this point, we've had a date, we haven't talked about a second date, but in his conversation that we're having, he's already talking like we're a couple. Oh, I can't wait till you see my home. You're just gonna, you're totally gonna love it. You're gonna make it, it needs a woman's touch and I think you're the woman to do it.” - Desiree “Even if it feels funny, even if you're not sure, even if your friends are going, Oh, why don't you try it? The one thing I've learned in my life is that more times than not, nine times out of ten, when I trust my gut, I'm right every time.” - Desiree music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): The Question Is (Quizpackage) and Just Deep 1 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Other Music and Sound Effects by Jan Hill, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Geoff Harvey, Yevhenii Kovalenko, and teddy williams from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (desiree) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Chartable <a href="https://lin
Wed, April 10, 2024
lovelustfear | alona | the only single one left
After finding herself the only single one left among her girlfriends, Alona decides to give relationships another try, leading her into one of the most isolating, depressing, and dangerous chapters of her life. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (00:58) about alona (02:08) alona’s story (18:04) questions & answers (24:31) closing thoughts (25:36) charity & organizations (26:05) submit your story (26:16) disclaimer quotes “You know, he was charming in the beginning. He really was. All the things he was saying, it was charming. He was moving really fast. I let him in so early because I wanted it so bad.” - Alona “I’m depressed. I'm lonely and this man is cheating on me. I had no one to talk to because everybody was angry that I wasn't listening to them. I was embarrassed because they, they all warned me and they were right.” - Alona “I prayed and prayed to get out of this situation, but I didn't know how because he would find me. He knew where my house, you know, if I went back to my house, he knew where I lived. If I go to my mom's house, he knew where she lived.” - Alona “You can't explain it. All you know is that you were caught in this web and you were lured in and you were like preyed on. One day was too long. Three years was way too long. Don't feel embarrassed. Talk to somebody, get empowered. You're not alone.” - Alona music | sounds Music by Leigh Robinson from Pixabay Music by UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Sound Effect by AlesiaDavina from Pixabay Music by Samuel F. Johanns from Pixabay Music by Jan Hill from Pixabay Music (CC BY 4.0): Imagefilm 033 and Lost Place Atmospheres 001 by Sascha Ende "Very Low Note" Kevin MacLeod ( incompetech.com ) Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 4.0 License http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/ stay aware | follow | share (alona) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail |
Trailer · Wed, March 13, 2024
lovelustfear | trailer
lovelustfear is a new podcast series exposing the darker side of dating and relationships. Every episode is an exploration into true dating and relationship stories — from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. Host Jake Deptula welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. lovelustfear is a compelling, terrifying, but always insightful exploration into toxic dating and relationships that will have you abandoning courtesy and listening with caution. story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear e-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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