Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
In a world full of social media promoting "perfect lives", many of us are afraid to show our true authentic selves. The good, the bad and the ugly. Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss is a podcast that aims to reveal the truth that lies behind the masks we wear. After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life...
S4 E119 · Sun, April 20, 2025
Ep 119. From Million-Dollar Listings to a Midlife Reawakening, with Andrew Campbell
In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Andrew Campbell, founder of Hush Property and a respected figure in Melbourne’s high-end real estate market. Known for selling luxury homes with discretion and heart, Andrew shares a side of himself few ever see—the man behind the polished exterior, and the deeply personal journey that shaped him. Andrew opens up about losing his father at age 22, growing up with a mother living with bipolar disorder, and how work became both a coping mechanism and an addiction. From battling insecurities and being bullied at school to navigating grief, divorce, financial setbacks, and public criticism, Andrew reflects on the moments that brought him to his knees and the mindset shifts that helped him stand back up. Now 50, and entering what he calls his “second act,” Andrew shares how cold immersion, gut health, affirmations, inner child work, and spiritual practices have helped him redefine what success truly means. This is a powerful story of vulnerability, fatherhood, and the quiet transformation that happens when someone decides to stop performing and start living. The episode highlights are: 04:31 Daily Life and Holistic Wellbeing 07:12 Hiding Behind a Smile: Andrew's Struggles 13:00 Childhood Reflections: The Fat Boy Struggle 15:14 Family Dynamics: Growing Up with Mental Illness 18:03 The Impact of Grief: Losing a Father at 22 22:07 Navigating Young Adulthood: Partying and Loss 25:23 Coping with Mental Illness in the Family 27:24 Career Transition: From Personal Trainer to Real Estate 27:43 From Business Setbacks to Real Estate Success 30:05 The Drive for Success and Competitive Spirit 31:14 Overcoming Financial Struggles and Criticism 34:49 Navigating Criticism and Embracing Change 36:30 The Power of Self-Talk and Mindset 38:11 Health Practices: Cold Water, Sauna, and Gut Health 41:34 The Importance of Following Your Intuition 44:41 Reality TV: A New Challenge and Branding Opportunity 49:24 Personal Growth and Comfort in One's Skin 52:50 Looking Ahead: Family and Presence Over Material Success 55:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Andrew Campbell on his Instagram or through the Hush website . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: <
S4 E118 · Sun, April 13, 2025
Ep 118. Rewiring The Subconscious and Healing Your Trauma, with Katharine McLean
In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with Katharine McLean, a holistic counselor, trauma-informed mentor, and founder of The Light Becomes Her. With over 23 years of experience guiding others through healing, Katharine shares her deeply personal journey through addiction, recovery, and inner transformation. After decades of high-functioning alcohol use and hidden drug addiction, Katharine hit rock bottom while leading mental health teams by day and battling inner chaos by night. In this conversation, Ash and Katharine dive into the root causes of addiction, childhood trauma, and the disconnection from self that fuels destructive behaviors. Katharine opens up about how she used inner child work, subconscious reprogramming, and spiritual practices to rebuild her identity from the inside out. This is an intimate and enlightening conversation about healing the nervous system, rewiring belief systems, and stepping into a life of authenticity, service, and grace. If you’ve ever wondered what’s possible beyond addiction, this episode will leave you inspired. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Katharine McLean 03:05 Katharine's Daily Life and Practices 05:54 Overcoming Barriers to Ecstatic Dance 08:59 Hiding Behind a Smile: Katharine's Photo Story 14:55 The Reality of Addiction: Functioning Alcoholism 20:00 Childhood Experiences and Their Impact 28:02 Seeking Approval and Relationship Patterns 31:00 The Role of Inner Child Work in Healing 38:16 The Illusion of Quick Fixes 41:46 Meditation as a Tool for Transformation 45:46 The Breaking Point: A Journey to Sobriety 52:30 From Recovery to Empowerment: Building a Business 56:29 Emotional Regulation: The Mind-Body Connection 01:01:35 Navigating Business and Personal Growth 01:06:36 The Power of Choice in Recovery You can connect with Katharine McLean on her Instagram or through her website . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok <a href="https://www.facebook.com/ashbutterssthemak
S4 E117 · Sun, April 06, 2025
Ep 117. Learning to Grow Through What You Go Through, with Rod Butterss
In this deeply personal episode, Ash sits down with her dad, Rod Butterss, a seasoned entrepreneur, former AFL club president, and long-time member of the recovery community. Together, they reflect on life in recovery, the reality of relapse, cultivating self-awareness, and what it means to truly reinvent yourself at any stage of life. Rod opens up about his recent relapse after more than a decade of sobriety and the humility and courage it took to come back and start again. With honesty and warmth, he shares stories from his life, including his busy childhood in a household of 12, navigating trauma, addiction, enormous success, financial loss, and rebuilding with purpose. Ash and Rod explore the emotional landscape of identity, love, intimacy, and grief, and how Rod is using this chapter of his life to reflect, heal, and deepen his spiritual practices. They also discuss his ambitious new venture in biotechnology and why he's more committed than ever to living in alignment and being of service. This is a story about second chances, self-reflection, and the power of choosing to grow through what you go through. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Recovery 02:59 The Importance of Family Bonds 05:49 Navigating Recovery and Self-Education 08:56 Public Perception vs. Personal Struggles 11:59 The Role of Vulnerability in Recovery 15:01 Understanding Relapse and Its Impact 18:06 Exploring Childhood Trauma and Relationships 20:54 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Acceptance 23:56 The Power of Intuition and Energy 26:50 Grief, Masculinity, and Emotional Expression 31:07 Navigating Grief and Coping Strategies 34:30 Resilience and Life's Unexpected Turns 39:20 The Journey of Entrepreneurship and Generosity 45:32 Taking Steps Towards Change and Recovery 49:03 Understanding Choices and Personal Growth 55:51 Facing Addiction and Seeking Help You can connect with Rod Butterss on his Linkedin . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E116 · Sun, March 30, 2025
Ep 116. Finding Freedom in Fitness, with Niki Kiskiras
In this latest episode, Ash sits down with beauty corporate executive and fitness instructor Niki Kiskiras. Beyond her career achievements, Niki shares her deeply personal journey of self-discovery, overcoming societal expectations, and reclaiming her independence after ending her marriage in her late 20s. Coming from a traditional Greek-Australian background, Niki opens up about the immense shame and fear she faced when making the decision to leave her marriage, a life path she had followed because it was what was “expected.” She reflects on the pressure to present a perfect life while internally feeling lost, the guilt of disappointing her family, and the reality of choosing herself despite cultural norms and external judgment. Ash and Niki explore how fitness became a powerful tool for self-liberation, how her relationships evolved post-divorce, and why she ultimately stepped into a life of authenticity, personal growth, and fearless reinvention. They also discuss Nikki’s decision to freeze her eggs as an act of self-empowerment, navigating grief in unexpected moments, and what it means to truly invest in oneself. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity 02:52 Niki's Journey: From Corporate to Fitness Instructor 06:05 The Impact of Family and Cultural Background 08:57 Navigating Life's Challenges and Personal Growth 12:08 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Wedding Photo Story 14:57 The Decision to Separate: Fear and Shame 17:54 Finding Authenticity and Purpose 21:02 The Role of Fitness in Personal Transformation 23:45 Living Consciously: The Relationship with Alcohol 31:05 Navigating Personal Growth and Friendships 36:01 The Journey of Egg Freezing 42:30 Understanding Relationship Needs 52:24 The Reality Behind Social Media 57:31 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Niki Kiskiras on her fitness page Instagram . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook <a href="http://www.ashbutterss.com" target="
S4 E115 · Sun, March 23, 2025
Ep 115. It’s Never Too Late to Start Over, with Belinda Stark
In this episode, Ash sits down with Alcohol and Midlife Coach, Belinda Stark, who shows that it’s never too late to transform your life after making her own significant changes in her mid-50s. After running a successful fashion business for over a decade, Belinda made the bold decision to change careers, inspired by her own journey of overcoming depression, breast cancer, divorce, and a complex relationship with alcohol. Belinda shares her personal struggles, including postnatal depression and hospitalisation after the birth of her second son, the moment she realised alcohol was no longer serving her, and how she finally found the courage to step into sobriety. She reflects on the tools that helped her along the way, the challenges of reprogramming deep-seated beliefs, and the incredible shifts she has experienced in her relationships, self-esteem, and overall happiness. Ash and Belinda also discuss the importance of self-compassion, navigating midlife reinvention, and why it’s never too late to make a change. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Resilience 02:39 Belinda Stark: A Journey of Courage 08:28 Hiding Behind the Smile: The Struggles Within 18:02 Childhood Influences and Early Habits 22:50 The Turning Point: Acknowledging Alcoholism 26:36 Facing Breast Cancer: A Life-Altering Diagnosis 30:09 Overcoming Health Challenges 33:08 The Role of Mindset in Recovery 35:16 The Journey to Sobriety Begins 39:39 Tapering vs. Cold Turkey: Finding What Works 40:59 Navigating Social Situations Sober 47:27 Tools for Sustaining Sobriety 49:02 Transforming Relationships Through Sobriety 53:44 Empowering Change in Midlife 55:53 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Belinda Stark on Instagram or through her website. To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook <a href="http://www.ashbutterss.com" target="_blank" rel="ugc noopener
S4 E114 · Sun, March 16, 2025
Ep 114. The True Cost of Success, with Ryan Trainor
In this latest episode, Ash has a deep and powerful conversation with Ryan Trainor, exploring his transformative journey from a successful entrepreneur to a more authentic and balanced human. They discuss the importance of curiosity, connection, and the need to let go of control in life. Ryan shares his experiences with mental health, the pressures of success, and the impact of childhood on his quest for relevance. The conversation also touches on the use of psychedelics for personal growth and the empowerment that comes from taking responsibility for your relationships and experiences. Ash and Ryan explore the constructs of reality, the importance of community and connection, and the journey of personal growth through challenges. They discuss the need for open conversations, the impact of facing rock bottom, and the transformative power of meditation and mindfulness. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity 01:47 Ryan Treanor's Entrepreneurial Journey and Wake-Up Call 03:06 Curiosity and Connection in Life 09:13 Letting Go of Control and Embracing Faith 11:24 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Cost of Success 18:15 Childhood Influences and the Quest for Relevance 24:39 Empowerment Through Responsibility and Relationships 27:19 Exploring Psychedelics and Personal Growth 32:04 The Constructs of Reality 34:06 Defining Our Avatars 36:25 The Need for Connection 37:51 Navigating Community and Authenticity 40:13 The Power of Open Conversations 44:20 Facing Rock Bottom 49:32 Meditation and Mindfulness 53:25 Shifting Desires and Values 57:16 Creating Meaningful Memories 01:00:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Ryan Trainor on Instagram or LinkedIn . Listen to Ash and her dad’s episode on Trainable here. To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok
S4 E113 · Sun, March 09, 2025
Ep 113. Navigating Divorce in Sobriety, with Kath Elliott
In this episode, Ash welcomes back a friend of the show, Kath Elliott, an alcohol mindset coach now entering her sixth year of sobriety. Kath returns to share openly about her recent experience of navigating divorce in sobriety. Kath discusses the fears that held her back, and how she ultimately made the decision to choose herself. Ash and Kath go on to discuss the emotional rollercoaster of grief, self-discovery, and learning to sit with discomfort, and how Kath found clarity through sobriety. The ladies also explore dating sober, redefining wealth beyond finances, and the power of stepping into life’s unknowns with courage. If you’ve ever questioned whether staying is harder than leaving, or if you’re afraid of what’s on the other side of a massive life transition—this episode is for you. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Welcome Back: A Familiar Face 03:08 Navigating Life Changes: Grief and Divorce 05:55 The Decision to Separate: A Journey of Intuition 08:49 The Impact of Sobriety on Relationships 11:57 Children and Separation: A Delicate Balance 14:52 Redefining Success: Lessons from Marriage 18:02 Embracing the Unknown: The Power of Self-Love 20:52 Facing Fears: Financial and Emotional Challenges 24:09 The Journey of Dating Sober 26:54 Wealth Beyond Money: Redefining Abundance 30:06 Looking Ahead: Love and New Beginnings 33:08 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life You can connect with Kath Elliot on Instagram or through her website . To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E112 · Sun, March 02, 2025
Ep 112. From Reality Star to Rock Bottom and Recovery, with Davey Lloyd
In this episode of Behind the Smile, Ash is joined by former reality TV star Davey Lloyd, who you might recognise from shows including The Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise. Now a builder living in Sydney, Davey opens up about his struggles with addiction which took him to the brink of death after overdosing in 2023. In this candid conversation, Davey shares his harrowing journey through addiction, a life-threatening seizure, and the path he is now on in recovery. He reflects on the moments that led to his near-death experience, the emotional turmoil that followed, and the transformative power of rehabilitation. Davey discusses the importance of self-discovery, the challenges of maintaining sobriety, and his commitment to helping others facing similar struggles. This interview is as raw and unfiltered as it gets. The episode highlights include: 03:02 Valentine's Day Reflections and Sobriety 06:04 Daily Life and Struggles with Motivation 08:57 Understanding Addiction and Mental Health 11:58 The Impact of Childhood on Adult Behavior 14:49 The Burden of Shame and Guilt 18:05 Living Amends and Personal Growth 21:02 The Slow Process of Recovery 23:46 Learning to Connect Authentically 27:09 The Reality of Hair Loss and Substance Abuse 28:58 The Overdose Experience and Its Aftermath 32:31 The Turning Point: A Life-Altering Experience 39:06 Confronting Addiction: The Aftermath of a Seizure 48:35 Rehabilitation: A Journey of Self-Discovery 55:08 Finding Balance: Life After Rehab 01:01:15 Looking Ahead: Writing a Memoir and Advocacy You can connect with Davey Lloyd on Instagram here . To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E111 · Sun, February 23, 2025
Ep 111. Solo Episode: How I Made It To 5 Years Sober!
In this special solo episode of Behind the Smile, Ash Butterss marks a huge milestone—five years of sobriety. Reflecting on her journey from rock bottom to a life beyond her wildest dreams, Ash shares the raw truth about what it really takes to break free from addiction and step into a life of clarity, peace, and purpose. From walking into rehab convinced she’d learn to “drink like a lady” to realising she needed to create an entirely new life, Ash opens up about the lessons, struggles, and profound shifts that have shaped her over the last five years. She talks about overcoming shame, rebuilding self-trust, and learning to surrender to something bigger than herself. If you’re navigating your own transformation, whether in sobriety or any other area of life, this episode is filled with wisdom, hope, and a powerful reminder that real change happens one small step at a time. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Celebrating Five Years of Sobriety 02:55 Reflecting on the Journey to Recovery 06:10 The Transformation of Life Post-Rehab 09:00 Understanding the Roots of Addiction 11:55 The Role of Self-Discovery in Sobriety 15:11 Building a New Life After Addiction 17:57 The Importance of Community and Support 20:55 Facing Challenges in Early Sobriety 23:45 The Shift in Perspective on Alcohol 26:48 Embracing Change and Growth 30:03 The Power of Small Steps in Recovery 32:57 Finding Freedom in Sobriety 36:12 A Message of Hope and Encouragement The episode I referenced is called: Ep 61. Impulsivity, genetics and the science of addiction with Aaron Thomas To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E110 · Sun, February 16, 2025
Ep 110. The Truth About Healing at 20+ Years Sober, with Dean Beattie
In the latest episode of Behind the Smile, host Ash speaks with Dean Beattie, a longevity coach who’s overcome his own struggles with addiction. Having been sober for over 20+ years now, Dean shares candidly about the challenges he’s faced in recovery including healing his relationship with his family, overcoming financial fears and forming healthy intimate relationships. He reflects on the role of validation in his life and how he found the strength to get sober at the age of 28, ultimately transforming his life through the 12-step program and mindfulness practices. Dean also discusses the impact of grief, the role of therapy, and the significance of support systems for men. He also highlights the need for authentic connections and the benefits of holistic practices like yoga. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Behind the Smile: Introduction to Authenticity 05:05 Dean's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery 10:09 The Impact of Childhood on Addiction 14:52 The Role of Validation and Intimacy in Addiction 20:05 The Turning Point: Getting Sober at 28 25:08 The Transformation: Life After Recovery 29:28 Taking Ownership and Finding Peace 31:17 Navigating Grief and Loss 34:33 The Role of Therapy and Healing Modalities 37:15 Confronting Temptations and Living Authentically 40:30Making Amends and Family Dynamics 43:45 Men's Mental Health and Support Systems 46:34The Impact of Role Models on Men 48:26 Yoga: A Path to Connection and Healing 52:36 The Men's Reboot Program: A Holistic Approach You can connect with Dean Beattie on Instagram here or through his website here. To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E109 · Mon, February 10, 2025
Ep 109. 100 Days To Change Your Life, with Sober Flourish Founder Jodi Clark
In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Jodi Clark, a business mentor and alcohol-free coach, to discuss her journey towards sobriety and self-discovery. Jodi shares how it was actually a 100-day weight-loss challenge that motivated her to go alcohol free, yet after seeing the positive impact it had on her mental health and relationships, she decided to stay sober for good. In this conversation, Jodi shares her transformative journey towards sobriety, discussing the profound impact it has had on her self-esteem, relationships, and overall quality of life. Along her journey, Jodi has built a community supporting other women to go alcohol free and reflects openly on the challenges of balancing work and family life while pursuing her passion for helping others. Jodi also highlights the significance of vulnerability and authenticity in her journey, encouraging listeners to embrace their own paths to wellness. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Jodie Clark and Her Journey 02:56 Daily Life and Finding Joy in Work 06:03 Setting Intentions for the New Year 08:58 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jodie's Photo Reflection 11:59 The Impact of Alcohol on Jodie's Life 15:02 The Turning Point: A Hundred Day Challenge 17:57 The Journey to Sobriety and Self-Discovery 26:58 Transformative Journey: The Impact of Sobriety 33:12 Building Self-Esteem Through Sobriety 39:04 Creating a Supportive Community: SoberFlourish 45:05 Navigating Life's Challenges: Balancing Work and Family 51:02 Embracing Vulnerability: Lessons from the Journey You can connect with Jodi Clark on Instagram here. Or on her Sober Flourish website here . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E108 · Sun, February 02, 2025
Ep 108. From Poverty to Purpose with Alex Crouch
In this latest episode, Ash has a deep conversation with psychotherapist Alex Crouch, who shares his journey of overcoming alcoholism and the impact it had on his life. Alex discusses his childhood experiences growing up in the USSR before moving to Australia, his struggles to fit in, and how alcohol became a coping mechanism. He reflects on the consequences of his addiction, the lessons learned and the impact he now wants to make in the world. The conversation highlights the path to recovery, the significance of authenticity, and the ongoing journey of self-discovery and healing. The conversation also delves into men's mental health, the impact of societal pressures, and the complexities of relationships and self-esteem in recovery. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Authentic Living 02:57 Alex's Journey Through Addiction 05:48 The Impact of Alcohol on Identity 09:06 Consequences of Alcohol Abuse 11:58 Childhood Experiences and Their Influence 14:46 Family Dynamics and Addiction 17:51 The Search for Connection 20:54 Transitioning to Adulthood and Relationships 24:11 The Illusion of Happiness 26:52 Understanding Emotional Suppression 29:50 The Path to Recovery and Healing 31:42 The Journey to Recovery Begins 39:19 Understanding the Rock Bottom Experience 46:17 Men's Mental Health Crisis 54:08 Navigating Relationships and Self-Esteem 01:00:39 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Alex Crouch through his website here. To access your free guided meditations , head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E107 · Sun, January 26, 2025
Ep 107. Infidelity and Alcohol Addiction with Psychotherapist, Mel Watkins
In the latest episode of BTS, Ash speaks with Mel Watkins, a Psychotherapist specialising in addiction and mental health. Mel shares her personal journey of overcoming substance abuse, navigating relationships, and finding her purpose in helping others. The conversation delves into the complexities of addiction, the importance of self-care, and the impact of family dynamics on mental health. Mel's candid reflections on her past struggles and her path to sobriety provide valuable insights for anyone facing similar challenges. In this conversation, Mel shares her journey from working in the heavy party culture of events to getting sober and the profound impact that’s had on all areas of her life. She discusses the cycles of infidelity and alcoholism, the complexities of love addiction, and the importance of self-compassion and seeking specialised support in recovery. She highlights the significance of surrounding oneself with positive influences and the necessity of understanding one's own needs for a fulfilling life. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Mel Watkins and Her Journey 02:59 Daily Life and Self-Care as a New Mom 05:53 Navigating Social Situations in Sobriety 09:07 Hiding Behind a Smile: Mel's Past Struggles 12:03 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships 15:08 Realizations and Turning Points in Sobriety 18:04 The Journey to Becoming a Therapist 20:58 Childhood Experiences and Family Dynamics 23:54 The Complexity of Addiction in Family 27:03 Finding Purpose in Helping Others 37:11 Navigating Change: From Events to Mental Health Support 39:26 The Cycle of Infidelity and Alcoholism 43:42 Overcoming Infidelity: The Path to Sobriety 48:52 Understanding Love Addiction and Avoidance 56:56 Breaking the Cycle: Steps Towards Recovery You can connect with Mel Watkins on Instagram here and through her website here. To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram Join Holistic House TikTok <a href="https://www.facebook.co
S4 E106 · Sun, January 19, 2025
Ep 106. Staying Sober Through Life’s Challenges, with Patrick Kennedy
In this week’s episode, Ash welcomes back Patrick Kennedy to hear how he’s been managing life’s ups and downs in sobriety since recording their last episode together 18 months ago. They explore the challenges faced after the initial phase of sobriety, the importance of emotional health, and the significance of building connections within the recovery community. Patrick shares his experiences with daily routines, the impact of physical fitness, and his dabbling into breathwork. Patrick opens up vulnerably around his recent journey through heartbreak, and how at 3 years sober, he once again found himself hiding behind a smile. Ash and Patrick also discuss the role of spirituality in recovery, and the ongoing struggle to trust your own thoughts. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction and Journey of Sobriety 03:09 The Reality of Recovery 05:58 Daily Life and New Discoveries 08:45 Building Connections in Recovery 12:05 Emotional Sobriety vs. Physical Sobriety 15:00 Finding Gratitude and Moving Forward 17:58 Breathwork and Emotional Release 20:56 Reflections on a Photo from the Past 27:27 Navigating Heartbreak and Public Appearances 32:41 The Role of Faith in Recovery 37:04 Trusting Your Own Thinking 44:25 The Importance of Connection and Community 47:14 Reflections on Early Sobriety 50:09 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life You can connect with Patrick on Instagram at pks_pack and pkenners_ You can access free meditations through Ash’s Website here. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E105 · Sun, January 12, 2025
Ep. 105 Parenting with Compassion: Jacintha Field on Self-Regulation and Emotional Healing
In this episode of Behind the Smiles, Ash engages in a heartfelt conversation with Jacintha Field, a family and child counselor, about her transformative journey through personal challenges, including divorce and parenting. Jacintha shares her experiences with mental health, the importance of self-love, and the tools she has developed to support children in emotional distress. The discussion emphasizes the significance of boundaries, vulnerability, and the healing power of compassion, both for oneself and others. In this conversation, Ash Butterss discusses the complexities of parenting, particularly focusing on emotional regulation in children, the importance of self-worth, and the need for compassion and empathy in parenting. She emphasises the significance of allowing children to express their emotions, the necessity of setting boundaries, and the importance of self-regulation for parents. The discussion also touches on effective communication with children and the role of personal experiences in shaping parenting approaches. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Jacintha Field 02:25 Jacintha's Journey of Transformation 07:40 The Impact of Separation and Self-Discovery 13:22 Navigating Divorce and Parenting 15:20 Establishing Boundaries and Self-Care 22:19 Finding Strength in Vulnerability 26:09 Understanding Domestic Violence and Self-Worth 28:04 Emotional Regulation in Children 30:53 Compassion and Empathy in Parenting 33:09 Navigating Child Meltdowns 36:03 Communicating with Children as Adults 38:51 The Importance of Boundaries 41:39 Regulating Your Own Emotions as a Parent 46:23 Finding Inner Peace and Self-Compassion You can connect with Jacintha Field on Instagram here. https://www.instagram.com/jacinthafield/ To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S4 E104 · Sun, January 05, 2025
Ep. 104 Manifesting A Life Beyond Your Wildest Dreams, with Hayley Lloyd
To kick off season four of Behind The Smile, Ash welcomes Hayley Lloyd, a business and authority building mentor. Hayley shares her journey from a corporate hustler who struggled with substance abuse, to a successful seven-figure coach who is five years clean and sober. The conversation delves into Hayley's daily practices, the significance of visioning days for entrepreneurs, and her personal struggles with trauma and the facade of strength. Hayley reflects on her chaotic childhood and how it shaped her resilience and approach to life and business. In this conversation, Hayley and Ash explore the profound impact of family dynamics on emotional development, the role of alcohol as a coping mechanism, and the aftermath of trauma. They discuss their journeys towards sobriety, the challenges faced in relationships during recovery, and the healing that comes through spiritual awakening. This chat emphasises the importance of addressing underlying emotions and the transformative power of self-acceptance and accountability. In this conversation, Hayley shares her transformative journey from alcoholism to sobriety, which awakened her spiritual gifts and led her to a deeper understanding of inner authority. She discusses the importance of authenticity in personal and professional life, the role of spiritual practices in her coaching, and the significance of maintaining meaningful connections. Hayley highlights the necessity of somatic work and breathwork in healing and personal growth, and she outlines her non-negotiables for living an authentic life. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Hayley Lloyd and Her Journey 06:11 The Importance of Visioning Days 12:03 The Impact of Childhood on Personal Strength 26:51 The Impact of Family Dynamics on Emotions 33:31 Experiencing Trauma and Its Aftermath 40:32 Navigating Relationships in Recovery 50:46 Awakening Spiritual Gifts Through Sobriety 57:20 Understanding Inner Authority 01:09:31 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life You can connect with Hayley Lloyd on Instagram here. https://www.instagram.com/hayleyjunelloyd/ To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook <a href="http://www.ashbutterss.com
S3 E103 · Sun, December 29, 2024
Ep. 103 Why New Years Resolutions Rarely Stick and What To Try Instead with Psychotherapist Diane Young
To kick off the New Year, I’m sitting down with Trauma and Addiction Specialist Diane Young to discuss all things New Year’s Resolutions! In this conversation we explore the concept of setting intentions instead of New Year's resolutions and the benefits of taking small steps towards change. The conversation delves into the differences between heavy drinkers and grey area drinkers and the continuum of drinking behaviour. It also addresses the connection between childhood trauma and eating disorders, as well as the role of boundaries in relationships. The episode highlights are: 03:23 Increased Awareness of Mental Health 05:15 Setting Intentions Instead of New Year's Resolutions 07:45 Taking Small Steps Towards Change 09:32 Differentiating Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers 13:12 The Inner Knowing and Loneliness in Addiction 14:03 Understanding Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers 18:27 The Continuum of Drinking Behavior 20:57 The Benefits of Alcohol-Free Challenges 23:06 The Impact of Alcohol on Mental Health 26:05 The Expansiveness of Recovery 27:28 The Connection Between Childhood Trauma and Eating Disorders 30:44 Setting Intentions for Food and Body Image 34:28 The Role of Sugar in Disordered Eating 36:50 Healing Childhood Trauma and Filling the Inner Void 38:07 The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Body Image 40:36 The Importance of Boundaries in Relationships 44:02 The Power of Self-Care and Self-First 49:47 Setting Intentions for the New Year To access your free Self-Love guided meditation, head to Ash’s free Facebook community: Holistic House Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E102 · Sun, December 22, 2024
Ep 102. SOLO EP: 37 Life Lessons that that have made a huge impact on my world!
It’s my birthday this week and I’m turning 37, so to celebrate I wanted to give you all a gift! In this week’s solo episode, I’m sharing with you all my 37 game changing lessons that have made a huge impact on my life! These lessons span across all facets of the human experience including relationships, mindset, career and health. Of course, it wouldn’t be a Behind the Smile episode without discussing recovery, but these lessons are really applicable to anyone wanting to expand their mind and step into the very best version of themselves. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Check out the show notes here. If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global)
S3 E101 · Sun, December 15, 2024
Ep 101. Finding Inner Peace: The Journey of Emotional Regulation, with Amy Mason (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash has a deep conversation with Emotional Regulation Coach Amy Mason. They explore the journey of self-discovery, the importance of emotional regulation, and the impact of relationships on personal well-being. Amy shares her transformative journey from a reactive lifestyle to one of conscious response, detailing her struggles with a long-term relationship and the physical manifestations of stress. The conversation emphasises the need for self-reflection, the significance of inner peace, and the challenges of transitioning from a career in hairdressing to coaching. She discusses the challenges of leaving her salon, the discovery of breathwork, and how it has positively impacted her lifestyle choices, including giving up alcohol and caffeine and prioritising her health. The conversation also highlights the importance of self-care and the benefits of investing in yourself. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Emotional Regulation Coaching 03:00 Understanding Emotional Regulation 05:51 Amy's Journey: From Reactive to Responsive 09:10 Life Before Transformation: Relationships and Struggles 12:01 The Impact of Stress on Health 14:56 The Importance of Self-Reflection 17:47 The Breaking Point: Leaving a Long-Term Relationship 21:08 Navigating the Aftermath of a Breakup 24:01 Transitioning from Hairdressing to Coaching 27:06 The Role of Connection in the Beauty Industry 34:03 Navigating Life Changes and Career Transitions 36:52 Discovering Breathwork: A Life-Changing Journey 40:57 The Impact of Breathwork on Lifestyle Choices 44:13 Transforming Health: The Shift from Alcohol to Wellness 55:49 Creating a Retreat Experience: Nurture and Nourish 01:00:52 Investing in Yourself: The Importance of Self-Care Click here to find out how you can join Ash and Amy on their Nurture and Nourish Retreat in March, 2025! You can connect with Amy Mason on Instagram here . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook <a href="www.ashbutte
S3 E100 · Wed, December 11, 2024
Ep 100. How Breathwork Helped Me Breakthrough (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash shares her transformative experience attending a breathwork facilitator training in the Snowy Mountains. She discusses her initial scepticism towards breathwork, her journey of discovery, and the profound impact it has had on her life. Ash delves into the science behind breathwork, explaining how it can heal emotional trauma, improve overall wellness, and enhance focus. She emphasises the importance of breathwork in personal transformation and invites listeners to explore this powerful practice for themselves. Episode highlights include: 00:00 Transformative Breathwork Experience 05:00 The Science Behind Breathwork 24:08 Emotional and Physical Healing Through Breathwork 34:52 Breathwork as a Tool for Transformation Book your 1:1 Breathwork Session with Ash here . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E99 · Mon, December 09, 2024
Ep 99. How to Embody and Befriend Your Nervous System, with Danni Carr (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash welcomes Danni Carr for a heartfelt conversation about nervous system regulation, personal growth, and their upcoming workshops and retreats. They discuss the importance of understanding one's nervous system, the benefits of practices like yoga nidra, and how these tools can enhance relationships and overall well-being. Danni shares her journey of sobriety and the insights gained from her experiences, emphasising the significance of self-awareness and emotional regulation. The episode concludes with an exciting announcement about their upcoming retreat in Bali and the release of Danni’s new book, 'How I Quit Alcohol.' The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to The Unedited Woman Podcast 02:34 Exploring the Nervous System Workshops 07:55 Danni's Journey to Nervous System Regulation 12:39 The Importance of Body Awareness 18:06 Yoga Nidra: A Path to Inner Peace 19:56 Who Can Benefit from Nervous System Workshops? 26:01 The Impact of Nervous System Regulation on Relationships 31:45 Announcing the Nervous System Reset Retreat 33:10 Danni’s Book Release: How I Quit Alcohol Find out more about Ash and Danni’s Bali Retreat here. You can connect with Danni Carr on Instagram here . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E98 · Sat, December 07, 2024
Ep 98. Discovering Your Purpose Through Human Design, with Aviva Joffe (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In today’s episode, Ash is having her Human Design chart read live on the podcast. Ash is joined by Human Design expert Aviva Joffe to explore the transformative power of human design. They discuss the origins of human design, Aviva's personal journey into this field, and the significance of understanding one's energy type. The conversation delves deeper as Aviva reads Ash’s Human Design chart live on the podcast, highlighting the importance of self-care, setting boundaries, and trusting one's intuition. Aviva shares insights on how to navigate decisions using the sacral response and the impact of emotional awareness on personal growth. Finally, Ash gets emotional as she discovers her life’s mission for helping other women is in perfect alignment with her chart. The episode highlights are: 00:00 Introduction to Human Design 03:11 Understanding Human Design and Its Origins 05:48 Aviva's Journey to Human Design 08:54 Energy Types in Human Design 12:08 The Role of Generators and Projectors 14:50 Self-Care and Boundaries 17:59 The Importance of Following Your Sacral Response 21:08 Navigating Decisions and Trusting Your Gut 23:54 Emotional Awareness and Empathy 27:09 The Significance of Defined Energy Centers 29:59 Self-Love and Life Purpose 32:49 Conclusion and Resources You can connect with Aviva on Instagram here . To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website . Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E97 · Thu, December 05, 2024
Ep 97. Sharing my Engagement Story (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In today’s episode, Ash is sharing her recent engagement story. She discusses the story of how she met her fiancé and the beautiful moment of their engagement. Ash also delves into the importance of self-worth and how to reframe negative self-talk through mindfulness, affirmation practices, and gratitude. She highlights the power of neuroplasticity and the ability to rewire our thinking. The Radiant Woman event focused on physical transformation, skincare, makeup, and empowering women to rebuild their self-worth. Ash emphasises the importance of self-love and treating oneself with kindness and respect. Episode highlights include: 00:00 Introduction and Engagement Announcement 13:12 The Radiant Woman Event: Empowering Women 21:26 Rewiring Negative Self-Talk and Practicing Mindfulness 25:32 The Importance of Self-Worth and Self-Love To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website . Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E96 · Tue, December 03, 2024
Ep 96. Preventing Burnout through Breath (The Unedited Woman Series)
Welcome to The Unedited Woman series ! In today’s episode, Ash is sharing an episode with you around the importance of mindfulness and its role in avoiding burnout. She highlights the high levels of stress experienced by women and the need to prioritise self-care. Ash explains that mindfulness is a practice that can regulate emotions and the nervous system, leading to improved mental clarity and overall well-being. She shares three breath practices - diaphragmatic breath, box breath, and alternate nostril breath - that can be incorporated into a mindfulness practice. Ash emphasises that mindfulness is a powerful tool for navigating the chaos of everyday life and unleashing one's true potential. The episode highlights are: 00:00 - Introduction: Mindfulness and Avoiding Burnout 02:51 - Mindfulness as a Foundation for Transformation 08:01 - The Importance of Physical Transformation 10:19 - The Challenge of Change and Breaking Patterns 12:24 - Emotional Transformation through Mindfulness 20:06 - Physiological Response to Mindfulness 23:27 - Breath Practices for Mindfulness 31:29 - The Practice of Meditation and Noticing Distractions 33:41 - Conclusion: Mindfulness as an Anchor To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website . Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E95 · Sun, December 01, 2024
Ep. 95 I'm Coming Home: The Podcast Relaunch
In this episode of Behind the Smile , Ash Butterss returns to share her journey of transformation and the importance of authentic conversations about mental health, trauma, and addiction. She reflects on her time away from the podcast, the lessons learned, and her commitment to creating a space for meaningful connections. Ash highlights the significance of trusting oneself, embracing the messiness of life, and the excitement of new beginnings as she prepares to relaunch the podcast with fresh content and guests. Over the next few weeks’ Ash will be sharing some of her favourite episodes from her other podcast The Unedited Woman, to bring you all up to date on what she’s been doing. Then we’ll be kicking off brand new episodes in January. For those returning listeners, welcome home. And to all of those who are new, thanks for being here! Chapters 00:00 Welcome Back to Behind the Smile 02:57 The Journey of Transformation and Self-Discovery 05:45 The Importance of Authentic Conversations 09:08 Trusting Yourself and Your Intuition 11:53 Embracing the Messiness of Life 15:11 Looking Ahead: New Beginnings and Exciting Changes To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website. Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Facebook Website
S3 E94 · Sun, April 14, 2024
Ep 94. The Farewell Episode, with Ash Butterss
In this final episode of Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss, I find myself caught between waves of emotion, from sadness to gratitude to a deep sense of excitement. They say all good things must come to an end, but within that ending lies the seeds of new beginnings. Throughout this journey I’ve always emphasised the importance of practicing what I preach, being guided by my intuition and leading with vulnerability. Now I’m taking my own advice, as I step into this next chapter. Behind the Smile has been so much more than a series of episodes; it’s been a life-changing experience. I’ve had the privilege of shining a light on taboo conversations that for so long were kept in the dark. Yet with each conversation, I believe we moved one step close to removing the stigma around mental health, trauma and addiction. To you, the listeners, who tuned in week after week, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your dedication and passion for the show fuelled this journey for me and made it all the more meaningful. I’m truly humbled by the messages you’ve sent and the stories you’ve shared with me. As I say farewell to you all, I want to remind you to continue stepping out from behind the smile and sharing your truth. Because when we recover loudly, no one need suffer in silence. In this episode I talk about: A Journey of Connection – 1:24 The Mission – 2:20 Embracing Change – 7:20 The Highlights – 9:30 Trusting Your Intuition – 14:39 How To Start a Podcast – 18:18 Listener Love – 21:32 Where to Next – 24:36 If you’re not on my weekly newsletter list, be sure to sign up at www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources to stay connected and up to date on exciting announcements to come! You can follow Ash on IG here: @ashbutterss
S4 E93 · Sun, April 07, 2024
Ep 93. From Debauchery to Devotion, with Lissie Turner
This week I sat down with Lissie Turner, also known as Mel Bampton from Triple J’s ‘Mel in the Morning’ and creator of ‘Like a Version’. Now an author, speaker, founder of The Prana Project and internationally accredited senior yoga teacher and therapist, Lissie shares her profound journey from a life of prominence and partying to one of sobriety, dedicated to compassionate living, mental health, and yoga therapy. Lissie offers an unflinchingly honest look at her personal trials, including redefining her identity post-fame, navigating the complex responsibility of motherhood and dealing with what life throws at you. Lissie also shares an intimate crossroads moment and how meditation, yoga, and love allowed her to heal her relationship with her children. Some of the highlights from this conversation include: Spiritual Fitness - 3:21 A Wild Ride - 9:58 Coloring Outside the Lines - 28:09 The Path to Radio - 34:58 Refinement with Age - 41:47 Creation of ‘Like a Version’ - 44:29 Sobriety and Loss of Identity - 52:24 The Yoga Framework - 58:54 Healing Relationships - 1:04:38 “There Is Nothing Absolute, and Everything Is Relevant” - 1:13:56 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Lissie Turner using the links below: Instagram: @_the_prana_project and @lissieturner Website: https://www.thepranaproject.com/
S4 E92 · Sun, March 31, 2024
Ep 92. Uncovering the Connection Between Nutrition and Mental Health, with Dr. David Wiss
In this week’s episode, I sat down with Dr. David Wiss, a registered dietitian nutritionist who specialises in treating eating disorders and substance abuse. David shares his journey from hustling in the streets of West LA in the 90’s, his experience during the opioid epidemic, drug abuse and incarceration to becoming a thought leader in the intersection of nutrition and mental health. He provides insight into his work, exploring topics such as the impact of adverse childhood experiences on eating habits, the controversial concept of food addiction, and the relationship between diet culture, body positivity, and overall health. David also shares his inspiration to launch Wise Mind Nutrition, an app that provides evidence-based nutrition education that tracks lifestyle patterns and co-creates a customised plan to help improve overall health. In this conversation we talk about: Counterculture - 6:22 The Real David - 9:41 Childhood Influences - 11:20 The Hustle Begins - 14:05 Navigating the Opioid Epidemic - 15:40 From Supermax to Second Chances - 18:35 Nutrition In Recovery - 26:21 Food Addiction - 33:29 Cross Addiction - 41:19 Practical Advice for Nurturing Recovery Through Nutrition - 44:30 Personal Reflections - 50:36 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Dr. David Wiss using the links below: Wise Mind Nutrition Tiktok: @wise_mind_nutrition Website: https://wisemindnutrition.com/ Instagram: @wisemindnutrition Dr. David Wiss Instagram: @drdavidwiss Website: https://www.nutritioninrecovery.com/ Tiktok: @drdavidwiss If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E91 · Sun, March 24, 2024
Ep 91. People Pleasing, Rewiring Core Beliefs and Embracing Empowerment, with Laura Corcoran
In this studio episode, I’m joined by Empowerment Specialist Laura Corcoran who is known for assisting women in boosting their energy, confidence, and magnetism. With a background in psychology, Laura merges conventional therapeutic methods with holistic healing modalities. Deeply rooted from her own experiences, Laura talks us through the essential practice of embracing stillness, establishing personal boundaries, articulating personal truths, and the critical role of mentorship in the journey of healing. She also generously shares her narrative of metamorphosis, turning life's hurdles into stepping stones for development, and underscores the importance of self-investment. In this conversation we cover a range of topics including: Having a Daily Routine: 7:15 Manifestations: 11:34 Unpacking Core Beliefs - 15:58 People Pleasing and Attachment - 27:32 “Psychologists become Psychologists to Heal Themselves” - 37:21 Vulnerability is a Strength - 47:33 Finding the Balance - 50:30 The Role of Mentorship in Personal Growth and Healing - 59:02 Self-care Practices - 1:02:00 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Laura Corcoran using the link below: Instagram: @hersuccessfulmind Website: https://www.lauracorcoran.com.au/ If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E90 · Sun, March 17, 2024
Ep 90. Forging Your Own Path and Staying True to Yourself, with David Titeu
In this studio episode, I sit down with David Titeu - a mindset coach, mental health advocate, entrepreneur, and co-founder of the mental health support app, Linkmate. David takes us through his personal journey, from struggling with the weight of parental expectations and trying to fit in, to his battles with substance abuse as a coping mechanism. Throughout our conversation, David and I talk about the significance of initiating open and candid dialogues surrounding mental health, the importance of self-care, and the profound impact of cultivating a positive self-image. David also talks about the differences in mental health between men and women, the challenges men face in expressing their feelings, the persistent stigma surrounding seeking help, and the transformative influence of fostering connections and receiving peer support. Parental Expectations and Career Struggles - 9:37 Coping Mechanisms - 14:37 Memories That Shape Our Adulthood - 16:11 Seeking Help - 23:44 Linkmate - 28:16 Addressing the Stigma in the Corporate World - 32:10 Mental Health: Men vs. Women - 41:45 Personal Check-Ins - 47:35 Showing Love, Conscious Control, and Healthy Habits - 55:42 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find David Titeu using the links below: Website: https://www.thedmtexperience.com.au/intro-to-coaching Instagram: @davidtiteu If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E89 · Sun, March 10, 2024
Ep 89. The Journey from Lawyer to Drug Dealer to Recovery Advocate, with Nicole Obrigavitch
In this week’s episode, I sat down with recovery and social justice warrior, Nicole Obrigavitch. Nicole went from being a practicing lawyer, wife and mother, to dealing drugs and having a price on her head. A police operation led to her eventual arrest and conviction which saw her spend three years in prison. Since getting clean and sober in 2018, Nicole has fought to rebuild her life and give back. Today, as the Executive Director of the Elizabeth Fry Society of Saskatoon, Nicole works tirelessly to support women and gender diverse people that have come into conflict with the justice system Nicole is living proof of the power in recovery and emphasises the importance of transparency, accountability, and resilience in her journey to redemption. In this conversation we covered a range of topics including: Childhood and Early Exposure to Alcohol - 04:34 Relapse and the Impact on Her Life - 08:44 Progression from Alcohol Abuse to Drug Trafficking - 15:11 Incarceration and Rehabilitation - 37:05 The Struggle with Intimate Partner Violence - 43:10 The Fight Against Systemic Racism - 45:51 Second Chances - 52:54 Non-Negotiables - 59:11 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Nicole Obrigavitch using the links below: Instagram: @not_anonymous_nic If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E88 · Sun, March 03, 2024
Ep 88. Maintaining Spiritual Fitness in Recovery, with Dom McKenna
In this episode, I’m joined by Dom McKenna – a husband, father, business owner, and fitness advocate from Melbourne. Dom candidly shares his struggles with substance abuse, shedding light on the pivotal moments that led him towards recovery. With raw honesty, he reflects on the ongoing challenges he faces in combating his 'isms' and how they continue to shape his life. But that's not all - Dom also offers invaluable insights into managing a successful business alongside his wife, the crucial role of habits in achieving success in all aspects of life, the importance of maintaining a healthy diet, and the unwavering dedication required to uphold sobriety, nurture relationships, prioritise health, and thrive in business. We touched upon a range of topics, such as: Dating in Early Sobriety - 5:04 Held Hostage by Addiction - 8:08 The Role of Environment in Addiction - 11:44 Reflections on Anonymity and Recovery - 35:17 Dealing with Criticism and Opinions - 39:35 Navigating Relationships in Recovery - 41:12 Work-Life Balance is BS - 56:16 Non-negotiables - 1:10:00 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find Dom McKenna using the links below: Instagram: @dommckenna If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E87 · Tue, February 27, 2024
Ep 87. Solo Episode: 4 Years of Sober! The Highs, Lows and Everything in Between
In this week’s solo episode, I’m celebrating four years of continuous sobriety and in the spirit of stepping out from behind the smile, I wanted to reveal the reality of what this journey has looked like. Let’s call it, the not so sexy side to sobriety. I’ve divided the years into eras, with each era being a rollercoaster of challenges and growth. From those early days in rehab, to navigating recovery in a global pandemic, losing a baby, a divorce, a toxic situationship, to discovering my true self, falling in love and undergoing a complete transformation of mind, body and spirit, these past four years have been quite the journey. To say it’s been easy would be misleading, but I don’t regret getting sober for one minute. It’s hands down been the best decision I’ve ever made in my life. To those of you who’ve played a part in my recovery, big or small, I deeply thank you. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) LISTEN TO THE BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST HERE Listen on Apple Listen on Spotify If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S4 E86 · Sun, February 18, 2024
Ep 86. Owning Your Sobriety, with Jess Jackson
In this studio episode, I sit down with Jess Jackson, a meditation teacher and founder of the Bondi born skincare brand 'Good Living Only'. Jess talks openly about her initial hesitation towards sobriety and the challenges she faced in accepting her new lifestyle. She also reflects on the experiences that led her to make this transformative decision and how making the decision to truly own her sobriety has freed her from the shame she once felt. We also explore her move to Sydney, her Singapore setback, and the role meditation plays in her life. Jess emphasizes the importance of being true to oneself, communicating boundaries, and focusing on self-care practices. Some of the key topics covered include: Grounding Yourself - 7:40 External Validation - 13:10 Band-Aid Fix - 22:47 Embracing Change - 31:21 Stepping into a New Identity - 36:00 Being Vulnerable - 46:14 10 Steps Forward, 20 Steps Back - 49:33 Creating Space - 54:42 You can find Jess Jackson using the links below: Website: https://www.goodlivingonly.com/ Instagram: @jessinbondi , @goodlivingonly Tiktok: @goodlivingonly If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) LISTEN TO THE BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST HERE Listen on Apple Listen on Spotify If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S4 E85 · Sun, February 11, 2024
Ep 85. Unpacking Attachment Styles with Dating Coach, Sabrina Zohar
In this episode, I sat down with Sabrina Zohar, a wildly successful entrepreneur, podcast host, and dating coach. In this candid conversation we spoke about mental health, relationships, and the not so sexy reality behind success. Sabrina is one of the most authentic humans I’ve ever met and was so open sharing her journey from battling depression post-breakup, finding solace in her work, and redefining interpersonal relationships. Emphasizing the importance of mental and emotional resilience, Sabrina also spoke about how she managed to detach from behaviors that no longer served her and how she did the work to create a healthy loving relationship. As a dating coach, I had to ask Sabrina about Attachment Styles - a topic that’s hotly debated and discussed right now. Some of the highlights from this conversation include: Accountability - 6:56 Struggles and Triumphs - 7:40 Drinking to Fit In - 15:59 First Impressions - 20:49 Sitting with Anxiety - 24:09 Attachment Theory - 29:53 Non-Negotiables - 38:24 You can find Sabrina Zohar using the links below: Tiktok: sabrina.zohar Instagram: @sabrina.zohar , Do The Work Podcast If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) LISTEN TO THE BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST HERE Listen on Apple Listen on Spotify If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S4 E84 · Sun, February 04, 2024
Ep 84. The Other Side of Mental Health and Addiction, with Joe Fishburn
In this week’s episode, I sat down with Joe Fishburn, a psychiatric mental health nurse with extensive experience working in hospital systems, community response teams, ED and primary health care settings. Joe talks about the undercurrent of stigma faced by those experiencing mental health challenges and the impact developmental trauma has on the development of complex personality disorders. Joe shared his thoughts on how we can support children in their early years to prevent complex mental health disorders arising and why divorce doesn’t need to have a negative impact on families. We also discussed the increase in ADHD diagnoses, and the challenges faced in receiving treatment. To round things out, Joe reaffirmed the importance of lived experiences in care provision, and the power of peer support. In this conversation we touch on: Joe's Role at First Step - 2:58 Legal Support - 11:34 The Stigma Around Mental Illnesses - 19:18 Nature vs. Nurture - 23:59 Neurodiversity - 27:53 ADHD - 32:18 Medication during Addiction Recovery - 34:24 The Impact of Mental Illness and Addiction on Families - 51:46 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find more about First Step here: https://www.firststep.org.au/ If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E83 · Sun, January 28, 2024
Ep 83. Building an Empire while in the Grips of Addiction, with Christina Galbato
In this episode, I had the pleasure of chatting with Christina Galbato, a dynamic entrepreneur and the brains behind 'Create Her Empire.' She opens up about her journey from a secret alcohol addiction to embracing life in sobriety. Christina shares how her addiction resulted in both mental and physical health problems, affected her relationships, and damaged her self-esteem. Despite achieving huge success in her career, she was fighting a secret battle, all the while hiding behind a smile. Today, at almost three years sober, Christina is priortising her personal development and is committed to her recovery more than ever before. We spoke about a range of topics including: Drinking Habits - 7:30 Keeping Up Appearances - 11:15 It Works Until it Doesn't Anymore - 18:19 Endless Cycle - 23:54 Bargaining with Yourself - 26:18 The First 90 Days - 29:32 Moving and Growing - 39:15 Staying on the Path - 41:51 Dating in Sobriety - 44:01 Sobriety Comes First - 53:02 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find Christina Galbato using the links below: Website: https://christinagalbato.com/ Instagram: @christinagalbato , @createherempire If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E82 · Sun, January 21, 2024
Ep 82. Unmasking Bipolar, with Sara Schley
In this episode, I talk to Sara Schley, an organizational consultant, spiritual leader, author, entrepreneur and bipolar human, about her journey with Bipolar II. Sara speaks about her experiences with cognitive dysfunction, her late diagnosis (25 years later), and the importance of the correct medications in the successful management of bipolar disorder. Sara also shares how medical misdiagnoses can lead to further complications. Drawing on personal experience and research, the conversation delves into some prominent triggers for bipolar disorder and the importance of overall health management. Sara also shares some key takeaways including her Emergency Mental Health Team (EMHT) system and advises on measures for supporting someone living with bipolar. In this conversation we discuss: Living with a Bipolar Brain - 2:55 The Spiral - 9:56 Misdiagnosis - 17:30 Feeling Like Yourself Again - 21:50 The Power of Advocacy in Mental Health - 26:54 Bipolar I vs. Bipolar II - 29:51 Stigma Kills - 34:56 Understanding Triggers - 41:54 The Importance of Support Networks in Mental Health - 50:16 Self-Care - 53:45 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find Sara Schley using the links below: Website: https://saraschley.com/ Book: Brainstorm: From Broken to Blessed on the Bipolar Spectrum If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E81 · Sun, January 14, 2024
Ep 81. Addressing the Stigma of Porn Addiction, with Jeremy Lipkowitz
In this episode, I'm joined by Jeremy Lipkowitz, a meditation teacher, coach, and porn addiction recovery expert. Jeremy shares his personal recovery story and emphasizes the importance of mindfulness and self-compassion in overcoming addiction. He talks about the harmful effects porn can have on mental health, relationships, and self-esteem, as well as the broader implications of the porn industry. Jeremy discusses his approach to recovery, which involves understanding the neurological aspects of addiction, cultivating healthy habits, and creating supportive communities. He stresses the importance of treating oneself as a friend in the healing journey and how shame can impede recovery. Despite the stigma associated with porn addiction, Jeremy encourages open conversation around it and urges those struggling to treat these issues as obstacles on the path to a fulfilling life. We touched on a range of interesting topics, including: How Addiction Works - 5:45 The Benefits of Meditation Retreats - 9:16 Escapism - 18:20 The Impact of Porn on Perception and Intimacy - 27:25 The Novelty Trap - 30:32 What Defines a Porn Addict? - 34:18 The Role of Mindfulness and Self-Compassion in Recovery - 45:52 Learning How to be Your Own Best Friend - 52:56 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find Jeremy Lipkowitz using the links below: Instagram: @jeremylipkowitz Podcast: Unhooked: Breaking Porn Addiction If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S4 E80 · Sun, January 07, 2024
Ep 80. How Nutrition Can Heal Your Relationship with Alcohol, with Dr. Brooke Scheller
In this week’s episode I sat down with Doctor of Nutrition and Author, Dr. Brooke Scheller. Dr. Scheller is on a mission to help people heal their relationship with alcohol through nutrition, and her new book How to Eat to Change How You Drink is full of helpful tips and information to support anyone looking to change their drinking habits. In this conversation, Dr. Scheller discusses the role of nutrition in mental health and how nutrients can impact mood and the production of neurotransmitters like serotonin. She explains how alcohol depletes key nutrients and can contribute to anxiety and depression. We discuss the role of supplements such as B vitamins, amino acids, and magnesium to support alcohol recovery, along with exploring the negative effects of alcohol on sleep and the cravings for carbs and sugar that often follow disrupted sleep. Finally, we talk about the importance of community in sobriety and Dr. Scheller shares her three non-negotiables for a happy, joyous, and free life: community, self-development, and wellness. Some of the key points we cover include: Hiding Behind a Smile – 8:30 A Family Disease – 15:00 How Nutrition Helps Us Heal in Recovery – 19:00 The Different Drinking Archetypes – 29:00 Making A Choice Before You Can’t – 34:12 Sugar Cravings in Sobriety – 35:30 The Role of Nutrition in Mental Health – 40:50 Supplements to Support Alcohol Recovery – 43:00 Alcohol's Impact on Sleep and Cravings – 47:27 The Importance of Community in Sobriety – 52:00 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the show notes. You can find Brooke using the links below: Instagram: @drbrookescheller Website: www.functionalsobriety.com Book: How to Eat to Change How You Drink If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE
S4 E79 · Sun, December 31, 2023
Ep 79. Why NY Resolutions Rarely Stick and What to Try Instead with Psychotherapist Diane Young
To kick off the New Year, I’m sitting down with Trauma and Addiction Specialist Diane Young to discuss all things New Year’s Resolutions! In this conversation we explore the concept of setting intentions instead of New Year's resolutions and the benefits of taking small steps towards change. The conversation delves into the differences between heavy drinkers and grey area drinkers and the continuum of drinking behaviour. It also addresses the connection between childhood trauma and eating disorders, as well as the role of boundaries in relationships. Some of the ideas we cover include: Increased Awareness of Mental Health – 4:23 Setting Intentions Instead of New Year's Resolutions – 6:15 Taking Small Steps Towards Change – 8:45 Differentiating Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers – 10:32 Understanding Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers – 15:03 The Benefits of Alcohol-Free Challenges –21:00 The Impact of Alcohol on Mental Health – 24:06 The Connection Between Childhood Trauma and Eating Disorders – 28:28 Setting Intentions for Food and Body Image – 31:44 Healing Childhood Trauma and Filling the Inner Void – 37:50 The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Body Image – 39:07 The Importance of Boundaries in Relationships – 41:36 The Power of Self-Care and Self-First – 45:02 Setting Intentions for the New Year – 50:47 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Diane using the links below: @dianeyoungandassociates Diane Young Website If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E78 · Wed, December 27, 2023
Ep 78. SOLO EP: 36 Life Lessons that have made a huge impact on my world!
It’s my birthday this week and I’m turning 36, so to celebrate I wanted to give you all a gift! In this week’s solo episode, I’m sharing with you all my 36 game changing lessons that have made a huge impact on my life! These lessons span across all facets of the human experience including relationships, mindset, career and health. Of course, it wouldn’t be a Behind the Smile episode without discussing recovery, but these lessons are really applicable to anyone wanting to expand their mind and step into the very best version of themselves. As this is also the final episode for 2023, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for you continued support for the show this year. Let’s continue to normalise the conversation around mental health, trauma and addiction, because when we recover loudly, no one need suffer in silence. Until next time. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Head to ashbutterss.com/behind-the-smile-podcast for the episode show notes. Get your free guided meditations with Ash Butterss! If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E77 · Sun, December 17, 2023
Ep 77. Losing your identity and ignoring red flags, with Isabella Ferguson
In this week’s episode I sat down with registered counsellor, alcohol coach and podcast host Isabella Ferguson. Bella identifies as having been a “grey-area” drinker throughout her 20-year drinking career, which came to an abrupt halt in February 2020 after entering a rehab facility. Today, Bella’s life couldn’t look more different. She’s left her former industry of law and is now a corporate wellness speaker as well as heading up a busy counselling practice focusing on helping people address their relationship with alcohol and regain balance in their lives. In this conversation we covered a range of topics including: Stress Reduction – 2:00 Hiding Behind a Smile – 9:23 The Need to Fit In – 15:30 Corporate Drinking Culture – 24:20 The Flashing Red Drinking Zone – 31:30 The Opportunity to Start Again – 42:30 Finding Your Voice – 50:00 Sober Rock Bottoms – 53:00 Non-Negotiables – 55:15 Check out Bella’s Behind The Smile photo on Ash’s website here . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Bella using the links below: Instagram: @alcoholandstresswithisabella Website: Isabella Ferguson Podcast: Not Drinking Today Podcast: De-Stress For Success with Isabella Ferguson Book: Drink by Anne Dowsett Johnston If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E76 · Mon, December 11, 2023
Ep 76. Overcoming anxiety and social phobia with Meg Webb
In this week’s episode I sat down with Sober Coach, Teacher’s Aide and mum of three, Megan Webb. From early childhood, Meg experienced crippling anxiety and by the age of 17, she’d developed a social phobia. Made worse by alcohol, Meg fell into a terrible cycle of self-medication which only fuelled her crippling mental health condition. After years of unsuccessfully trying to manage her drinking, Meg knew she needed to make a change. She felt unfulfilled and knew deep down that there was so much more to life. This is what led to Meg making the decision to quit drinking for the final time on the 31st of December 2021. In this conversation we covered a range of topics including: Detoxing from alcohol – 2:17 Hiding Behind a Smile – 8:50 Anxiety and Social Phobia – 16:55 Managing Alcohol and Relationships – 27:33 Drinking away the pain – 33:00 The turning point – 35:00 Life Changes and Spiritual Connection – 41:12 The Importance of Kindness and Understanding – 44:36 Check out Meg’s Behind The Smile photo on Ash’s website here . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Meg using the links below: Instagram: @glassfulfilled Website: Glass Fulfilled Podcast: Not Drinking Today If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E75 · Sun, December 03, 2023
Ep 75. From Soccer Mum to Jailhouse Shot Caller: The Many Lives of Lara Love Hardin
In this week’s episode I sat down with New York Times Best Selling Author, Prison Reform Advocate and mother of four, Lara Love Hardin. Lara’s recently released memoir, The Many Lives of Mama Love, recounts her slide from soccer mum, to opioid addict, to jailhouse shot caller and her unlikely comeback to becoming a highly successful ghost writer and published author. Lara’s journey from shame to redemption is now inspiring others as she works to help previously incarcerated women rebuild their lives. We spoke on a range of topics including: Secrets make you sick – 5:30 Self-medicating with prescription pills – 10:37 The moment Lara’s life changed forever – 19:00 Losing the power of choice – 24:30 Shedding the shame – 30:00 Surviving an impossible system – 35:30 You can check out Lara's Behind the Smile photo here at www.ashbutterss.com You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Lara using the links below: Instagram: @laralovehardin Website: Lara Love Hardin www.thegemmaproject.org If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E74 · Mon, November 27, 2023
Ep 74. Giving up one thing and gaining everything else, with Ali Burke
In this week’s episode I sat down with Aussie Ranger and single mum, Ali Burke. After spending decades immersed in a celebrated drinking culture, Ali reached a point in her life where she knew something had to change. Ali got sober curious which then led her down the path of hypnotherapy and a commitment to take one year off the booze. Six months in, the numerous benefits she experienced were enough for her to want to ditch the drink forever. Ali radiates a glass half full attitude and chooses to look at sobriety through the lens of what she’s gained rather than what she’s given up. Hearing Ali share her story with so much positivity was an absolutely joy. Now at two and a half years sober, Ali hopes to inspire other people like her, to take the leap and step into a sober life. We chatted about a range of topics including: Identifying triggers – 8:30 Marrying your drinking buddy – 18:00 When your life revolves around drinking – 24:22 The impact of growing up too fast – 30:00 Anxiety, depression and low self-esteem – 41:40 Subconscious healing – 51:00 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E73 · Sun, November 19, 2023
Ep 73. From dope dealer to Hope Dealer, with Fausto Castellanos
In this week’s episode I sat down with Spiritual Advisor, Clinical Counsellor and Motivational Speaker, Fausto Castellanos. Known as “the hope dealer,” Fausto has found a way to turn his pain into his purpose by helping others along their own paths of recovery and healing. Fausto is an amazing speaker with incredible insights but what struck me most about this conversation was his openness and vulnerability around topics people tend to shy away from. This conversation is equal parts heartbreaking and inspiring. Please note, Fausto shares openly about his traumatic childhood, which some listeners may find confronting. Tune in with caution. We spoke on a range of topics including: Compassion fatigue – 5:00 Building self-esteem – 11:00 Child sex abuse – 15:30 Experimentation to acceleration – 24:00 Finding relief and identification – 34:00 Consciously designing your future – 38:00 Codependency, celibacy and carried trauma – 46:20 Dope dealer to Hope Dealer – 56:20 Manifestation – 59:00 Trigger Warning: This conversation includes discussions around sexual abuse, drug abuse and suicide. You can find Fausto using the links below: Instagram: @hopedealerfausto LinedIn: Fausto Castellanos You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E72 · Sun, November 12, 2023
Ep 72. The healthy way to get high, with Mary Tilson
In this week’s episode I sat down with Recovery Coach, Yoga Teacher and host of the Sun and Moon Sober Living podcast, Mary Tilson. Mary has been sober for over a decade and is passionate about helping others find freedom from addiction so they can live fulfilling lives substance-free. Combining holistic principles such as meditation, breath work and yoga, Mary has discovered the healthy way to be naturally high and happy. Mary and I connected on a range of topics including: Our secrets make us sick – 7:40 How honesty heals – 12:15 The high achieving party girl – 19:15 Drinking on knowledge – 26:14 Supporting a loved one until they’re ready – 33:30 The similarities between Yoga and Recovery – 37:30 Deep connection through breath work – 46:00 You can check out Mary's Behind The Smile photo at www.ashbutterss.com You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Mary using the links below: Instagram: @sunandmoon.soberliving Podcast: Sun and Moon Sober Living with Mary Tilson Website: Sun and Moon Sober Living Additional Resources: Yoga and 12 Step Recovery Books: Trauma and the 12 Steps The wisdom of Yoga If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE POD
S3 E71 · Sun, November 05, 2023
Ep 71. Luke Bayliss on self-medicating co-existing mental health conditions including ADHD, Bipolar and Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria
In this week’s episode I sat down with musician, running enthusiast and sobriety advocate, Luke Bayliss. From a young age, Luke experienced bullying at school which triggered debilitating anxiety and an eating disorder. Always feeling uncomfortable in his own skin, when Luke discovered alcohol, he found his insecurities melted away. Luke had a troubled relationship with booze from the outset which would later lead him to a near fatal car accident and multiple admissions into psych wards. It wasn’t until Luke went into treatment again in 2022 that he was correctly diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar 3. Since this time, Luke has managed to stay sober and is now passionately sharing his story, so that it doesn’t become yours. Luke talks passionately on a range of topics including: Bullying and developing an eating disorder – 13:00 Childhood anxiety – 19:00 Surviving a near fatal car crash – 25:00 ADHD, Bipolar and Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria – 30:00 Why routine is a game changer – 46:30 Finding strength in vulnerability – 52:00 Check out Luke's Behind the Smile photo on the Ash Butterss Website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Luke using the links below: Instagram: @llukebayliss and @soberlifeguides Podcast: I have ADHD with Kristen Carder DRYY Community If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E70 · Sun, October 29, 2023
Ep 70. Finding connection and embracing change with Michelle McDonald
In this week’s episode I sat down with life and sobriety coach Michelle McDonald. Since getting sober in 2021, Michelle has been on a mission to support other people in recovery through the creation of connection and community. Michelle believes connection is everything and she credits her sobriety for not only developing a deeper connection with her loved ones, but even more so, a deeper and more meaningful connection with herself. In this conversation we spoke about topics including: The importance of connection – 5:30 The absence of a rock bottom – 10:00 Modelling healthy habits – 21:22 The benefits of taking a break – 27:30 Embracing change in relationships – 36:15 Connecting to the real you – 43:00 You can check out Michelle's Behind The Smile photo on Ash's website here . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Michelle using the links below: Instagram: @thesoberconnection If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E69 · Sun, October 22, 2023
Ep 69. Mastering your mindset with Aussie Blues legend, Ash Grunwald
In this week’s episode I sat down with Australia’s foremost Blues Musician, Ash Grunwald. On the 1st of January 2018, Ash, (persuaded by his wife Danni Carr), decided to ditch the booze for 12 months. What happened in the year that followed would change the trajectory of Ash’s life forever. In sobriety, Ash tapped into his superpower and developed a mindset that enabled him to go from striving to thriving in all facets of his life. It’s now been over five years since he took his 12-month sobriety pledge and he’s never looked back! We chatted across a range of topics including: The detox “re-tox” cycle – 9:50 Life on the road – 17:00 Taking a year off the booze – 32:17 Making sobriety your superpower – 37:10 The practicality of manifesting 42:00 Mastering your mindset – 51:45 You can find Ash Grunwald using the links below: Website: Ash Grunwald Instagram: @ashgrunwald Facebook: Ash Grunwald Music Buy the book: Surf by Day, Jam by Night If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: · A healthcare professional · Alcoholics Anonymous · Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) · CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E68 · Sun, October 15, 2023
Ep 68. Sobriety isn’t a death sentence, with Courtney Anderson
In this week’s episode I’m joined by Courtney Anderson, a Sober Coach, Podcast Host and the author of Sober Vibes: A Guide to Thriving in your first three months without alcohol. Courtney is the founder of National Sober Day and the founder of Sober Vibes, an online community for the sober and sober curious. She believes in empowered sobriety and breaking stigmas of addiction and recovery. We spoke about a range of topics including: How to prioritise sobriety as a busy parent – 5:00 Seeing life in colour – 13:20 Childhood trauma and growing up quickly – 18:00 The progressive nature of addiction – 22:00 A life-saving ultimatum – 28:00 Why a label is helpful not harmful – 34:47 Protecting your energy – 39:15 Staying in your lane – 48:00 To see Courtney’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Courtney using the links below: Instagram: @sober.vibes Podcast: Sober Vibes Podcast Buy the book: Sober Vibes: A Guide to Thriving in Your First Three Months Without Alcohol If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E67 · Sun, October 08, 2023
Ep 67. The real reason why almost everyone is addicted to something, with Drew Wild
In this week’s episode I’m joined by Addiction, Trauma and Codependency Coach Drew Wild. Drew is on a mission to change the conversation around addiction, challenging people to approach the understanding of these compulsions through the lens of trauma. He believes trauma underpins most dependencies and is prevalent for those who are unable to process their emotions. With his own lived experience in drug and alcohol addiction, Drew speaks from a place of understanding and embodiment while living a recovered life in his own unique way. We spoke about a range of juicy topics including: Playing the chameleon – 9:00 Not tracking your sobriety date – 15:00 Developmental trauma – 23:00 The origin of attachment styles – 43:00 Somatic Healing – 49:23 Healthy relationships and the key to communication – 54:14 Changing the landscape of addiction education – 1:06:20 To see Drew’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Drew using the links below: Website: Line In The Sand Instagram: @drew_wild Free Course: Drawing A Line In The Sand If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E66 · Sun, October 01, 2023
Ep 66. Why you’re never too young to choose an alcohol-free life, with Madeline Forrest
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with sobriety hype girl and host of the Happiest Sober podcast, Madeline Forrest. Having made the decision to get sober at 27 years old, Maddy is now on a mission to inspire others to create an awesome alcohol-free life. Maddy is so full of energy and epitomizes the positive changes you can expect when you choose to live life sober. When she’s not running her online community, you’ll find her hosting sober retreats all around the world. This conversation was just like having a cuppa with your sober bestie so sit back and relax as we cover a range of topics including: What to expect on a sober retreat – 1:50 Enjoying concerts sober – 7:00 Growing up around alcoholism – 9:00 Hangxiety – 18:50 The honest truth that sobriety can be hard – 28:30 Getting sober in your twenties – 33:15 Sober dating – 37:33 The edge of your comfort zone – 45:23 To see Madeline’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Maddy using the links below: WEBSITE: www.happiestsober.com Instagram: @happiestsober Happiest Sober Podcast If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST!
S3 E65 · Sun, September 24, 2023
Ep 65. How to not be ruled by your thoughts and emotions with Brendon Watt
In this week’s episode I sat down with worldwide speaker, best-selling author, and facilitator for Access Consciousness, Brendon Watt. Brendon specialises in helping others to overcome addiction, as he too walks the path of recovery and sobriety. We touched on a range of interesting topics including: Happiness being an inside job – 2:30 Accessing consciousness – 10:00 Showing up authentically – 21:00 Not being ruled by your thoughts and emotions – 28:28 Being blindsided by relapse – 39:11 Sitting in discomfort – 42:45 Making it stick – 51:40 To see Brendon’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Brendon using the links below: Website: https://www.brendonwatt.com Instagram: @accessbrendonwatt Facebook – https://www.facebook.com/brendonwattcfmw/ Rising from the Ashes Video Series If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E64 · Sun, September 17, 2023
Ep 64. Finding purpose in the pain, with Karina McKenna [VIDEO]
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with Coach, Mentor and mum of two Karina McKenna. Karina was just 23 years old when she gave up drinking and has spent the past 13 years navigating how to do life sober. In this conversation Karina shares how she’s managed to face adversity without anything to blunt the edges and the lessons she’s learnt in the messiness of life. We dove into a range of topics including: Running away from reality – 6:14 Generational Trauma – 14:30 Surviving a car accident – 23:30 Internal Family Systems Therapy – 29:00 Continuing to show up – 35:00 Having a spiritual barometer – 44:12 Living in the day – 48:15 To see Karina’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Karina on Instagram: @kjaymck If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) • Butterfly Foundation If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E63 · Sun, September 10, 2023
Ep 63. The diary of a high functioning wine connoisseur, with Matt Jerr [VIDEO]
In this week’s episode I sat down with host and creator of the Sober Friend’s podcast Matt Jerr. Despite being exposed to heavy drinking and the negative impacts of addiction from a young age, Matt struggled to admit he had a problem with alcohol because he wasn’t a daily drinker. As someone who was high-functioning and good at hiding their drinking, Matt disguised his habit behind the label of “wine connoisseur,” until his mental health started to decline and there was nowhere left to hide. Through the support of 12-Step, Matt has been sober for over nine years now and is dedicated to supporting others through their own recovery journey. He is also the nicest person on the internet! In this conversation we cover a range of topics including: Questioning your conditioned thought – 3:17 Attraction not promotion – 6:00 Wine connoisseur or alcoholic? – 14.32 Anxiety and Childhood Trauma – 19:14 High Functioning Alcoholic – 29:11 The danger of mixing anti-depressants with alcohol – 37:49 Your first 12 Step meeting experience – 40:10 Giving it away to keep it – 49:25 To see Matt’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Matt using the links below: Website: Sober Friends Podcast Instagram: @soberfriendspod Listen to the Sober Friends Podcast here If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E62 · Sun, September 03, 2023
Ep 62. Returning from relapse and finding faith with Brandy Ledford [VIDEO]
In this week’s episode I’m joined by multi-talented actress and former model Brandy Ledford. There’s a high chance you’ve seen Brandy on your screens as she’s appeared in critically acclaimed movies and TV series including Baywatch, Modern Family and Rat Race. Yet Brandy’s focus today goes beyond her successful acting career. With over 11 years of sobriety, Brandy’s ultimate goal is to spread positivity and use her experiences to make a difference within the recovery community. This is a spiritual conversation and I encourage you to tune in with an open mind. We spoke across a range of topics including: Hiding behind a smile in Hollywood – 4:35 Going to jail as a teenager – 10:15 Doing the drill on a daily basis – 14:27 Developing faith in a Higher Power – 23:11 The “isms” – 30:00 Rebuilding your life after relapse – 40:43 Staying rigorously honest – 48:13 To see Brandy’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Brandy using the links below: Website: www.brandyledford.com Instagram: @brandyledford Philanthropy: Red Song Bird and Friendly House The upcoming event for Friendly House will be running on October 28th - see link above for details. If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E61 · Sun, August 27, 2023
Ep 61. Impulsivity, genetics and the science behind the disease of addiction, with Aaron Thomas [VIDEO]
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with PhD student and fellow sober human, Aaron Thomas. Aaron Is currently working in the field of Clinical Psychology – specifically, looking at behavioural neuroscience, or put simply, why people make decisions. Some of Aaron’s most fascinating research is around the hereditary nature of addiction which he explains can be highlighted through the study of genetic mutations. Aaron shares why addiction is in fact scientifically proven to be a disease and how scientists are researching impulsivity as a marker for predisposition. Just as interesting as his work, is Aaron’s own personal story of addiction and recovery, which he shares with us in this conversation. Now this episode is a little longer than usual but there was just so much to gain from this conversation and I know you’ll benefit from having learned something too. During this chat we cover a range of topics including: Carrying existential guilt – 9:42 How alcohol impacts us differently – 13:00 Being medicated as a child – 20:00 An overdose, a psych ward and a spiritual awakening – 30:00 Addiction is not a moral failure – 41:00 Building a BIG life in recovery – 45:00 The second surrender – 50:00 Unpacking the neuroscience of addiction – 1:00:49 Psychedelic treatment – 1:13:20 To see Aaron’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E60 · Sun, August 20, 2023
Ep 60. It’s not your fault but it is your responsibility, with Health and Wellness Coach Deb Masner
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down Health and Wellness Coach Deb Masner. Deb is a mum of two, a registered nurse, podcaster and a self-proclaimed alcohol free badass. She’s also the founder of Alcohol Tipping Point – a place where you can find free resources to support your sober journey. As a registered nurse Deb has a deep understanding of the negative impact alcohol has on the body and she’s sharing these insights here with us on the podcast. After years of trying to moderate, Deb made the decision to quit drinking on the 1st of January 2020 and has made it her mission to help other people find freedom in living alcohol-free. In this conversation we chat about: Trying to be the perfect parent – 6:10 Generational trauma – 11:30 Taking a break and Alcoholidays – 23:15 The lesser-known health implications of drinking – 36:45 To see Deb’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Deb using the links below: Website: www.alcoholtippingpoint.com Instagram: @alcoholtippingpoint Podcast: www.alcoholtippingpoint.com/podcast Email: deb@alcoholtippingpoint.com STEP OUT FROM BEHIND THE SMILE MASTERCLASS WITH ASH BUTTERSS When: Tuesday 29th August Time: 7pm - 8:30pm AEST Get your free ticket here: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/step-out-from-behind-the-smile-how-to-stop-pretending-and-start-thriving-tickets-700554426147?aff=oddtdtcreator If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E59 · Sun, August 13, 2023
Ep 59. Why you don’t need to quit drinking forever to experience the benefits of sobriety, with Matt Pink
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with Matt Pink, an alcohol-free coach and entrepreneur. Matt quit drinking in April 2020 and since that time has taken the sober world by storm. He’s not only published a best-selling book but is also the co-founder of Dryy – an online and offline community that welcomes anyone wanting to try an alcohol-free lifestyle. Matt’s life today couldn’t be more different than the one he was living 10 years ago. After experiencing a life-changing tragedy in 2013, Matt found himself self-medicating with drugs and alcohol for many years. A chance encounter with a complete stranger on the streets of London helped Matt to open his eyes and change the direction of his life. From losing everything, to rebuilding a life where he’s the happiest he’s ever been, Matt’s story is one of hope and strength. We chatted about a range of topics including: Staying open to spirituality – 14:00 Using drugs to manage your drinking – 21:00 Find happiness on the inside – 26:40 Sobergasms – 31:00 Sober Parenting 33:40 Sober Entrepreneurship – 37:18 To see Matt’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Matt using the links below: Website: Better Life Guy Website: Dryy Instagram: @better_life_guy If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E58 · Sun, August 06, 2023
Ep 58. One year of Behind the Smile, with special guest Rod Butterss
It’s an extra special episode this week as we celebrate one whole year of Behind The Smile, and to mark the occasion I’ve invited back to the show, my dad Rod. Dad was the first ever guest to join me on Behind The Smile and his episode (Ep 2. From Manic to Mindful) is still one of the most popular episodes to date!! This time, we decided to hand the power over to you and have answered some of the brilliant questions you, the listeners sent in. Here are the questions we covered in this chat: What’s been the biggest lesson you’ve learned in starting the podcast and becoming an entrepreneur? What’s been the hardest thing to overcome outside of sobriety? What’s your mental health journey been like over the years, and what are your thoughts on medication in recovery? Was there a big drug taking culture at your high school? Did your friends do it too? As a parent, what advice would you give to others raising children in regard to addiction awareness? Growing up in an alcoholic home, what would you have wanted your parents to have done differently? This was a deep conversation that at times felt like a low-key family therapy session. What I love about my conversations with dad is that we speak openly and from the heart, leaving nothing unsaid. To everyone that has supported Behind The Smile over the past 12 months, I can’t thank you enough. Each of you are in my heart and together we will continue to remove the stigma around mental health, trauma and addiction. When we recover loudly, no one need suffer in silence. xoxo You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Rod using the links below: LinkeIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/rodbutterss/ If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E57 · Sun, July 30, 2023
Ep 57. From surviving to thriving with Justine Whitchurch
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with sobriety speaker, author and fitness coach Justine Whitchurch. Justine made the decision to quit drinking after developing an unhealthy relationship with alcohol while trying to self-medicate her mental health. Making the decision to get sober changed the course of Justine’s life and she’s spent the best part of the last decade finding her purpose in fitness and helping others. Today, Justine is a passionate sobriety advocate, promoting a booze free lifestyle and working to create a world where being sober is just as normal as being a drinker. We had an awesome conversation and covered a range of topics including: Self-medicating your mental health – 5:30 Living with OCD – 12:00 Escaping with alcohol – 16:30 Normalising sobriety – 26:00 The lengths we go to – 32:30 Finding fitness and purpose – 39:43 To see Justine’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Justine using the links below: Website: Justine Whitchurch Instagram: @jusswhitchurch If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E56 · Sun, July 23, 2023
Ep 56. The search for a spiritual solution, with Ian Burchall
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with AOD support worker and sober human Ian Burchall. Ian made the decision to get clean and sober on the 15th of December 2016 after his dependence on substances took him to his darkest hour. In recovery, Ian found what he’d been searching for all along, a spiritual solution and a deeper connection to self. From living a life driven by fear to finding himself on a continual path of growth, Ian’s story is both heart-wrenching and inspiring. We covered a number of topics including: Shifting your perspective – 7:00 Being in collision with your values – 21:05 Switching the witch for the bitch – 28:00 Calling off an engagement – 39:39 Seeking spirituality – 49:51 Clearing up the wreckage 58:36 Trigger Warning: This episode discusses sensitive topics including suicide, which may be distressing to some listeners. If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) To see Ian’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
Bonus · Thu, July 20, 2023
Ep 55. BONUS EPISODE: Grief and Hard Conversations with Kathryn Elliott
In today’s bonus episode I’m joined by a returning guest and friend of the show, Alcohol and Binge Drinking Coach Kathryn Elliott, to discuss some heavier topics relating to sobriety. Neither Kath nor I had any idea when we booked this interview that the topics would be so relevant to the place Kath would be in at the time of recording. Navigating grief and hard conversations is a whole new experience in sobriety and Kath was so gracious to join me for this episode, to share with you all her experience relating to this in real time. If you know someone who would benefit from hearing this episode please share with love. When we recover loudly, no one need suffer in silence xx You can find Kath using the links below: Website: The Alcohol Mindset Coach Instagram: @thealcoholmindsetcoach You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E54 · Sun, July 16, 2023
Ep 54. The progressive nature of alcohol addiction, with Deb Pascoe
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with mother of two and business director Deb Pascoe. Deb describes how she drank for the best part of 35 years however her relationship with alcohol started to unravel when she moved to Singapore in her late 40s. Deb was self-medicating her declining mental health with booze, but struggled to see her drinking as problematic as she was holding down a job and her relationship. It wasn’t until concerned family members intervened that Deb took an honest look at her life and made the decision to go to rehab. Now seven years sober, Deb is the most content she’s ever been as she’s finally found the peace she’d been searching for all along. We laughed our way through a list of topics including: Pseudo Spirituality – 3:45 Being born an alcoholic 9:30 A progressive disease – 17:30 When the wheels fall off – 22:00 Denial runs deep – 31:54 Enlarging your spiritual life – 41.00 Drop the rocks – 45:20 Being a grateful alcoholic – 49:15 To see Deb’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E53 · Sun, July 09, 2023
Ep 53. Porn addiction, embracing intimacy and dismantling the masculine archetype with Tyran Mowbray
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with Australia’s leading masculinity mentor Tyran Mowbray. Tyran started his recovery journey nine years ago when he gave up porn. Six years after that he stopped using drugs and as of 2021 he reframed his relationship with alcohol. Tyran is doing powerful work in supporting men to break down their walls and barriers of self-criticism and eliminate shame around their natural healthy masculine expression. Tyran’s personal journey has taken him from the mountains in India to a sex-cult in New Zealand and we talk about it all in this epic conversation. Some of the topics we covered include: Having an alter-ego – 12:00 Changing generational patterns – 15:47 Experiencing a breakdown in your twenties – 21:10 Porn Addiction, tantra and intimacy – 29:30 Shattering the masculine archetype 48:15 To see Tyran’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Tyran using the links below: Instagram: @tyran.mowbray Facebook: www.facebook.com/TyranMowbray1 Website: Tyran Mowbray and The Advanced Man Academy If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
Bonus · Thu, July 06, 2023
Ep 52. BONUS SOLO EP: Season 3 and My Morning Routine
In today’s bonus episode we’re kicking off Season 3 of Behind The Smile Podcast! And to say a big thank you I’ve decided to share with you all the secret sauce that makes up my morning routine. Over the past few years, I’ve had countless people ask me “what’s your secret?” The truth is, there’s a number of ingredients I put into the recipe I call life, but one of the key elements is my morning routine. If there’s a question or topic you’d like me to cover in future episodes, be sure to let me know by reaching out on my socials. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S3 E51 · Sun, July 02, 2023
Ep 51. Breaking the generational cycle and becoming a sassy sober Mum, with Teri MacGilbert
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with mum of three, podcast host and sober coach Teri MacGilbert, aka @SassySoberMum. Teri grew up in an environment where daily drinking was the norm. As an adult she came to find herself being drawn to alcohol as a way to comfort and manage stress. After a few short sober stints, Teri ditched the drink for the last time in April 2019 and hasn’t looked back. In choosing the sober path, Teri has broken a generational drinking cycle and is now an example to her daughters that she can be proud of. Teri’s life has grown exponentially over the past four years and her story is proof that you truly can do it all in sobriety! Some of the topics we cover in this conversation include: Gaining extra hours and how to maximise them – 7:25 The normalisation of booze – 18:48 Finding comfort and consequences – 25:00 Being a dry drunk – 29:09 Making peace with relationships – 33:50 Being a sober and present mum – 39:35 To see Teri’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Teri using the links below: Website: Sassy Sober Mum Instagram: @sassysobermum If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E50 · Sat, June 24, 2023
Ep 50. The difference between getting sober and actually living life in recovery, with Benn Veenker
In this week’s episode I sat down with drug and alcohol counsellor Benn Veenker. Benn made the decision to get clean and sober on the 31st of August 2012 and has made it his life’s work to help other people rehabilitate from addiction. Benn shares openly about his journey to rehab and the steps he took to turn his life around. His story is a heart-warming testimony of the healing that can occur when you choose to show up every single day in your recovery. How even loved ones lost can re-emerge and how life can blossom beyond your wildest dreams. Some of the topics we discussed include: Having no off switch – 7:00 Connecting to true purpose – 16:40 Choas and consequences – 21:30 Addiction and mental health darkness – 25:40 Working your recovery – 36:15 Abstinence and harm reduction – 44:25 Healing “lost” relationships – 47:35 To see Benn’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find out more about First Steps using the links below: WEBSITE: www.firststep.org.au Instagram: @firststepstkilda If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
Bonus · Thu, June 22, 2023
Ep 49. BONUS EPISODE: Unpacking Secular AA with Robert P
In today’s bonus episode, I’m joined by AA member Robert P, to discuss the evolution of a movement known as Secular AA. I knew very little about this topic before speaking to Robert and jumped at the opportunity to learn more about an alternate approach to sobriety. As a passionate member of AA with over thirty years sobriety, Robert offers great insights into this lesser-known branch of a worldwide organisation. If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E48 · Sun, June 18, 2023
Ep 48. The anxiety that comes with being a socially acceptable binge drinker, with Victoria Vanstone
In this week’s episode I’m chatting with author, podcaster and mum of three Victoria Vanstone. Vic grew up in the UK, in an environment where drinking and socialising went hand-in-hand. As a result, Vic developed an identity as “the party-girl,” and was forever surrounded by people who drank the same way she did. Vic continued drinking and partying into her thirties however the impact on her mental health was starting to take its toll. Crippled with anxiety and a looming sense of guilt and shame, she knew she needed to take a break from booze. On the day she quit drinking, Vic started writing and she hasn’t stopped. Five years on, Vic has created an online sober community called Cuppa and is the co-host of the wildly hilarious podcast, Sober Awkward . Through sharing her story, Vic shows that you don’t have to hit rock bottom to change your relationship with alcohol. We had a brilliant chat and covered a range of topics including: Hiding your truth and people pleasing – 4:22 Wearing different masks – 13:00 Being a socially acceptable binge drinker – 23:27 Anxiety and mental health wobbles – 27:30 Asking for help and starting a new life – 34:15 Loneliness in sobriety – 40:30 To see Vic’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Vic using the links below: Website: Drunk Mummy Sober Mummy Instagram: @drunkmummysobermummy If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E47 · Sun, June 11, 2023
Ep 47. Leaving the world a better place than how you found it, with Ed Latimore
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with best-selling author, former professional heavyweight boxer and Ted X speaker, Ed Latimore. Growing up in the projects, Ed was exposed to numerous adverse childhood experiences, and turned to alcohol in his teenage years as a way to be socially accepted. Ed knew he had a problem with drinking when he found himself turning to the bottle in an attempt to change the way he felt. Unable to hide behind a smile any longer, he made the decision to get sober in December 2013. Ed likes to say he’s lived four different lives, with his most recent chapter in sobriety being his most rewarding yet. Ed is on a mission to teach people what he’s learned the hard way, so that they can live a better life themselves. In this conversation we talk about: Addiction being the disease of denial – 10:00 Growing up in the projects – 19:30 Internal scars and resentments – 23:30 The social pressure to drink – 35:00 Relapse and recovery – 44:09 Labels and identification – 51:30 To see Ed’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Ed using the links below: Website: Ed Latimore Twitter: Ed Latimore Twitter Instagram: @edlatimore Facebook: Ed Latimore Boxer LinkedIn: Ed Latimore on LinkedIn Ted Talk: Addiction and Identity If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
Bonus · Sat, June 10, 2023
Ep 46. BONUS EPISODE: What really goes on inside a rehab, with Mitch & Gab
In today’s bonus episode, I’m joined by my friends Mitch and Gab to share with you all what really goes on inside the walls of a rehab. Having all had our own unique experiences in rehab, we chat about everything from what an average day looks like, to the things you least expect and also our biggest lessons. If you love Behind The Smile and want to support the show you can do this easily by hitting FOLLOW in your podcast app and leaving a review! You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to donate to the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E45 · Sun, June 04, 2023
Ep 45. You can be high or you can be happy, with Cole Chance
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with Cole Chance, an American yoga teacher who now calls Australia home. Cole has been a seeker all her life. This journey has taken her to the depths of addiction, all around the world and now onto the path of yoga and recovery. As a trauma-informed yoga teacher with over nine years sobriety, Cole shares a wealth of experience and wisdom. In this conversation we talk about: Wearing a crown and a smile to rehab – 7:00 Life as a seeker – 15:00 Discovering the golden ticket – 20:00 Trauma and shame – 22:50 The blurry bottom – 30:00 The turning point – 40:00 Yoga and spirituality – 45:00 Compassionate Inquiry – 49:50 To see Cole’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Cole using the links below: EMERGE RECOVERY WEBSITE: Cole Chance Yoga YOUTUBE: Cole Chance Yoga CCY Instagram: @colechanceyoga If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YE S I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E44 · Sun, May 28, 2023
Ep 44. War of the mind: one soldier’s story of PTSD, self-medication and recovery, with Jon Wynn
In this week’s episode I’m speaking with ex-military, fitness and sobriety coach Jon Wynn. Jon grew up in regional Australia and was exposed to drinking at a young age however he didn’t start abusing alcohol and other drugs until he joined the military. After receiving a gunshot wound on tour in Afghanistan, he returned home with a sense of invincibility coupled with an insatiable urge to drown out the noise in his head. Struggling with PTSD, Jon felt as though he couldn’t ask for help for fear of stigma and potentially losing his job. The greatest fight for his life began when Jon left the military and started his long road to recovery. Today, Jon is free from the nightmare of PTSD and is living a fulfilled life clean and sober. Jon shares his story in the hope that it can help remove the stigma and support other people struggling with mental health conditions. Some of the topics we cover in this conversation include: Rehab Intervention – 7:30 Coping Mechanisms – 12:40 Joining the Military – 19:23 The mental impact of being shot in battle – 23:48 Losing your identity – 28:40 Mental health stigmatisation – 33:08 Self-medicating PTSD – 38:05 The fight to live – 42:18 Fitness and recovery – 48:13 To see Jon’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Jon using the links below: Website: J on Wynn Fitness and Sobriety Instagram: @jonwynnfitnessandsobriety If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E43 · Sun, May 21, 2023
Ep 43. The dark side behind the bright lights of fame, with Dena Amy
In this week’s episode, I sat down with actress, singer, dancer and international DJ, Dena Amy. Best known for her role as Abigail in the Netflix series Dance Academy and playing to thousands of people at Coachella, Dena’s life on the outside looked like a dream. But the truth was, Dena was self-medicating with prescription pills to ease the pressure of life as a global performer. After realising she’d developed an addiction to Xanax, Dena set about her long and often painful journey to recovery which has spanned the last six years. Today, Dena is over 12 months clean and is just a couple of weeks away from starting her next big journey into motherhood. Some of the topics we cover in this conversation include: The dark side of show business – 7:00 The impact of childhood trauma – 15:50 Benzos and World Tours – 21:00 The nightmare of withdrawal – 28:32 Holistic Healing – 36:30 Life after rehab – 40:15 To see Dena’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Dena using the links below: Website: Dena Amy Instagram: @denaamy If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E42 · Sun, May 14, 2023
Ep 42. Healing your trauma and living a fulfilled life that’s in alignment with your values, with Lewis Huckstep
In this week’s episode I’m joined by Mindset and Leadership Coach Lewis Huckstep. As a young boy Lewis was diagnosed with asperges and struggled with anxiety, resulting in him feeling uncomfortable in his own skin. In an attempt to seek approval from his dad, he chased the dream of becoming a professional athlete and was contracted to a pro club by the time he was 15 years old. By age 18, he knew his calling was in business and so he turned his attention to entrepreneurship. Lewis achieved great success at a young age, but found he wasn’t fulfilled or happy as the work he was doing wasn’t in alignment with the person he wanted to be. Today, Lewis finds joy in helping business owners scale their businesses and build fulfilling intimate relationships. He’s on a mission to heal and improve the consciousness of humanity and he joined me on the show to share his story. In this conversation we discuss: Practicing detachment – 9min Childhood Trauma – 14:00 Exploring your consciousness with weed & psychedelics – 23:00 Shattering limiting beliefs – 27:30 Finding your purpose and values – 35:00 Workaholism – 42:00 Being triggered in relationships 44:00 The resources mentioned in this episode include: Change your Thoughts Change Your Life – Wayne Dyer The Body Keeps The Score – Bessell Van Der Kolk You’re Not Broken – Dr Sarah Woodhouse To see Lewis’ Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Lewis using the links below: Instagram: @lewishuckstep LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/lewis-huckstep-74a42618b/ YouTube: www.youtube.com/@LewisHuckstep If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can Buy Me a Coffee by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S2 E41 · Sun, May 07, 2023
Ep 41. Own your morning, own your day and showing up no matter what, with Sober Coach Jen Hirst
In this week’s episode I sat down with Sober Coach and mum of two Jen Hirst, who recently celebrated ten years of sobriety! Jen shares how she went from being an anxious perfectionist and workaholic who used alcohol daily to manage stress and social anxiety, to a sobriety coach, speaker and founder of Lighthouse Sobriety. I absolutely loved this conversation with Jen and we covered a lot including: Perfectionism – 5:00 Hiding Behind The Smile – 17:08 Self-medicating with Adderall – 28:30 The gift of desperation – 31:13 Her experience in rehab – 36:46 Learning how to fill your time in sobriety – 39:58 Identification and shame reduction – 42:40 Tools for recovery – 47:09 Cross-addiction – 51:20 Healthy Habits in Sobriety – 56:50 Doing the work in the off season – 62:53 To see Jen’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can find Jen using the links below: WEBSITE: www.joinlighthousesobriety.com INSTAGRAM: @jenleehirst FREE WOMEN'S SOBRIETY GROUP: https://www.facebook.com/groups/330194347765026 You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E40 · Fri, May 05, 2023
BONUS EPISODE - Ep 40. How I manifested speaking on stage with Gabby Bernstein
Life has been super busy lately with lots of exciting things happening so I’m sliding in with a cheeky bonus episode to keep you all up to date with my world. For those of you who follow me on Instagram, you’ll know that last week I had the opportunity to meet and speak with Gabby Bernstein on stage at her Melbourne show. This was a total “pinch me” moment and I took away so much from the wisdom she shared (which I’m of course passing onto you!) I also recently attended the Australia and New Zealand Addiction Conference and was privileged to hear Dr. Gabor Mate’s opening address. He spoke about the connection between trauma and addiction and the disconnection we experience as a result of unresolved traumas. Lastly, I’m sharing a little life update on the home front xx You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global) If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE
S2 E39 · Sun, April 30, 2023
Ep 39. Making the choice to be better than yesterday, with Luc Zoratto
In this week’s episode I sat down with Luc Zoratto, an alcohol-free life coach and marathon runner from Toronto, Canada. Luc and I talk about the challenge of giving up alcohol when you’ve created an identity and a life revolved around drinking. Luc shares how he spent years trying to moderate and control his drinking, while constantly disappointing people, having to apologise for his actions and hiding the amount he was drinking (even from his therapist). On New Year’s Eve of 2016, Luc finally had the realisation that his life wasn’t going to change unless he changed and with that, he made the decision to stop drinking. At first Luc was ashamed of his sobriety and he kept it hidden for the first five years of his recovery. Today however, Luc is proud to share his story and now helps other men and women to live a fulfilled alcohol-free life. In 2019, Luc started running and soon after set himself the goal of running a marathon. He now trains for marathons daily and explains how this hobby has given him the discipline and connection that supports him to grow and improve each and every day. Here are some of the topics we cover: The Sunday Scaries – 10min Creating a personality around alcohol 14min Vicious Cycle of Addiction – 17min Early Sobriety – 25min Loud and Proud in Sobriety 30min Navigating a relationship when your partner drinks and practicing boundaries 37min The mental game of running 43:50 Staying close to your WHY 48.35 You can find Luc on his website and download your free guide “How to become the life of the party sober” here: Marathon2Sobriety You can follow Luc on IG here: @marathon2sobriety You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E38 · Sun, April 23, 2023
Ep 38. Creating a life you no longer want to escape from, with Kath Elliott
In this week’s episode I sat down with Kath Elliott, the Alcohol Mindset Coach. Kath’s world was completely rocked when just six weeks after making the decision to take an extended break from alcohol, she was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer. This shocking discovery led Kath down a vigorous path of research as she sought to understand more about the link between alcohol and breast cancer. What she uncovered confirmed her worst fears. Hundreds of studies highlighted a direct link between low to moderate alcohol consumption and breast cancer. This discovery and her own unique personal experience inspired Kath to become an advocate to promote awareness around the dangers of drinking so that more women could be armed with the necessary information. Today, Kath is cancer free and shares how her diagnosis gave her the opportunity to slow down and become present – to focus on all of the ordinary beautiful moments that we often take for granted. Kath shares how the decision to remain alcohol free has given her a profound shift in her perspective in life and has allowed her to develop a real appreciation for herself. She describes it as “finding home in your heart.” To see Kath’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can find Kath on here website The Alcohol Mindset Coach You can follow Kath on IG here: @thealcoholmindsetcoach You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint(global) If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S2 E37 · Sun, April 16, 2023
Ep 37. Designing your habits around the person you want to become, with RJ Singh
In this week’s episode, I sat down with ultra-endurance athlete and father of two, RJ Singh. RJ shares how he went from being a promising Olympian, to bouncing in and out of juvenile detention once he was introduced to drugs and alcohol. After fleeing the US to avoid further criminal charges, RJ landed in Australia, which would later become the epicentre of his recovery. In this conversation, we discuss the profound personality change that occurs when an addict takes a drink or a drug and how the idea of going back isn’t even an option. RJ shares how he managed to tap into “a desire to live” which has helped keep him sober for over thirteen years. He also highlights the power of example and the importance of surrounding yourself with strong sobriety and we also discuss how he’s learnt to navigate romantic relationships in recovery. As the founder of Ultra Habits, RJ is no stranger to pushing his body to the limit and he shares how facing physical challenges has helped him battle his mental demons and protect his recovery. RJ is all about designing your habits around a vision of who you want to become which, when looking at the turn around in his life today, is something he clearly embodies. To see RJ’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can find RJ using the links below: Website: https://ultrahabits.co/ Instagram: @ultra.habits LinkedIn: RJ Singh You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global) If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S2 E36 · Sun, April 09, 2023
Ep 36. Finding the key to freedom, with Laura Cathcart Robbins
My guest this week is the extremely talented Laura Cathcart Robbins. Laura is the host of the brilliant podcast, The Only One in The Room, and has recently added author to her bio, with the release of her memoir Stash – My Life in Hiding. Laura made the decision to get clean and sober in August 2008 after battling an addiction to Ambien, a prescribed sleep-aid. At almost 15 years sober, Laura continues to work a daily program of recovery and credits this as the reason she lives an incredible life today. Laura’s addiction took her to her darkest days, yet in recovery she’s found freedom and a deep connection to self that she’d never experienced before. Throughout her life, Laura has often been “the only one in the room” and this was no exception when it came to her experience in recovery. She was inspired to write her story after realising there wasn’t a single book written by a person of colour that spoke to her. Today, Laura advocates and continues to show up so that she can be a familiar face and a beacon of hope for other minorities in recovery. To see Laura’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . Laura’s website: www.theonlyonepod.com Buy Stash on Amazon You can check out Laura’s IG here: @lauracathcartrobbins You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you enjoyed this episode and would like to support the show you can buy me a coffee: SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE HERE
S2 E35 · Sun, April 02, 2023
Ep 35. Facing your fears with Josh (Anon.)
In this week’s episode I sat down with Josh, a lawyer and father of three who made the decision to quit drinking on the 23rd of July, 2015. Josh was terrified at the idea of having to give up alcohol, but he knew if he didn’t, he could face losing everything and everyone he loved. In choosing sobriety, Josh embarked on a journey that would require him to honestly face his "self-centred fears" and reframe him entire outlook on life. In this conversation, Josh shares how his most painful lessons have gifted him the greatest opportunity for growth while simultaneously levelling out his ego. Tune in this week to hear how this high-flying solicitor turned his life around and now lives a life based in spiritual principles. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E34 · Sun, March 26, 2023
Ep 34. Don't wait until you want to stop, with Sober Coach, Casey McGuire Davidson
In this week’s episode, I sat down with sober coach and fellow podcaster Casey McGuire Davidson. Casey recently celebrated 7 years of sobriety and joined me to share her personal experience and expertise through helping hundreds of women get sober. In this conversation we cover: Drinking Highlights and Lowlights (24min) Mommy Wine Culture (31min) Our different opinions on using the label “alcoholic” (36min) What to expect when working with a Sober Coach (43min) The biggest mistake people make when they’re trying to quit drinking (53min) To see Casey’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss You can find Casey using the links below: Casey's Website: https://hellosomedaycoaching.com/ Free 30-Day Guide To Quitting Drinking - 30 Tips For Your First Month Alcohol Free https://hellosomedaycoaching.com/30-day-sober-guide/ The Hello Someday Podcast: https://hellosomedaycoaching.com/podcast/ The Sobriety Starter Kit Online Course: https://www.thesobrietystarterkit.com/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/HelloSomeday Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/caseymdavidson/ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeVIxEe2MC9sPUaDh74sdWQ If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E33 · Sun, March 19, 2023
Ep 33. Knocking on death's door with Mike Faria
Mike Faria is lucky to be alive. In January 2020, he was taken to hospital in the back of an ambulance and placed in an induced coma to prevent his vital organs from shutting down. He had been drinking himself to death and he hadn’t even realised how serious his condition had become. After making a miraculous recovery, Mike was brought out of his coma and sent home to regain his strength however doctors weren’t sure if he’d make it to the end of the year due to the extensive damage to his liver. In this conversation, Mike and I talk about the progressive nature of addiction and how alcoholism crept up on him slowly over a number of years. Mike shares openly about the setbacks he’s encountered in recovery and compassion shows himself after a relapse. Today Mike continues to fight for his recovery, finding strength in his faith and his passion of spreading awareness around alcohol addiction. In this episode we also discuss: Showing signs of addiction from an early age (13min) Using different drugs to fill different voids (17min) Processing emotions in sobriety (19min) Physical signs of alcohol poisoning and dependency (38min) Being given a second chance at life (50min) Returning to alcohol (53min) How to maintain your recovery (60min) To see Mike’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can check out Mike’s IG here: @jerzeymike You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E32 · Sun, March 12, 2023
Ep 32. Embracing your true authentic sober self and leaning into uncomfortability with Maz Compton
In this week’s episode I sat down with breakfast radio and podcast host, Maz Compton. From landing her dream job as an MTV VJ to becoming the host of Sydney’s top breakfast radio show, Maz was living a fast-paced life fuelled by parties, celebrities and booze. Maz has interviewed everyone from Alicia Keys to Dave Grohl, all the while playing a role to suit her environment. Working in entertainment media, Maz was often required to put on a smile and get the job done, which over the years, created a deep divide between the person she was presenting to the world, and how she was really feeling on the inside. In this conversation, Maz talks about her problematic relationship with alcohol and how she knew if something didn’t change, she would inevitably hit rock bottom. Choosing a different path, Maz made the decision to quit drinking for good in January 2015 and hasn’t looked back. In this episode we discuss what it means to reconnect with your authentic self in sobriety and how to remove the fear and lean into the unknown. Maz also shares what the most annoying part of being sober is (hint: avoiding the d**kheads). You can follow Maz on IG here: @mazcompton You can follow Last Drinks on IG here: @lastdrinkspod Listen to Last Drinks Podcast here You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E31 · Sun, March 05, 2023
Ep 31. The insanity of alcohol addiction with Will Hitchins
In this week’s episode I sat down with fellow sober podcaster Will Hitchins to chat about his road to recovery. Will is one half of the awesome duo that makes up Last Drinks, a sobriety podcast he created with his mate Mitch Ford. Will quit drinking on the 1st of February 2020, however this isn’t his first stint at sobriety. In this conversation, he explains how an overwhelming sense of disconnection led him to relapse after being sober for two years. We talk about the change in personality that alcoholics experience when they drink alcohol and how this often leads to regrettable behaviour that hurts the ones we love most. We also discuss the cycle of addiction where you drink to numb out feelings of guilt and shame, only to cause more harm as a result of more drunken behaviour. Will also talks openly about the negative impact alcohol played on his mental health, along with an honest insight into where he’s at with his recovery today. You can follow Will’s on IG here: @willhitchins You can follow Last Drinks Podcast on IG here: @lastdrinkspodcast Listen to Last Drinks Podcast HERE! You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E30 · Sun, February 26, 2023
Ep 30. Ask Me Anything! A reflection on three years of sobriety
In this week’s episode, to celebrate my three-year sobriety milestone, I’ve put myself back in the interview seat and invited my BFF Georgia back onto the show to ask all the questions. My life has once again changed significantly over the past twelve months and I’m here to share with you how I’ve navigated these situations sober. We talk about how I handle triggers when they arise, letting go of perfectionism and remaining open to growth. We also discuss dating in recovery, my relationships and recent journey with egg freezing. I love recording these Ask Me Anything episodes because it opens up the space for honest and vulnerable conversations. This episode is no different, I hope you all enjoy x You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss Or check out all of the episode show notes on Ash's website here . If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: · A healthcare professional · Alcoholics Anonymous · Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) · CheckPoint (global)
S2 E29 · Sun, February 19, 2023
Ep 29. When the solution (alcohol) stops working with Simon A
In this week’s episode I sit down with recovered alcoholic Simon who shares his story of addiction and sobriety. Simon has a way of describing vividly the way alcoholism manifests in the mind and how alcohol became the “solution” to his alcoholic thinking. Simon and I talk about the turning point most alcoholics reach when you realise you can’t live with alcohol and you can’t live without it and the mental torment of trying to give up booze without a support network. We also discuss alcoholism as being the “disease of wanting more” and how sobriety shifts your perspective to find contentment in simplicity. Over the past six and a half years Simon has rebuilt his life and is today chasing his dreams of becoming a medical doctor. Simon’s story is one of hope and possibility for anyone looking to step into recovery. To see this week's Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E28 · Sun, February 12, 2023
Ep 28. Love Addiction with trauma and addiction specialist, Diane Young
When we think of addiction, most of us go straight to thoughts of alcohol or drugs, but what if I told you that you could be addicted to love? And that Love Addiction can be just as harmful to a person’s life as drinking or drugs? In this week’s episode, I sat down with trauma and addiction specialist Diane Young, to discuss the topic of Love Addiction. Diane outlines clearly the definition of love addiction, where it comes from and the different characteristics that define a love addict’s behaviour. This is a fascinating conversation for anyone who finds themselves attracting the same “type” of person or for those who have difficulty maintaining romantic relationships. To find out more about Diane Young you can visit her website here . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss or visit Ash's website here . If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E27 · Sun, February 05, 2023
Ep 27. Becoming someone you can be proud of with Sober Motivation's Brad Mcleod
In this week’s episode I’m sitting down with Brad Mcleod, the genius behind one of Instagram’s most popular recovery pages, Sober Motivation. Brad made the decision to get clean on the 11th of January 2010, after years of battling with addiction. It was a stint in jail and a lifetime ban from the US that gave Brad the motivation he needed to turn his life around. In this conversation Brad shares the profound impact sobriety has made on the person he is today. We talk about the process of rebuilding self-esteem and rediscovering your integrity in recovery. Brad is now a father of three and is helping people to change their lives by getting clean and sober. His passion is building a community of likeminded sober people who are there to celebrate and support one other. He credits this community as being the foundation of his recovery. You can follow Brad’s account Sober Motivation here: @sobermotivation You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss For more episode show notes head to Ash's Website . If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E26 · Sun, January 29, 2023
Ep 26. Getting comfortable in being uncomfortable, with Danni Carr
Danni Carr is a trauma-informed sobriety coach and podcast host who celebrated 5 years of sobriety on the 1st of January, 2023. Danni met her husband, musician Ash Grunwald, in her early 20s and they spent the next decade travelling the world living the “Rockstar” lifestyle. But eventually, the partying caught up with Danni and alcohol started to erode what was most important in her life including her relationships and her health. In this conversation, Danni shares the turn of events that led her to finally make the decision to quit alcohol and how since that day, she’s embarked on a journey of deep inner work. Danni and I were laughing a lot throughout this chat as we realised we shared many similar experiences both in our drinking stories and our sobriety journeys. In this chat, we discuss the inner contentment of choosing a life rich in quality over quantity as well as busting the myth that booze helps you to create deep connection with others. Since getting sober, Danni, has been able to quieten the inner critic that once led her to drink and has learnt how to sit in uncomfortable feelings instead of reaching for the bottle. This is her story. To see Danni’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can check out Danni’s podcast and coaching at How I Quit Alcohol . You can follow Danni on IG here: @howiquitalcohol You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E25 · Sun, January 22, 2023
Ep 25. One man's relentless pursuit of recovery with Carlo La Marchesina
Carlo La Marchesina is lucky to be alive. During his 18 years of heavy drinking and IV drug use, Carlo made over 40 attempts to get clean. Today, he is closing in on 15 years of continuous sobriety. In this conversation, Carlo talks about the resilience required to never give up on his recovery and the many lessons he’s learned along the way. Now working as a clinician dedicated to helping other addicts get clean and sober, Carlo shares his insights into why some people make it in recovery and why sadly, others don’t. We also discuss the complex topic of mental health crossed with addiction and the difficulty these people have seeking treatment. It is widely known that people who experience depression and anxiety have a high chance of becoming addicted to alcohol and drugs as they seek to self-medicate, while in turn, substance abuse can lead to mental illness. Carlo shares openly and honestly with the aim that other people can find hope in identification. This is his story. Carlo is the Clinical Director and General Manager at Harmony House Health, Wellness and Recovery Centre. If you would like to contact Carlo directly you can do so on +61 415 203 645 To see Carlo’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E24 · Sun, January 15, 2023
Ep 24. Trauma-informed recovery with Mandy Manners
In this week’s episode I’m speaking with Mandy Manners, a trauma-informed wellbeing and sobriety coach from France. Mandy has been in recovery for over five years and in that time has become an activist and advocate for sobriety and mental health. In this conversation, Mandy opens up about the traumatic experience that led her down a path of self-medication with alcohol and drugs. Yet, through extensive trauma recovery work, Mandy has been able to properly process these events and in turn, heal her life. Mandy’s story is raw and powerful with an underpinning of hope. In recovery she has been able to let go of the shame and finally forgive herself. This episode contains topics that could be triggering. If your mental health is triggered and you are based in Australia, please reach out to a support group such as Lifeline 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue 1300 224 636. For other countries, you can visit CheckPoint for your specific country details. To see Mandy’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . If you’d like to know more about Mandy’s coaching business you can visit her website here . You can check out Mandy's books, Love Yourself Sober and Love Your Sober Year on Amazon here . You can follow Mandy on IG here: @mandymannerscoach You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E23 · Sun, January 08, 2023
Ep 23. The importance of getting honest with yourself, with Sober Dave
In this week’s episode, I sit down with Dave Wilson, aka Sober Dave to discuss his journey into recovery. Dave got sober on the 7th of January 2019 and since then has become a certified grey-area drinking coach and leading voice within the online sober community. Dave shares the epiphany he experienced that led to him finally giving up alcohol after years of struggling with addiction and the incredible way in which his life has changed. In this conversation, Dave and I discuss the importance of getting truly honest with yourself when it comes to your relationship with alcohol and the freedom you experience when you decide to step off the hamster wheel. We also talk about the power of mindset, the importance of community and finding out who you really are in sobriety. To see Dave’s Behind The Smile photo, head to Ash’s website . If you’d like to know more about Dave’s coaching business you can visit his website here . You can listen to Dave’s podcast One For The Road here . You can purchase his book, also called One For The Road on Amazon . You can follow Dave on IG here: @soberdave You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: A healthcare professional Alcoholics Anonymous Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) CheckPoint (global)
S2 E22 · Sun, January 01, 2023
Ep 22. Kicking off Season Two with Ask Me Anything!
To kick off season two, I’m answering all of your burning questions. A big thank you to everyone that sent in questions over Instagram last week! In this week’s episode I’ll be talking about the catalyst that drove me to rehab, how to protect your sobriety throughout Summer, why I choose to work an abstinence-based program, how to respond to people when they question why you’re not drinking, why it’s important not to make any big decisions in the first 12 months of sobriety and finally, what to do if you’re experiencing loneliness. If you love this week’s episode and know someone who might benefit from listening, I’d be grateful if you could pass it on. You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss and join the Facebook Group . For all episode show notes, check out Ash’s website .
S1 E21 · Sun, December 25, 2022
Ep 21. Season Finale: Magic Moments of 2022
To close out what has been an incredible debut season, I’m sharing with you all a few of my favourite magic moments from some of the most popular episodes of 2022. I wanted to say a huge thank you to the loyal BTS community and everyone who has listened, shared or reviewed the podcast. Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss was created out of a deep desire to change the conversation around mental health, addiction and trauma. I truly believe the most effective way to challenge the current archaic stigma is to keep talking, keep educating and keep sharing stories from those in recovery. Since launching the podcast in August, I’ve received countless messages from many of you sharing your own personal experiences and how the show has helped you reflect on your own lives. To know this podcast is helping people all over the world, makes this work so meaningful and I’m beyond grateful for this opportunity. Next year’s show is already shaping up to be outstanding with some incredible guests locked in. I can’t wait to continue the journey with you all. For now, wishing you all a safe and happy Holidays. xoxo Ash You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss For all episode show notes, check out Ash's website .
S1 E20 · Sun, December 18, 2022
Ep 20. Navigating family dynamics, travelling sober and New Years resolutions with Ash Butterss
For my final solo episode of the year, I wanted to share with you all some key strategies to help navigate what can be a challenging time of year for many of us. In this episode, I’ll be touching on a few key topics including: How to navigate family dynamics: watching out for triggers and how you can self-regulate once you’ve been activated. Travelling sober: helpful strategies you can implement to help protect your recovery. New Years resolutions: creating a solid plan to set you up for success. To check out Ash’s latest post on travelling sober, you can head to The Recovery Blog on Ash’s website. You can follow Ash on IG here: @ashbutterss
S1 E19 · Sun, December 11, 2022
Ep 19. How to develop Emotional Sobriety with Gill Tietz
In this week’s episode, I’m sitting down with the host of the Sober Powered Podcast, Gill Tietz, to discuss all things “Emotional Sobriety”. Gill started her podcast shortly after getting sober in 2019 with the idea of looking at sobriety through the lens of science. With a background in biomedicine, Gill has extensively researched the impact of alcohol on the brain and on our human behaviours. In our conversation, Gill shares her own journey into sobriety before we dive deep into the meaning of “Emotional Sobriety”. We discuss the impact of alcohol on the development of our emotional intelligence, along with different techniques to develop your emotional sobriety once you enter recovery. Whether you’re in recovery or not, I believe everyone can benefit from some of the key takeaways discussed throughout this episode. If you’d like to know more about Gill’s Sober Powered podcast, you can visit the website here . Or listen on Apple Podcast here : You can learn more about Gill’s media network, Sober Powered Media, here. You can follow Gill on IG here: @sober.powered You can follow Ash and Behind The Smile on IG here: @ashbutterss
S1 E18 · Sun, December 04, 2022
Ep 18. Demystifying "Grey-Area" Drinking with Sarah Rusbatch
In this week’s episode, I’m sitting down with Sobriety and Grey-Area Drinking Coach, Sarah Rusbatch. Sarah made the decision to give up alcohol in April 2019 after reaching a point where she could no longer control her drinking. Disturbed sleep, anxiety and waking up hungover each day was finally enough for Sarah to realise she wanted a better life for herself. Fast-forward to today and Sarah runs her own Sobriety Coaching business and has helped women all across the globe to ditch the booze and step into a life full of passion, purpose and alignment. As an accredited Grey-Area Drinking Coach, Sarah works with people who don’t identify as being alcoholic, yet they struggle to control and manage their drinking. In our conversation Sarah explains exactly what it means to be a Grey-Area drinker and offers helpful solutions to support people who are looking to give up alcohol for good. To see Sarah's Behind The Smile photo, click through to Ash's website here . If you’d like to know more about Sarah’s coaching business you can visit her website here . You can follow Sarah on IG here: @sarahrusbatch You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss
S1 E17 · Sun, November 27, 2022
Ep 17. How getting sober prepared one woman for the greatest battle of her life
To kick off this week's episode I'm sharing my Top 5 Tips to help you prepare for the Silly Season! We then dive into another powerful guest episode as I sit down with 46yr old, mother of three boys, Lucy Chapman. Lucy gave up drinking on the 1st of March, 2021 after almost losing everything. For years she had thought her substance use was “under control” until she found herself drinking around the clock and unable to leave her son’s bedroom. At one year sober, Lucy was diagnosed with cancer and the second battle for her life begun. Lucy credits her recovery program as to why she’s been able to face life’s challenges whilst maintaining an overwhelming sense of gratitude. You can view Lucy’s BTS Photo on the website HERE . You can connect with Ash on IG here: @ashbutterss or through the website ashbutterss.com If you enjoy Behind The Smile, then click subscribe to be notified for the release of our next episode.
S1 E16 · Sun, November 20, 2022
Ep 16. How to change your relationship with alcohol, with Sobriety Coach Lucy Quick
In this week’s episode, I’m speaking with Lucy Quick, the founder and CEO of Thrivalist , a company dedicated to helping women change their relationship with alcohol and heal their lives. Lucy began her sobriety journey on the 1st of January 2019 after deciding she’d had enough of the chaos and carnage that proceeded her drinking. Since then, she has dedicated her life to building Thrivalist and creating a range of programs to help thousands of women navigate their sober journeys. In this conversation we discuss a broad range of topics including: How to navigate friendships as they evolve in sobriety Learning how to reconnect with your authentic self Rebuilding your self-worth Manifesting your dream life If you'd like to know more about Thrivalist you can follow the links below: Thrivalist Website Thrivalist Instagram You can follow Lucy on IG here: @lucyquick_ You can connect with Ash on IG here: @ashbutterss or through the website ashbutterss.com If you enjoy Behind The Smile, then click subscribe to be notified for the release of our next episode.
S1 E15 · Sun, November 13, 2022
Ep 15. Harm Reduction VS Abstinence: Exploring the risks and benefits with Robbie Shaw
In this week’s episode I sit down with Robbie Shaw, host of Champagne Problems , a podcast that examines sobriety through the lens of health and wellness. After growing up in an alcoholic home, Robbie decided to quit drinking on May 5th, 2006, however this wasn’t the last time he experimented with other mind-altering substances. Over the past 16 years, Robbie has navigated through his sobriety journey, dipping in and out of being “California Sober”. However, 9 months ago Robbie decided to abstain from all drugs, including marijuana and hasn’t looked back since. Along with his personal lived experience, Robbie also has a Masters in Clinical Mental Health Counselling and is the Founder/CEO of Eventide, an organisation dedicated to helping people recover from addiction and substance abuse. In this conversation, Robbie shares not only what it was like, but what he’s learnt over the past sixteen years and the tools he uses to maintain his recovery today. To check out Robbie's BTS photo click HERE . To listen to Champagne Problems podcast click HERE . You follow Champagne Problems here: @champagneprobspodcast You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss
S1 E14 · Sun, November 06, 2022
Ep 14. Reclaiming your personal power with Nat Commons
In this week’s episode, I sit down with Yoga Teacher and mentor Nat Commons as she shares her own personal story of recovery. From an early age, Nat experienced trauma that resulted in the development of a range of harmful coping mechanisms. After years of self-afflicted punishment, Nat came to a life changing decision that led her down a path of self-compassion and healing. The moment she stopped running and made the decision to face her fears was the moment she became free. Nat’s story is a demonstration of the powerful message that your trauma does not define you. This episode contains topics that could be triggering. If your mental health is triggered and you are based in Australia, please reach out to a support group such as Lifeline 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue 1300 224 636. For other countries, you can visit CheckPoint for your specific country details. For additional support relating to eating disorders and body image issues, you can visit Butterfly Foundation You can find Nat here: @natcommons You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss
S1 E13 · Sun, October 30, 2022
Ep 13. The impact of addiction on families and how rehab can provide the gateway to recovery with Toby Lawrence
In this week’s episode I sit down with Toby Lawrence, the CEO of Arrow Health, one of Australia’s leading treatment centres for drug and alcohol addiction. Toby shares a firsthand account of the damaging impact addiction has, not just on the addicted person, but on the family system as a whole. In this conversation, we discuss how to support a loved one in active addiction, where to go to seek out help and why our mental healthcare system is broken. Toby talks openly about how his perspective of addiction has drastically changed and why he is now a passionate advocate for removing the stigmatisation surrounding this disease. For more information on Arrow Health you can visit: Arrow Health Website Arrow Health Facebook You can find Toby on LinkedIn here . You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss / ashbutterss.com
S1 E12 · Sun, October 23, 2022
Ep 12. Discovering what it means to truly find yourself with Patrick Kennedy
In this week’s episode, I sit down with Patrick, a 29-year-old recovering alcoholic who began his sobriety journey on the 27thMay, 2021. Pat shares openly about the moment he was “pushed into a corner with nowhere else to go” and how that moment led him to acknowledge his struggles with alcohol addiction. Since hitting rock bottom, Pat has realised it’s ok to experience struggle and that there’s no shame in asking for help. Throughout his recovery journey, he has learnt to look for the similarities instead of differences and is now challenging himself to let go of control and stop trying to run the show. This is his story. To see Patrick’s Behind The Smile photo head to ashbutterss.com To follow Patrick and his K9 friends visit: @pks_pack You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss
S1 E11 · Sun, October 16, 2022
Ep 11. Understanding Codependency: How the scars of childhood trauma can show up in adulthood with Diane Young
This week, I’m sitting down with Psychotherapist and Trauma/Addictions Specialist Diane Young, to discuss the impact of childhood trauma and how this often leads to the development of codependent traits in adulthood. Codependency is very similar to other process addictions such as gambling or eating disorders, and often develops as a result of experiencing trauma throughout childhood. In this week’s episode, Diane explains the characteristics of a codependent along with outlining Pia Mellody’s Developmental Model of Immaturity, which details the basic needs of a child and what happens when these needs are not met. To hear more from Diane you can find her here: Diane Young Website Diane's LinkedIn Diane's Instagram For more information about South Pacific Private you can head to the website here . To follow Ash on IG: @ashbutterss Read Ash's recent blog on Codependency here .
S1 E10 · Sun, October 09, 2022
Ep 10. Alcoholism: The Disease of Denial with Chantal Horton
In this week’s episode, I’m sitting down with Psychologist and mum of two Chantal, who got sober while living in Dubai back in May 2017. Chantal shares how she lived in denial for many years as a high-functioning alcoholic and hid behind her successes as a way of denying she had a problem. In this conversation we talk about how alcohol is glorified in our society and how binge drinking can still allow you to qualify as an alcoholic. Chantal now has over 5 years of sobriety and shares with us the tools she implements to maintain her recovery on a daily basis. To see Chantal’s Behind The Smile photo head to Ash's website HERE You can follow Ash here: @ashbutterss
S1 E9 · Sun, October 02, 2022
Ep 9. Top 5 tips to improve your quality of life with Zoe Klein
In this week’s episode, I sit down with Psychotherapist and Yoga Teacher Zoe Klein to talk about how we can implement simple tools to positively impact our overall wellbeing. Whether you’re in recovery or not, life can at times be challenging. In this conversation, Zoe shares her key tips that will help to improve your quality of life. Zoe’s Top Tips include: Live a life aligned to your values The importance of practice Invest in your relationships Use the breath as an antidote to stress and burn out Treat life like an experiment You can find Zoe here: @zoekleinyoga or Zoga.com Find Ash here: @ashbutterss or ashbutterss.com Additional Notes: The book Zoe and I spoke about is called Breath by James Nestor .
S1 E8 · Sun, September 25, 2022
Ep 8. Learning to acknowledge the part you play with Gabs Ireland
In this week’s episode, I’m talking to Gabs, a 39-year-old recovering alcoholic, who started his sobriety journey on the 19th October 2019. We discuss the dark days that led to Gabs entering recovery and how he believes he was “born an alcoholic.” Gabs shares what he’s learnt about himself in sobriety and tells us his three non-negotiables for living a life of freedom in recovery. To see Gabs’ Behind The Smile photo head to: ashbutterss.com You can also find me here: @ashbutterss
S1 E7 · Sun, September 18, 2022
Ep 7. Ask Me Anything! Q&A with my BFF Georgia
In this week's episode, I'm putting myself in the interview seat and have invited my best friend of 25+ years, Georgia, onto the show to ask the questions. Georgia lives in Europe and at the time of recording we hadn't seen each other in over two years (thanks to Covid19). The last time we'd been together I was still drinking and my life was a mess. Watching my journey into recovery from afar, Georgia naturally had a lot of questions and we agreed that nothing was off limits in this conversation! Georgia and I discuss everything to do with my recovery including: the importance of AA in my life, my relationship with a Higher Power, my deep connection to yoga and my commitment to ongoing therapy. You can find me here: @ashbutterss Check out the episode show notes at Recovery with Ash Butterss
S1 E6 · Sun, September 11, 2022
Ep 6. How putting down the booze led to rediscovering the self with Monique Sverdvik
In this week's episode, I sit down with Monique, a Nurse and mum of four who gave up alcohol on the 28th December, 2019. We discuss Mon’s journey into sobriety and what she’s discovered about herself since choosing to live life sober. Mon talks openly about the pressure she felt to be “perfect” from a young age and how she used alcohol to self-medicate until she wasn’t able to control it anymore. Today, Mon is proudly sober and credits giving up alcohol as the reason she's able to show up as a wife and mother in her fullest capacity. Mon shares how she found the strength to quit drinking and the deep sense of presence and connection that she's found in sobriety. You can connect with Ash here: @ashbutterss / ashbutterss.com
S1 E5 · Sun, September 04, 2022
Ep 5. Am I An Alcoholic? 7 Signs You Might Have A Drinking Problem
In this week’s episode, I talk about the stigma that surrounds the disease of alcoholism and why this is preventing people from reaching out for help. Before coming into recovery, my perception of an alcoholic was someone living rough, drinking around the clock and consuming spirits out of a brown paper bag. And because I didn’t identify with this stereotype, I didn’t think I qualified as an alcoholic. In sobriety I’ve learned that addiction does not discriminate. And while the common stereotype can certainly become a reality for alcoholics who continue to drink, for those who seek recovery, it doesn’t have to be. Alcoholism is a disease that is self-diagnosed. So, to help people identify, I’ve come up with seven signs that might suggest you have a drinking problem. If multiple signs resonate with you, it might be time to take a closer look at your relationship with alcohol. **This list is suggestive only. Please seek out additional support if you need help. Additional Resources Below: Global: Alcoholics Anonymous Addiction Centre Australia: LifeLine South Pacific Private Find Ash: @ashbutterss / ashbutterss.com
S1 E4 · Sun, August 28, 2022
Ep 4. Breakups, busts and new beginnings with Max Crawford-Smith
In this episode, I’ve invited my ex-husband and dear friend Max on to share his story of recovery. Max talks candidly about his personal struggles with addiction and what it took for him to finally reach out for help. There’s no holding back in this episode as we speak openly about a range of personal topics, including the breakdown of our marriage. It’s my hope that by drawing back the curtain on this personal conversation, other people who have shared a similar experience might find comfort in knowing they’re not alone. This episode contains topics that could be triggering. If your mental health is triggered and you are based in Australia, please reach out to a support group such as Lifeline 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue 1300 224 636. For other countries, you can visit CheckPoint for your specific country details. Find Ash on Instagram: @ashbutterss or check out her website here !
S1 E3 · Sun, August 21, 2022
Ep 3. The danger of Perfectionism: how trying to live up to unrealistic expectations led me to self-destruct
In this episode, I talk about my life long struggle with perfectionism and how this developed as a result of certain conditioning throughout childhood. I discuss the reason why I view perfectionism as being a vice as dangerous as addiction and why I needed to treat this core issue before tackling my underlying substance abuse. This episode contains topics that could be triggering. If your mental health is triggered and you are based in Australia, please reach out to a support group such as Lifeline 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue 1300 224 636. For other countries, you can visit CheckPoint for your specific country details. Find Ash: @ashbutterss / ashbutterss.com
S1 E2 · Sun, August 14, 2022
Ep 2. From Manic to Mindful with Rod Butterss
For this debut guest episode, I’ve invited my dad Rod to share his story of recovery and hope. Rod started his recovery journey in 2010, however this is not his current sobriety date. For the first time, Rod speaks publicly about his recent relapse and how he made the journey from his darkest days, to now experiencing joy beyond his wildest dreams. Find Rod: www.linkedin.com/in/rodbutterss Find Ash: www.ashbutterss.com / @ashbutterss If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
S1 E1 · Sun, August 07, 2022
Ep 1. My Story of Recovery
In this debut episode of Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss, host Ash shares her own experience and journey into recovery. From an early age, Ash learnt to hide her true emotions behind a big smile. She used this mask as a way of keeping herself protected and continued doing so all throughout her twenties. On the outside, Ash looked as though she was living a "normal" life but by the age of 30, addiction had taken hold and she was slowly dying on the inside. Since checking into rehab on the 24th February 2020, Ash has remained sober and is now on a mission to remove the stigma around mental health and addiction by normalising the conversation. Join Ash each week, as she discusses topics relating to recovery and speaks to others in recovery about the time in their life when they too were hiding behind the smile. Find me: @ashbutterss / ashbutterss.com If you or someone you know if struggling with addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include: • A healthcare professional • Alcoholics Anonymous • Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia) • CheckPoint (global) If you'd like to support the show you can "Buy Me A Coffee" by following the link below: YES I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT BEHIND THE SMILE PODCAST
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