Restored: Helping Children of Divorce
When your parents separate or divorce, it hurts. You feel alone and uncertain of how to deal with it all. If you feel that way, the Restored podcast is for you. On it, we feature expert interviews and stories that offer practical advice on how to cope and heal after the trauma of your parents' divorce or separation, so you can feel whole again and become the person you were born to be.
Thu, April 24, 2025
#147: From Athlete to Paralyzed: “It’s the Best Thing That’s Happened to Me” | AJ De La Rosa
AJ had a normal life as a college student-athlete. But one night, a violent car accident left AJ paralyzed from the waist down. What started as 15 minutes of hell has transformed into what he calls “The best thing that’s happened to me.” In this episode, you’ll hear: The detailed story of the accident and the unexplainable emotions he experienced in the minutes after the accident The two things that helped him cope and beat feeling like a perpetual victim What AJ said to the driver of the vehicle and the miracles and transformations that have resulted from his injury If you’ve endured trauma, a horrible injury, or you’re just going through an intense season of suffering, this episode is for you. Follow AJ: Instagram TikTok YouTube Email: Ajoftherose@gmail.com Get Dakota’s FREE Guide, The Biggest Fitness Mistakes to Avoid View Restored’s Resources Shownotes
Sun, April 13, 2025
#146: 1/3 Less Marriages Today Are Making Us Lonely | JP De Gance
At the root of our culture’s many problems is the breakdown of marriages and families. My guest shares sobering statistics, such as that “there are 31% less marriages annually now than in the year 2000” and there are “65% less marriages now than in the year 1970.” He says this is hugely contributing to the loneliness crisis today. Thankfully, there is a cure, which we discuss in this episode, plus: How the lonelinest group of people at church aren’t the old Encouragement for young people from broken families who fear love and marriage What a healthy relationship looks like and how to build it, including the 5 stages of healthy relationships If you’ve been affected by the breakdown of marriages and families, this episode is for you. Buy JP’s Book: The Church's Strategic Move to Save Faith and Family in America Get Dakota’s FREE Guide, The Biggest Fitness Mistakes to Avoid View Restored’s Resources Shownotes
Thu, March 27, 2025
#145: Mother Wounds, “Parts Work” Therapy, & Healing from a Broken Family | Dr. Gerry Crete
Growing up, Dr. Gerry experienced deep turmoil at home. His father was abusive, and his parents’ marriage was full of conflict. When they eventually divorced, he felt like he lost both parents. Feeling alone, he became highly independent. Thankfully, he found healing, and today he helps others heal as a therapist. In this episode, we discuss: How Internal Family Systems (IFS) and “parts work” can help you heal emotional wounds and improve your relationships. The way our parts interact with our significant other—and how to avoid choosing a spouse from a wounded part of you. What a mother wound is and how it affects you How movies like Inside Out, Encanto, and even Avengers’ movies illustrate “parts work” and the healing journey. If you have perhaps sustained a mother wound or want to heal using Internal Family Systems, this episode is for you. Get Dakota’s FREE Guide: The Biggest Fitness Mistakes to Avoid Buy Dr. Gerry’s Book: Litanies of the Heart: Relieving Post-Traumatic Stress and Calming Anxiety through Healing Our Parts View Dr. Gerry’s Team or schedule a FREE 15 min consult Visit Souls & Hearts View Restored’s Resources Shownotes
Tue, March 11, 2025
#144: The Secret to Not Repeating Your Family’s Dysfunction | Dr. Andrew Abela
So many of us from divorced or broken families fear repeating our parents' mistakes. If you want to avoid that, one of the keys is building virtue. But what is virtue? How do you build it? And what virtues might you acquire? My guest today wrote Superhabits, an amazing new book on virtue. He answers those questions, plus: How to override the unconscious bad habits we inherited in our familiesOne habit that could save your marriage before it starts and what virtues to look for in a...
Tue, February 25, 2025
#143: When Your Divorced Parent Dies: Grieving, Healing, & Closure | Ben
After a relapse into alcoholism, Ben’s mom left him, his family, and the country for years when he was just 5 years old. When she returned, he struggled in his relationship with her but placed proper boundaries and found some resolution. But his mom’s death in Ben’s late 20s brought new pain. In this episode, you’ll hear his wild story, plus: The resolution he experienced with his mom and an unexpected tactic that’s helped him heal after his mom’s deathThe place of justice, mercy, and b...
Thu, February 13, 2025
#142: How to Break the Cycle of Your Broken Family
Has your parents’ divorce or broken family brought pain into your life? Do you fear repeating the cycle of dysfunction or divorce? You’re not alone—millions face these often unspoken struggles: hidden wounds, emotional problems, broken relationships, and destructive habits. Thankfully, you’re not destined to repeat your family’s dysfunction. In this episode, you’ll hear a breakout talk from the SEEK25 conference where you’ll discover the two keys to breaking that cycle and learn actiona...
Tue, January 28, 2025
#141: Good Can Come from Broken Situations | Dylan
At age 5, Dylan’s parents divorced. Visitation brought challenges, but he learned to appreciate the time it gave him with his dad, who really helped him grow. From that, he learned that good can come from broken situations. In today’s episodes, we also discuss topics like: How we need father figures, ideally our dads, in order to become men, find our strength, and learn what to do with itThe challenges and blessing of a stepfamilyHow your value isn’t measured by your performance or exterior q...
Wed, January 15, 2025
#140: Hardest Part of the Divorce: Seeing My Siblings Struggle | Anthony
The hardest part of your parents’ divorce or family breakdown is seeing the people you love suffer. That was true for my guest today who happens to be my older brother, Anthony: Watching our siblings struggle was the hardest part for him. In this episode, you’ll hear us compare stories about our parents’ divorce from our perspectives as siblings, plus: How Anthony had a sense of, “This is not how things ought to be” and a little about how a family ought to be.How he was automatically ma...
Mon, January 06, 2025
#139: Dating or Marrying Someone from an Intact vs Broken Family | Paul & Maggie Kim
So many of us from broken families end up dating or marrying someone from an intact family. But that presents challenges, which we discuss in this episode with an amazing married couple where one spouse comes from a broken family and the other is from an intact family. We also discuss questions like: What did you fear about marriage? Maggie opens up about her fear of someone cheating on her.How have you handled conflict and how has marriage brought you joy?How do you choose the right person w...
Thu, January 02, 2025
#138: The Best of 2024: Restored Podcast Highlights
If you come from a divorced or broken family, this show is for you. We help you heal your brokenness, navigate the challenges, and build healthy relationships, so you can break that cycle and build a better life. In this episode, you'll hear highlight clips from the podcast in 2024. If you’re new to the podcast, this is the perfect way to sample our content and learn how it will help you. If you’re a longtime listener, this is the perfect episode to share with someone you know who needs to he...
Wed, December 04, 2024
#137: You’re Not Doomed to Get Divorced | Samantha
If you come from a divorced family, research says you’re more likely to get divorced. But does that mean you’re doomed to that fate? My guest today says a resounding no. She and her husband, also a child of divorce, have built a 24-year-long happy marriage with 3 children. Her message for you? You can do the same. In this episode, we discuss: How she’s overcome her fear of getting divorced and how marriage has actually been healing for her.How she felt her father’s absence as a yo...
Wed, November 20, 2024
#136: Relationship Advice for Young People from Broken Families | Jackie & Bobby Angel
The biggest area of struggle for young people from divorced or broken families is in romantic relationships. Why so much struggle? In short, we were poorly trained in how to love, so we feel incompetent at it and fear repeating our parents’ mistakes. So, how can you overcome that fear and relearn how to love? My guests answer that question and more: How do you discern whether a lack of peace in a relationship is because of your brokenness or because the relationship isn’t right?Wh...
Tue, November 05, 2024
#135: Holidays with Divorced Parents? 5 Tips to Navigate Them
Whether holidays with your divorced or separated parents are new or you’ve done it numerous times, this episode is for you. In it, you’ll get 5 practical tips to better navigate the holidays in your broken family, so they’re less stressful and more enjoyable. Get the Guide: 5 Tips to Navigate the Holidays in a Broken Family Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Fri, October 25, 2024
#134: Holidays After Your Parents’ Divorce: What Nobody Tells You | Danielle
While the rest of the world is filled with holiday cheer, people like us from divorced or broken families usually feel very differently. While you can’t magically make the holidays happy and drama-free, what if there was a way to make them less stressful and more enjoyable? That’s what we’ll discuss in this episode, plus: The challenges that come from navigating 3 ChristmasesSome typical fears and barriers that complicate the holidays and tips to handle themA FREE resource to help you n...
Fri, October 11, 2024
#133: Digital Addiction: Why It Hurts You & How to Beat It | Andrew Laubacher
Technology certainly has benefits, but there are dangers as well. Sadly, our misuse of technology is causing us to be more depressed, more anxious, less happy, and less healthy than ever before. Perhaps worst of all, it destroys our ability to heal, grow, and build healthy relationships. In this episode, we dive into that with my guest, Andrew Laubacher, plus: Alarming data on how misusing tech is hurting us, especially young peopleHow to build an intentional relationship with technolog...
Thu, October 03, 2024
#132: Why Your Wounds & Subconscious Are Ruling Your Life | Dr. Gregory Bottaro
Carl Jung once said, “Unless you make the subconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it fate.” In this episode, Dr. Greg Bottaro explains why our untreated wounds and our subconscious rule our lives, often without us knowing it. We also discuss: How his parents’ divorce impacted him and how he found tremendous healingDr. Bottaro answers your questions, such as:How do you heal?How do I overcome my extreme fear of marriage and intimacy?How can you reconcile and build...
Wed, September 11, 2024
#131: Family Felt Stressful, Tense, & Unstable | Jordana
After 24 years of marriage, Jordana’s parents divorced. Overall, her experience of family felt tense, stressful, and unstable. Once she learned of her parents’ divorce, she went into problem-solver mode, taking on the role of mother for her siblings. In this episode, you’ll hear us discuss all of that, plus: How filling a parent role isn’t ideal, but sometimes necessary for a season, and how to handle the guilt about moving forward in your life.Her struggles with communicating in ...
Fri, August 30, 2024
#130: An Exercise to Heal | Dr. Peter Malinoski
If you’re like me, you’ve experienced trauma or brokenness in your life which has led you to seek healing. One method of healing used in therapy is Internal Family Systems. But what exactly is it? And how can it help you? My guest today, a psychologist and expert in Internal Family Systems, answers those questions, plus: A healing exercise that you can do alongside me during this episodeThe result of the exercise for me and both of our thoughts on itWhy your subconscious is ruling your life...
Thu, August 22, 2024
#129: What Does It Mean to Be Healthy & Whole? | Matthew Rudolph
We talk a lot about being healthy and whole, but what exactly does it mean to be healthy and whole? We dive into that topic in this episode with a man who’s been accomplished as a CEO but has also worked hard on himself as a husband and father, plus: Why honesty and vulnerability are essential for healing and growth, and how forgiveness has been very healing for himThe 4 stages of growth required to love wellA resource for leaders, pastors, and seminarians Visit ChrismPriest.com Email Matt...
Tue, July 30, 2024
#128: Abuse Led to My Parents’ Divorce | Emma
Emma was 14 years old when her parents divorced, but the dysfunction at home had been happening for years. In this episode, she shares how the dysfunction, divorce, and abuse have affected her. We also discuss: How she overcame victim mentalityHow abuse differs from bad behaviorWhat helped her heal and how her life is better now as a wife and mother Share Your Story with Restored View Restored’s Resources Domestic Violence Hotline Email Emma: injoyfulpraise@gmail.com Visit BlackstoneFilms.co...
Tue, July 16, 2024
#127: How Functional Neurology Helps You Heal | Dr. Paul Link
A doctor of functional neurology joins us to explain a new, cutting edge healing science that’s used to heal dysfunction in our bodies and minds, and help us live and perform at our best. It’s already being used by professional athletes and even Navy SEALs. We dive into what it is and how it can help you, plus: Why people from divorced families struggle more in relationships from a scientific standpointWhy one-size-fits-all doesn’t work with healing - it must be personal and custom3 ama...
Tue, July 02, 2024
126: Former Porn Actress: Over 90% of People in Porn are from Broken Families | Bree Solstad
Bree Solstad went from being a top-selling porn actress to quitting her job and completely turning her life around. That transformation started because of a trip to Italy. In this episode, she tells us about that and answers questions like: What led you to pornography in the first place?How did your broken family and abandonment from your father play into that?What percentage of performers in porn come from divorced or broken families? It’ll shock youWhat has helped you begin to heal yo...
Tue, June 18, 2024
#125: Is Marriage Doomed to Fail? | Michael & Rachel Villanueva
For people like us from divorced and broken families, love and marriage can be extra scary. After my parents separated, I swore, “If this is where marriage leads, I want nothing to do with it.” But thankfully, love and marriage aren’t doomed to fail. Marriage isn’t easy, but it can be beautiful and joyful. More importantly, it can help you grow into a better, stronger, and more virtuous person. Today, we’re joined by a married couple to discuss all of that, plus: The struggles they’ve f...
Tue, June 04, 2024
#124: I Wanted My Divorced Parents Back Together | Ethan
For many of us from divorced families, we unconsciously want our parents to resolve their problems and get back together. Even if that isn’t possible due to abuse or other extreme scenarios, we can’t help but want our family to be whole. Today’s guest felt that desire for his parents and family. In this episode, we discuss that and more: How anger, overeating, and lots of activities became his coping mechanismsHow his parents’ divorce has affected him differently in different chapters o...
Tue, May 21, 2024
#123: What I Wish Never Happened, I Am The Most Grateful For | Jack Beers
At a young age, Jack learned he had an incurable disease. That naturally brought lots of physical and emotional pain into his life. But through that suffering, the lessons he learned and the transformation he experienced led him to say, “The thing I wish most never happened, I am most grateful for.” In this episode, we discuss what led to that transformation and more: The bitterness and loneliness he felt and how his life looks nowOur tendency to “replay” the trauma we’ve endured and ...
Tue, May 07, 2024
#122: What Caused So Many Broken Marriages & Families? | Dr. John Bishop, PhD
With so many marriages and families falling apart, the natural question is: What has caused all these broken marriages and families? In this episode, Dr. John Bishop unveils the surprising root cause, plus: The crisis of masculinity facing our world right nowThe proper place of happiness within marriageAn awesome digital hack to protect yourself and your relationships MyForge.org DakotaLaneFitness.com Fight the new drug View Restored’s Resources Buy Jason Evert’s booklet, Pure Intimacy...
Tue, April 23, 2024
#121: A Cure for Feeling Needy or Helpless | Margaret Vasquez
So many people from broken families struggle with feeling helpless or needy. Our efforts to heal or grow might even feel fruitless like tires spinning in mud that never gain traction. We put in effort in learning, but transformation isn’t happening. Whether that describes you or someone you know (like a friend, parent, or anyone else), this episode will help you! In it, you’ll learn: The simple solution to beat neediness and helplessnessWhy struggles are actually good for yo...
Tue, April 09, 2024
#120: Freedom You Never Tasted But Always Wanted | Jake Khym, MA
Two years into marriage, Jake found himself enslaved to a sexual addiction. He longed for freedom but felt very stuck. As a result, he lived a double life, hiding his unwanted behavior from his wife. But one random day, it all came to light. At that moment, he thought his marriage was over. In this episode, he shares what happened next, plus: What kept his marriage from falling apart?How a wound of abandonment from his family drove his addiction6 tips to break free from sexual compulsi...
Tue, March 26, 2024
#119: Broken is What Happened to Me, Not Who I Am | Stacey
After her parents divorced, my guest felt abandoned and badly hoped it was all a dream that she could just wake up from. Dealing with all the brokenness that followed led her down a path of feeling stuck and thinking her brokenness defined her. Thankfully, she realized that “‘broken’ is what happened to me, not who I am.” In this episode, we touch on that and more: How just having the pain of your parents’ divorce validated is incredibly helpful and often the first step of healingThe ...
Tue, March 12, 2024
#118: Resolving Conflict is a Skill | Cody & Katherine
If you’re like me, you never saw conflict resolved peacefully in your family. As a result, you might feel a bit lost about how to resolve conflict in your life, especially in your relationships. If that’s you, this episode will help. In it, a married couple joins to share tips they’ve learned on resolving conflict, plus: Why it’s important to let small things go, but how letting too much go can lead to resentmentThe four levels of learning any skillAdvice to someone from an intact fam...
Tue, February 27, 2024
#117: Children & Parents Deserve Better Than Divorce | Jennifer Friesen
So many divorces happen because one spouse follows their desires at the expense of their vows. That happened in the family of my guest today. In this episode, we cover: How her family’s dysfunction led to struggles with gender and sexualityThe beautiful transformation she’s experienced and even seen in her parentsThe biggest lie about getting divorcedA new organization that’s fighting for children’s rights Share Your Story View Restored’s Resources Follow Jenn’s Blog, Do Better T...
Tue, February 13, 2024
#116: Divorce (on Restore the Glory Podcast)
Today we’re sharing a podcast where I was interviewed by two therapists, Dr. Bob Schuchts and Jake Khym, on their podcast, Restore the Glory. Joey especially opens up about his struggles in his relationship with God, plus they discuss: When we don’t face our wounds, we typically try to outrun them. Since divorce is a wound of broken love, the antidote is authentic love.Why it’s so helpful to spend time with a couple who has a healthy marriage. Donate to Restored Meet with Joey f...
Tue, January 30, 2024
#115: The Antidote to a Life of Emptiness | Dr. Andrew & Sarah Swafford
It’s said that Henry David Thoreau once wrote, “Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.” Doesn’t that describe our culture? A culture that’s hooked on comfort and so void of meaning. But thankfully, Dr. Andrew and Sarah Swafford have a solution to that problem. In this episode, we discuss: What holds us back from lives and relationships full of meaning?What’s needed to live a life of meaning and happiness?How do we navigate the dating sc...
Tue, January 16, 2024
#114: You Were Not Made to Be Without a Father and Mother | Nicole Rodriguez
When your parents divorce, you almost always lose one or both parents physically or emotionally. But as our guest today says, we’re not meant to go through life without the mentorship of a father and a mother. In this episode, Nicole Rodriguez shares the immense healing she’s experienced through parents who were not her own. We also discuss: How her parents’ divorce started with infidelity and led her to feeling abandoned and lonelyThe emotional numbness and skepticism toward emotion th...
Tue, January 02, 2024
#113: A New Therapy to Heal Trauma | Dr. Christopher Genn, DPT
Trauma, such as your parents’ divorce or extreme family dysfunction, doesn’t only affect your emotions. It affects your body too. It quite literally has physical effects. In this episode, Dr. Christopher Genn, a physical therapist and expert in applied kinesiology, explains how our bodies respond to trauma and how we can heal. Plus, we discuss: A new therapy to treat pain, trauma, and even rewire bad habitsThe story of a girl enduring her parents’ divorce who became physically debilitat...
Tue, December 19, 2023
#112: The Best of 2023: Restored Podcast Highlights
In this episode, you'll hear highlight clips from the podcast in 2023. This episode, and the entire podcast, will help you heal from the trauma of your parents’ divorce, separation, or broken marriage, so you can break the cycle. If you’re new to the podcast, this is the perfect way to sample our content and learn how it will help you. If you’re a longtime listener, this is the perfect episode to share with someone you know who needs to hear it. Restored’s Website Shownotes Questi...
Fri, December 08, 2023
#111: The #1 Lie About How Divorce Affects the Children | Cody
There’s an extremely popular lie about how divorce affects the children. In this episode, we discuss that lie with my guest who is an only child from a divorced family, plus: The loneliness, addiction, and social problems that stemmed from his family’s breakdownThe anger and even hatred he felt toward his parents and how he feels nowA unique thing he and his wife did before they were married to strengthen their relationship Get the Book or First Chapters: It’s Not Your Fault Get the FREE G...
Tue, November 21, 2023
#110: 10 Ways to Make Therapy Fail or Succeed for You | Clare Eckard
If there were 10 things you can do to make therapy succeed (or fail), would you want to know them? I know I would. In this episode, a therapist joins us to share those tips, plus: The goal of therapy and the temptation to idealize healingA tool for dealing with troubling thoughtsThe struggle to put words to your own emotions and experiences of brokennessIf you’ve ever been to therapy and it hasn’t gone well or you’re considering therapy but you’re unsure how to make it successful,...
Tue, November 07, 2023
#109: 5 Tips to Navigate the Holidays in a Broken Family
If you’re from a broken family, the holidays often bring more stress and challenges than joy. After my parents separated, I faced these challenges: A sad, pit-in-the-stomach reminder of my parents’ split and my family’s brokennessPressure to choose between parents and balance time amid many eventsA misled desire to make everyone happy, especially my parents, often at my expenseMy emotions or other people being in control instead of meFeeling alone and uncertain of how to deal with it all If ...
Tue, October 24, 2023
#108: It’s Not Your Job to Parent Your Parents | Ashton
If you’re from a broken family and you’ve struggled with OCD, relationships, overthinking, and filling a parent role for your siblings or parents, this episode is for you. In it, Ashton shares how her parents’ divorce has affected her and her relationships. She also talks about what’s helped her heal and even offers some advice for you. Take the podcast survey How has Restored helped you? Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. Y...
Tue, October 10, 2023
#107: Forgiving Someone Who’s Hurt You | John O’Brien
When trauma occurs, it causes you to ask big questions. That’s where my guest found himself after being brutally attacked, almost to the point of death, by people he was trying to help. In this episode, you’ll hear the story of the attack, plus he answers: Has forgiveness been difficult for you?Why forgive? What are the benefits? What happens if we don’t forgive?How do you forgive someone who has hurt you? Take the podcast survey Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We...
Thu, September 28, 2023
#106: Healing Sexual Brokenness: A Resource for Men Struggling | Steven Motyl
When you’re struggling with unwanted sexual behavior, asking for help is terrifying. The struggle feels so shameful and admitting your weakness feels humiliating. As a result, most men stay stuck for years and years. Thankfully, there’s a way out. Asking for help from the right people is the key to overcoming shame, humiliation, and unwanted behavior. Today, a coach specializing in helping men break free from unwanted sexual behavior joins the show to discuss: Is freedom even poss...
Tue, September 12, 2023
#105: Healing Sexual Brokenness: A Resource for Women Struggling | Rachael Killackey
If you’re a woman that struggles with unwanted sexual behavior, you are not alone. The myth of porn, or even lust, being a male problem is just that - a myth. More importantly, healing and freedom are within reach for you. In this episode, brave author and speaker Rachael Killackey shares her struggles with unwanted sexual behavior and a valuable resource for women struggling, plus: The emotions that sexual struggles brought into her lifeHow she found freedom and helps other women now, ...
Wed, August 30, 2023
#104: Healing Sexual Brokenness: Why is Our Culture So Sexually Broken? | Christopher West
Our world is very sexually broken. The examples are endless: Pornography use, sexual compulsions, addictions, hookup culture, paying for sex, infidelity, sex trafficking, and much more. But how did our world become so sexually broken? That’s the topic we tackle today with famous author and speaker Christopher West. If you’ve wrestled with sexual brokenness or noticed an ache inside that you that nothing seems to fill, this episode is for you. Image 1: Three Choices Image 2: Wall Unity ...
Tue, August 15, 2023
#103: How Does Your Body and Brain React to Trauma? | Patricia Scott, LPC, PhD Candidate
What happens inside your brain and your body when you endure trauma? Surprisingly, there’s actually a predictable way that your body and mind responds to trauma. In this episode, we break down each response with a trauma therapist. We also discuss: How her parents’ divorce impacted herIs healing trauma even possible? If so, what does it take to heal?How to apologize the right wayShare your story Find a therapist Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show a...
Tue, August 01, 2023
#102: Healing Sexual Brokenness: Your Sexual Brokenness Isn’t Random | Jay Stringer
What if I told you that your sexual struggles could be predicted by your untreated trauma? Today, we’re joined by author Jay Stringer who studied ~4,000 men and women who struggle with sexual compulsion or addiction, such porn, masturbation, affairs, buying sex, and much more. In this episode, we breakdown his NEW study and more: How the sexual fantasies and porn searches of the study participants could be predicted by their untreated traumaWhy we often repeat behavior that harmed us,...
Tue, July 18, 2023
#101: Healing Sexual Brokenness: Freedom from Porn | Matt Fradd & Jason Evert
When it comes to pornography, there are basically two types of people: Those who believe that porn is wrong and harmful. And those who do not.But beyond the arguments, millions of people struggle with a pornography compulsion or addiction. They want to break free, but they feel stuck and hopeless. No matter what they try, it doesn’t work. In this episode, popular speakers and authors Matt Fradd and Jason Evert join me to answer these tough questions: Is porn harmful and wrong? If s...
Tue, July 04, 2023
#100: How Restored Helps Children of Divorce and Broken Families
What’s brought the most pain and problems into your life? If your answer (or a top answer) is your parents’ divorce or the breakdown of your family, this podcast is for you. In this episode, we talk about the specific pain and problems your parents’ divorce or family breakdown bring into your life. We also highlight resources to help you heal and build virtue, so you can feel whole again and break the cycle of dysfunction and divorce in your own life. Take podcast survey (5-10 min) View Res...
Tue, June 20, 2023
#099: Healing Sexual Brokenness: The Cure to Unwanted Sexual Behavior | Dr. Bob Schuchts, PhD
Millions of people right now are struggling with sexual compulsion and addiction. It’s a massive problem that doesn’t get the attention or resources it deserves. Thankfully, in this episode, psychologist Dr. Bob Schuchts offers steps and a resource to heal your sexual brokenness. We also discuss: A story of profound healing and transformationDr. Bob’s own past struggles in this areaHow sexual brokenness is often passed down in families through generationsBuy Dr. Bob’s Book: Be Restored Get th...
Thu, June 08, 2023
#098: Healing Sexual Brokenness: 6 Steps for Women to Break Free | Kelsey Skoch
If you’re a woman that struggles with unwanted sexual behavior, have you felt like you’re the only female that struggles? If so, that’s an absolute lie. In fact, one study found that ~75% of women 18-30 reported viewing porn at least once a month. With more and more women struggling with porn and masturbation, speaker and author Kelsey Skoch joins the show to share steps you can take as a woman to find freedom. We also discuss: Kelsey’s past struggles, what helped her find freedom, and ...
Thu, May 25, 2023
#097: 3 Tips to Help Someone from a Divorced or Broken Family
Are you worried about someone you love or lead from a divorced or broken family? Do you want to help them, but feel unequipped and somewhat helpless? In this episode, you’ll learn 3 tips to help them and a NEW resource on how to help someone from a divorced or broken family, so you can do and say the right things, avoid the wrong ones, and offer real help. Get Real Help course Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can b...
Wed, May 10, 2023
#096: How to Heal from the Trauma of Your Parents’ Divorce or Broken Family | Margaret Vasquez
If you come from a broken family, did your parents’ divorce or family dysfunction bring emotional problems, bad habits, and relationship struggles into your life? As a result, do you feel unsure how to heal and afraid that you’ll repeat the cycle? In this episode, we unveil a NEW and FREE resource to help you heal from the trauma of your parents’ divorce or broken family, so you can break the cycle and build a better life. In doing so, we discuss: What is trauma and how does it affect you?W...
Thu, April 27, 2023
#095: Healing Happens When We Ask for Help | Tanya Lyons
You feel broken. You want to heal. But you’re unwilling to ask for help. If that describes you, your ability to heal will be stifled. Nobody ever healed their broken leg without the help, knowledge, or experience of others. Healing only happens with the love and help of other people. In this episode, we discuss that and more as my guest shares : How it took 20 years for her to pursue counseling, but how she found healing thereWhy is it so difficult to talk about our parents’ divorce...
Sun, April 16, 2023
#094: Are You Trying to Outrun Your Trauma?
How have you dealt with the trauma of your parents’ divorce or broken family? After enduring her parents’ divorce, her mom’s alcoholism, her dad’s absence, and her stepmom’s abuse, today’s guest tried to outrun her trauma through busyness, accomplishments, and perfectionism. Before long, she went from repressing her emotions and saying “I’m fine” to “I need help.” That began her healing, which we discuss, plus: How she doubted her ability to be a good wife and motherHow she gr...
Sat, April 01, 2023
#093: Radio Interview: In Divorce, the Kids are Not Okay and Here’s Why
Two things we’ve learned about divorce from scientific studies and stories of people like us: Almost always, divorce is traumatic and damaging for the childrenThe effects are typically serious and long lasting In this episode, you’ll hear a radio interview I did that elaborates on each point: How divorce is traumatic for the childrenThe specific pain and problems it brings into our livesA resource that you can use to navigate through the pain and problems and even find healing Get Free Chap...
Fri, March 17, 2023
#092: Is Divorce Good or Bad for Children? | Katy Faust
Is divorce good or bad for children? There’s tons of confusion around that question. In this episode, speaker and author Katy Faust offers answers with clarity and tons of research. She also touches on: How does divorce affect the children?Is divorce really worse than the death of a parent? What do children need that marriage provides?How do you navigate speaking about your parents in a respectful yet honest way?What’s your advice to parents considering divorce?Buy Katy’s book: Them Befo...
Sat, March 04, 2023
#091: Infidelity: Healing from Your Spouse or Parent’s Affair | Dr. Christine Bacon
Feeling hopeless, our guest prayed for her husband to die. Earlier in their marriage, she cheated on him. Thankfully, they turned things around and they now have a beautiful marriage. In this episode, Dr. Christine Bacon vulnerably shares about her affair but especially about the restoration of her marriage. She even shares the formula she’s discovered for a happy marriage. She also offers advice and answers questions, such as: Why do people have affairs?Should parents tell their kids...
Thu, February 16, 2023
#090: How’s Your Parents’ Divorce or Broken Family Affecting You Today?
How is your parents’ divorce or your broken family affecting you today? If your answer is “I don’t really know” or you don’t understand the depth of it, you’re not alone. That’s actually very common. But in the words of one therapist, “When it comes to experiencing healing, naming how you’ve been harmed is about 70% of the battle.” In this episode, we unveil a new tool that will help you name and diagnose your brokenness, so you can heal it and build the life and relationships you d...
Thu, February 02, 2023
#089: How to Become Fit and Healthy | Dakota Lane
According to research, people like us from divorced or broken families are typically less physically healthy. If that describes you, or you simply want to become healthier, this episode will help. Fitness and nutrition coach Dakota Lane shares how the abuse and dysfunction in his family impacted his relationships and how he’s found healing. He also offers advice on how to become fit and healthy by answering questions such as: How much water should you drink every day?How much should you...
Thu, January 19, 2023
#088: How to Respond to Your Pain in a Heroic Way | William Scheremet
When William was in high school, his home was riddled with emotional pain and conflict. Eventually, his parents got divorced. That led to struggles in his relationships, especially with handling conflict and breaking up prematurely because he didn’t want to get hurt. But the pain didn’t end there. After suffering from neglect and severe bullying, William was involved in a horrible accident that left him severely injured. In this episode, he shares what happened and how his pain now has ...
Thu, January 05, 2023
#087: A Special Operations Tactic to Stay Calm and Function under Stress | Tyler Morris
If there was a technique used by Special Operators (Navy SEALs, Rangers, Special Forces, etc), firefighters, paramedics, and high performing athletes to stay calm during stressful situations, think clearly, make the right decisions, and avoid overwhelm, would you want to know it? That’s what you’re going to learn in this episode from a firefighter and paramedic. Find a counselor, coach, or spiritual director Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the sho...
Tue, December 20, 2022
#086: The Best of 2022: Restored Podcast Highlights
In this episode, you'll hear six short highlight clips from the podcast in 2022. This episode, and the podcast as a whole, will help you heal and grow from the trauma of your parents’ divorce, separation, or broken marriage, so you can feel whole again and break the cycle of dysfunction and divorce in your own life. If you’re new to the podcast, this is the perfect way to sample our content and learn how it will help you. If you’re a longtime listener, this is the perfect episode to sha...
Thu, December 08, 2022
#085: How to Build a Beautiful Marriage Despite Your Struggles as a Daughter of Divorce | Leila Miller
If you’re a woman with divorced or separated parents, have you struggled a lot in your relationships? If you’re married, has marriage felt extra difficult for you? If so, you’re not alone. That’s actually common as our guest today shares. In this episode, we discuss the struggles that daughters of divorce face in marriage that daughters of intact families typically never have to deal with and more: How you’re not doomed to repeat your parents’ mistakes Stories of marriages in crisi...
Tue, November 22, 2022
#084: Angry at God? Why People from Broken Families Struggle Extra in Their Relationship with Him | Sr. Miriam James Heidland
Have you rejected God? Do you really struggle in your relationship with him? If you’re from a broken family and that’s true, you’re not strange. In fact, it’s really common. Why? From a young age, our parents represent God to us. If their example wasn’t good, it leaves us with a distorted image of God. As a result, we reject him or struggle extra in our relationship with him. We discuss that and more: How Sr. Miriam began drinking at age 12 and became an alcoholic as a D1 athlete3 common barr...
Tue, November 08, 2022
#083: 3 Steps to Navigate Your Broken Family During the Holidays | Margaret Vasquez
If you’re from a broken family, you don’t need anyone to tell you how stressful, depressing, or just plain difficult the holidays can be. If you can relate, this episode is for you. In it, we offer: 3 steps to plan the holidays, so you can reduce the drama and actually enjoy themAdvice from a former trauma therapist on how to deal with your difficult emotions this time of the year, so they don’t control you and you don’t act out in unhealthy waysResources to help you cope, heal, and grow from...
Tue, October 25, 2022
#082: You Deserve Better than a Broken Life and Relationships | Kailash Duraiswami
Imagine you have all the success, pleasure, money, and excitement you could want. But instead of being happy, you feel unhappy and empty. What would you do? That was the story of our guest today. The wounds from his broken family were at the core of his need to live a life of extreme pleasure, excitement, and ultimately, unhappiness. But that all began to change when the 2016 US presidential election caused him to question everything. In time, he went from partying with billionaire Silicon Va...
Thu, October 13, 2022
#081: What to Do If Fear Holds You Back in Life and Relationships | Dr. Rebecca Showalter, PsyD
If you’re from a broken family, you’ve likely dealt with a lot of fear. For so many of us, that holds us back in life and relationships. At the core of that fear is usually the fact that we don’t feel safe. In this episode, a psychologist joins us to discuss why so many people struggle to feel safe and how that affects their life and relationships. We also touch on: What exactly is healing? Dr. Showalter explains 3 aspects of healing.Is healing actually possible, or are we doomed to mer...
Wed, September 28, 2022
#080: My Parents’ Divorce Made Me Question Everything | Paula Chambers, PhD
For so many of us, our parents’ divorce causes us to question everything — especially if it came out of the blue. We ask ourselves: What won’t fall apart? We may even go through life feeling like there’s a disaster around every corner and as a result, so often we play it safe in life. We discuss that and more in this episode as my guest shares: How she blamed herself for the breakdown of her parents’ marriageHow nobody was there for herHow she struggled with low self-esteem, self-harm, ...
Thu, September 15, 2022
#079: Religious Art for Adult Children of Divorce | Dr. Daniel Meola & Michael Corsini
Art is healing. If you’re not an artistic person, that might seem odd. But it’s true. In this episode, we discuss why and how art can be healing and more: What type of art has been healing for our guestsHow art can help people from broken familiesA piece of religious art specifically for Catholic/Christian adult children of divorce Dr. Daniel: Buy the artwork or sign up for the retreat Mike: View his artwork Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon...
Wed, August 31, 2022
#078: Ashamed of Your Past? It Doesn’t Need to Dictate Your Future | Crystalina Evert
If you’re ashamed of your past because of mistakes or abuse, it’s natural to feel stuck. But you don’t have to stay stuck. Healing and freedom are possible for you. Author and speaker Crystalina Evert vulnerably shares how her broken family and sexual abuse caused her to cope with drugs, drinking, and sleeping around. We also discuss: Tactics that have helped her healA new book to help any woman, especially women who have suffered abuseAdvice and encouragement to women who’ve suffered abus e ...
Tue, August 16, 2022
#077: The Past Sometimes Lives in the Present | Eddy Cervantes
A myth about children of divorce is that the impact of our parents’ divorce is temporary. That’s simply not true, which research proves. Sadly, the effects last long after the divorce itself. Our guest today shares how his parents divorce has impacted him, even 20 years later in his own marriage. We discuss: How he felt lost when it came to dating and relationships, how breakups felt like a repeat of his parents’ divorce, and how he irrationally fears that his spouse is going to leave o...
Tue, August 02, 2022
#076: The #1 Thing Missing in Marriages Today | Matt & Mindy Dalton
Marriage isn’t easy. There are good times and challenging times. According to research, people like us from broken families typically struggle more in relationships and marriage. As a result, we’re more likely to need help. In this episode, a couple that offers marriage coaching offers advice and shares the one thing missing most in marriages today. We also discuss: The most common struggles faced by the couples they coachCommunication tips to help your relationship survive and thriveTactics ...
Wed, July 20, 2022
#075: Dealing with Your Parents’ Divorce, Anger Toward Parents, Helping Your Kids Heal | Ask Restored #1
In this episode, we answer questions from listeners like you. Each question reveals a real life challenge faced by someone from a broken family. We offer answers and practical guidance. The questions include: How do you deal with your parents divorce when it isn’t a clearly justifiable split?As divorced parents, how do we make up for all the mistakes we’ve made and help our kids heal?How do I openly talk about my parents divorce without hurting them in the way I view it?How do I build a bette...
Tue, July 05, 2022
#074: Why Children of Divorce Learn to Act Like Chameleons | Craig Soto II
Often, people from broken families become very attuned to the needs of others, especially our parents and siblings. We become skilled at being what people want us to be. In the end, we often lose ourselves and our ability to articulate what we need and want. In this episode, we discuss that problem as well as: How normal was strange and strange was normal for our guest growing upWhy he became motivated to break the generational cycle of divorce in his familyHow he felt like burden in his rela...
Tue, June 21, 2022
#073: Prepare for Your Marriage, Not Just Your Wedding | Fr. Daniel Ciucci & Deacon Colin Coleman
Whether you’re single, dating, or engaged, your wedding day will be a beautiful experience. However, planning it is very consuming. As a result, it’s easy to prepare more for the wedding day than for a lifetime of marriage. Marriage preparation is meant to refocus you and prepare you not only for your wedding day, but for your marriage. In this episode, we discuss marriage prep and: The main cause of dysfunction and divorce, according to my guestsWhat can be done to better help people f...
Tue, June 07, 2022
#072: Eating Disorder: What It Is & How to Heal It | Dr. Julia Sadusky
If you or someone you know has struggled with an eating disorder, you know how painful that experience can be. It’s often an overlooked struggle that really deserves more attention and resources. But thankfully, some resources do exist to heal an eating disorder. Today, a psychologist who specializes in treating eating disorders joins us. We discuss: The types, symptoms, and root causes of eating disordersSurprising statistics on the prevalence of eating disorders and how they can be ...
Thu, May 26, 2022
#071: My Parents’ Divorce Made Me a Child-Sized Old Soul | Professor Daniel Drain
Growing up too fast is a common experience for children of divorce. You’re often called upon to take on responsibilities that should never be yours. As a result, you may become a serious, mature person — even if you’re still a kid. That’s what happened to our guest today, which he explains in this episode. In addition, we discuss: A surprising thing that helped him heal and begin to break the cycle of dysfunction and divorce in his own lifeHow his parents are also children of divorce, which n...
Tue, May 10, 2022
#070: Want a Great (Future) Marriage? Learn to Handle Conflict | Part 2
After his parents’ divorced, Joey feared repeating the same mistakes in his own marriage. He wanted to know, “How do I not repeat my parents’ mistakes?” He wanted authentic love but had no idea how to build it. It set him on a quest for answers and a roadmap for love. In this episode, you’ll hear a talk which offers a roadmap based on research, time tested couples, and the wisdom of Christianity. You’ll also learn: 4 signs that your relationship or marriage is headed off a cliff, accord...
Thu, April 28, 2022
#069: Want a Great (Future) Marriage? Do This | Part 1
After his parents’ divorced, Joey feared repeating the same mistakes in his own marriage. He wanted to know, “How do I not repeat my parents’ mistakes?” He wanted authentic love but had no idea how to build it. It set him on a quest for answers and a roadmap for love. In this episode, you’ll hear a talk that offers a roadmap for love based on research, time-tested couples, and the wisdom of Christianity. You’ll also learn: An ingredient that research shows is essential to build a health...
Wed, April 13, 2022
#068: An Underrated Tactic to Heal from Your Parents’ Divorce | Salvatore Fiorenti
If you’re from a broken family, did your parents’ separation or divorce drag out for years? That was the story of our guest today. In this episode, you’ll hear what happened in his family and how it affected him. We also discuss: How he learned from an early age that his needs weren’t going to be met, so he had to figure out things for himselfHow our parents seem to have grown during the separation and divorce, but as their kids, we can’t help but ask the question: Why couldn’t you grow...
Tue, March 29, 2022
#067: Breaking the Cycle of Dysfunction in Your Marriage | Pierre & Maria Lareau
If you’re from a broken family, becoming independent and breaking the cycle can be extremely attractive. It certainly was for my guests, a married couple where both spouses from a broken family. They share what happened in their families, how it’s affected them, their marriage, and even their kids. We also discuss: Why one of their mentors encouraged them to begin counseling as a dating coupleThe questions their kids have about their divorced grandparentsHow our parents often compete for our ...
Tue, March 15, 2022
#066: A Resource for Families in Crisis | Anne DeSantis
When you’re 7 years old and your parents divorce out of the blue, it causes confusion and lots of questions. Unfortunately, the struggles for my guest didn’t stop there. In this episode, we discuss: How her parents divorce has impacted her, even years laterWhat to do when your divorced parents become ill and near the end of their lives, especially if you have a tense relationship with themAn organization that exists to help families in crisis Get help from the St. Raymond Nonnatus Foun...
Tue, March 01, 2022
#065: A Tool to Heal Your Brokenness and Your Relationship with God | Bob Siemens
If you’re from a broken family, you’ve likely experienced extra barriers in your relationship with God. In fact, you might not even believe in God because of what happened in your family. Wherever you’re at, we’re glad you’re here. In this episode, you’ll hear how spiritual direction is a tool you can use to overcome those barriers, heal from the trauma you’ve endured, and become spiritually strong. We also discuss: Feeling guilty for wanting your parents to get divorcedSpecific challenges wh...
Tue, February 15, 2022
#064: Your Broken Family and Mistakes Don’t Need to Dictate Your Future | Maggie Kim
One night, Maggie’s mother left her family without any explanation. Naturally, Maggie felt extremely abandoned. Following that night and her parents’ divorce, she hated her mom. All the pain led her to cope by using drugs, drinking, and sex. Thankfully, her story transformed. In this episode, you’ll hear: How all that trauma led her to attempt killing herselfHow she opened up to her mom and dad about the way their broken marriage and divorce affected herWhy she feared marriage, but after over...
Tue, February 01, 2022
#063: The Antidote to Trauma | Margaret Vasquez
When your parents’ marriage and family break apart, it’s traumatic for you as their son or daughter. That trauma is not only painful, but also has devastating effects on you that last for a long time. As a result, you need to heal. But how? Our guest today, a trauma therapist, shares the antidote or opposite of trauma. We discuss: The 4 principles you need to live out to prevent and heal from traumaOne thing you can today, right away, to heal and growWhy feeling worthless is a maj...
Tue, January 18, 2022
#062: The Best of 2021: Restored Podcast Highlights
In this episode, you'll hear 7 short clips from the podcast in 2021. This episode, and the podcast as a whole, will help you heal and grow from the trauma of your parents’ divorce, separation, or broken marriage, so you can feel whole again and thrive. If you’re new to the podcast, this is the perfect way to sample our content and learn how it will help you. If you’re a veteran listener, this is the perfect episode to share with someone you know who needs to hear it. Thanks for listening...
Tue, January 04, 2022
#061: Will I Always Feel Stuck? | Alexandra M
When Alexandra was in 7th grade, her parents divorced. Almost immediately, she went to counseling, which led her to believe that the effects of her parents’ divorce were in her past. She thought she was healed. But in college, poor decisions and failed relationships showed her that perhaps it wasn’t resolved like she thought. She woke up on her birthday feeling sad and stuck, asking the question: Am I going to be in this same spot for the rest of my life? In this episode, she shares the...
Tue, December 21, 2021
#060: Divorced Parents is All I’ve Ever Known | Sydney & Daniel Binette
Since she was 2 or 3, Sydney’s parents have been divorced. It’s all she’s ever known. As a result, she spent most of her childhood living out of a suitcase between Mom and Dad’s house. While Sydney has navigated her parents’ divorce fairly well, there have certainly been challenges. In this interview, we discuss those challenges and more: How Sydney has kept a good relationship with her parents and stepparentsAs someone from an intact home, her husband Dan talks about how the divorce has affe...
Tue, December 07, 2021
#059: From a Broken Family? 9 Tactics to Navigate the Holidays
Are you from a broken family? If so, you know how challenging the holidays can be. Not only is it difficult to balance time between mom and dad, but we also have to deal with any family drama. Instead of enjoying the holidays, many of us just can’t wait till they’re over. But there is good news: it doesn’t always have to be that way. In this episode, you’ll hear 9 tactics that you can use to navigate the holidays and hopefully, enjoy them again. It won’t make them perfect, but it will make th...
Tue, November 23, 2021
#058: Forgiveness: The Secret to Healing and Freedom | Fr. John Burns
Forgiving someone that wounded you is difficult. Not only is forgiveness difficult, it is often over simplified and misunderstood. That’s why we interviewed an expert on forgiveness, who happens to be a child of divorce. In this practical episode, we address: What exactly is forgiveness?How to forgive through the four stages of forgivenessWhy forgiveness is good for you and unforgiveness is bad for youHow does compensation or reparation factor into forgiveness?Practical advice to forgiv...
Tue, November 09, 2021
#057: How Alcoholism Broke My Family Apart | Kendra Posch
Alcoholism is a major cause of dysfunction in so many families. That was certainly true for our guest’s family. In this episode, she shares how alcoholism played a pivotal role in the breakdown of her parents’ marriage and family. We also discuss: Why she kept a packed bag that was always ready to go under her bed at collegeWhat she’d say to her parents if they were listening to this episodeHow she truly desires a good relationship with her parents, especially her estranged fatherShare ...
Tue, October 26, 2021
#056: How Virtue Results in Happiness & Freedom | Dr. Andrew Swafford
Dr. Andrew Swafford came from a dysfunctional family, even though his parents never got divorced. As a result, he questioned: “Can I be a good husband and father? Or am I destined to repeat the cycle of dysfunction?” Thankfully, he overcame those doubts and built a beautiful marriage and family. In this conversation, he shares what helped him to do just that. Plus, we discuss: What is virtue and how do you build it?A three part framework to know if you’ve acquired a virtueThe ultimate measure...
Wed, October 13, 2021
#055: I Wish My Family Was Normal | Ashlyn Frederick
If your family is broken, you’ve probably felt like our guest today who badly wanted her family to be normal. It’s such a natural desire which goes painfully unsatisfied. In this raw episode, we discuss: How an affair broke her family apart and how that’s impacted herHow we often use excessive drinking to cope with our pain and what to do insteadWhen moving away from your family could be the right thing for a timeBuy Joey’s book: It’s Not Your Fault: A Practical Guide to Navigating the ...
Tue, September 28, 2021
#054: How to Stop Damaging Yourself with Your Words | Chris Stefanick
If you spoke to your friends the way you spoke to yourself, would those relationships become abusive? The words you tell yourself are often filled with lies, but you might not even realize it. But those lies become your identity, which then dictates the quality and happiness of your life. Thankfully, our guest today can help you beat the lies and discover your real identity. In this episode, we discuss: Why it is so important to uncover the lies you believe about yourselfHow it’s simple yet d...
Wed, September 15, 2021
#053: Does a Lack of Peace Prove Your Relationship Isn’t Meant to Be?
Many young people from broken families struggle to discern their relationships and calling in life because they feel so anxious and uncertain. The trauma of their broken family and the effects that stem from it often interfere with their ability to discern properly. In this episode, we dive into that and more: Why a lack of peace isn’t an automatic indicator that a relationship or vocation isn’t meant to beHow to discern if you feel anxious and uncertainHow our desire for 100% certainty...
Thu, September 02, 2021
#052: How to Navigate Your Relationship With Your Divorced Parents
A popular question we receive from young people from broken families is “How do I help my parents and navigate my relationship with them?” In this episode, we offer advice and answer that question. We discuss: What to do when your parents try to enlist you in their war against each otherHow to respond if your parents are asking you to make or heavily influence big decisions for themWhy you shouldn’t have to pretend everything is okay when Mom or Dad start dating someone else Plus, we o...
Thu, August 19, 2021
#051: Music: A Powerful Tool to Help You Cope & Heal | Jenny & Tyler
Music has always been a tool to cope with the pain and problems from my parents’ divorce. Two artists whose music helped me a lot are Jenny and Tyler, a married musical duo. Their music and marriage have especially convinced me that love can last. In this episode, they share: Lessons they’ve learned after years in marriage that would’ve been helpful to know before they got married. Encouragement to anyone from a broken home who’s afraid of love and marriage. Advice to anyone w...
Tue, August 03, 2021
#050: Why Didn’t You Choose Me? | Holli Lepley
For 40 years, Holli searched for help to heal from the trauma of her parents’ divorce, including 30 years of counseling. But nothing worked. She had all but lost hope when she found Restored. She claims this podcast has been more healing than 30 years of counseling. Having struggled with depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts, she also shared how Restored has “literally saved my life.” If you’ve wondered how Restored can help you or someone you love or lead, this episode is for you. In it...
Tue, July 20, 2021
#049: Healing from Your Parent’s Infidelity | Katie
What would you do if you were 12 years old and you accidentally found out that your mom is cheating on your dad? That’s the exact situation that today’s guest faced as a little girl. We discuss how she felt that her mom not only cheated on her dad, but on her and her siblings too. Plus, we get into: The ways in which her mom’s infidelity wounded herHow that wound was reopened when two boyfriends cheated on her in high school and collegeThe connection between her parents’ divorce and her desir...
Tue, July 06, 2021
#048: Fear Became Reality: I Am Just Like My Father | Bart Schuchts
As a boy, Bart Schuchts thought his family was normal. But in reality, it was very broken. When he was five years old, his dad left after cheating on his mom. He remembers his mom crying herself to sleep at night. Seeing the devastation his dad left, he swore to never be like him. But in college, his worst fear came true. Sleeping around and using women, he realized: “I am just like my father.” Thankfully, his story didn’t end there. In this episode, he shares: How he overcame his anger...
Tue, June 22, 2021
#047: How Healing Improved My Life, Marriage, and Friendships | Sandra Howlett
When your parents’ marriage breaks apart, it feels like an earthquake. The most basic foundation, your family, is shaken and shattered. It’s disorienting. It’s traumatic. As a result, we tend to go through life doubting anything can last. But thankfully, we’re not doomed to skepticism our entire lives. We can heal and feel whole again, like our guest Sandy. In this episode, she shares: How she beat chronic depressionHow her choice to forgive her parents led to feeling free instead of st...
Tue, June 08, 2021
#046: Becoming a Great Parent: Learning from Your Parents’ Virtues and Vices | Miranda Henkel
What did you learn about parenting from your parents that you want to repeat with your kids? What do you not want to repeat? The answers to those questions are extremely valuable in helping you become the best parent you can be. But sadly, most of us don’t dig deep enough. Today, we do by talking about: Our experiences as new parents with babies who haven’t been born yetOur fears about becoming parentsAnswer: Do we feel more confident about marriage or parenting?6 things kids need from their ...
Tue, May 25, 2021
#045: How to Become the Dad You Wish You Had | Justin Batt
It’s no secret that we’re facing a huge crisis of fatherlessness. So many fathers have physically or emotionally abandoned their children, largely because nobody ever showed them how to be a great dad. This problem is at the root of so many issues in our world. So, what’s the solution? In this episode, Justin Batt from Daddy Saturday offers advice and encouragement to current or future dads on how to raise good kids who become great adults. We discuss: How do we fix the fatherlessness crisis?...
Tue, May 11, 2021
#044: Practical Tips for Becoming a Great Parent | Mike & Alicia Hernon
For most people, becoming a parent is beautiful but also scary and intimidating. But that is especially true for people from broken families. Often, we didn’t see a great example of parenthood, so we feel lost and unsure how to do it ourselves. In this episode, we talk parenting with Mike and Alicia Hernon, the parents of 10 kids and leaders of a ministry for parents called The Messy Family Project. We discuss: How his parents’ divorce affected Mike as a husband and fatherFears he had about b...
Tue, April 27, 2021
#043: Do You Feel Abandoned by God? | Fr. John Paul Mary
If you’re from a broken family, you likely struggle extra in your relationship with God. There are so many barriers people like us have to overcome. One barrier is feeling abandoned by God. In this episode, a Catholic priest who is a child of divorce joins us to discuss: How to overcome common barriers people like us face in our spiritual livesWhat to do if you feel abandoned by GodHow father and mother wounds impact our relationship with GodWhat to do if you feel far from God and want nothin...
Wed, April 14, 2021
#042: What is Broken Can Be Repaired | Shenandoah Lawson
As people from broken homes, we fear repeating the dysfunction we experienced in our families. But sometimes, we end up going down that path. Our guest today dealt with that in a very real way. Years after her parents divorced, she found herself in the exact place she never wanted to be: Going through her own divorce, feeling so broken and empty. But thankfully, her story and her marriage’s story doesn’t end there. In this episode, you’ll hear how her marriage was rescued and more: What...
Thu, April 01, 2021
#041: How to File the FAFSA if Your Parents are Divorced or Separated | Alex Driscoll & Mike Rossman
Statistically, children of divorce are less likely to attend college. Further, they’re less likely to receive financial support from their parents for college. To pay for college, most young people apply for government aid by filling out the FAFSA. But if your parents are separated, divorced, or remarried, the process can seem confusing. Today, we speak with two experts to offer guidance on: How to answer certain FAFSA questions depending on your parents’ marriageMyths to watch ou...
Wed, March 17, 2021
#040: 9 Ways to Pay for Counseling
You want to go to counseling, but a massive barrier stands in the way: The price. Therapy is not cheap. So, how are you going to pay for it? We tackle that question and more in this episode: 9 practical tips on how to pay for counselingHow much does counseling actually cost?The info and next steps you need to pay for counseling, so you can heal and feel whole againFind a counselor Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can...
Tue, March 02, 2021
#039: The Anatomy of a Wound & How to Heal | Dr. Bob Schuchts, PhD
As a psychologist, author, and speaker, Dr. Bob Schuchts has dedicated his life to helping people heal their brokenness. In this episode, he offers his expertise on healing, but he doesn’t stop there. He also shares how his parents’ broken marriage deeply affected him. It took years, but he did find healing - for himself and even his family. We delve into that and more: The anatomy of a woundHow the healing process works1 tip you can do today to healRegister: Dr. Bob’s Healing Retreat B...
Wed, February 17, 2021
#038: When Our Families Break Apart, We Feel Homeless | Malcolm MacDonald
When our families break apart, most of us feel homeless. We lose our sense of safety and belonging. As a result, we go through life looking for the family we never had. In this episode, Malcolm touches on those points while sharing his story. We also discuss: His struggles in his relationship with his parentsHow he’s healed his relationship with his dadThe undeniable truth that hurt people hurt peopleWhat he did to cope with the pain and problems in his life in unhealthy waysShare your ...
Tue, February 02, 2021
#037: Trauma: What It Is and How It Damages You | Margaret Vasquez
What is trauma? How does it affect a person? Today, licensed trauma therapist Margaret Vasquez answers those questions and more: Why your parents' divorce, separation, or broken marriage can be so traumaticThe antidote to trauma, which will surprise youHow trauma therapy works, why it is so effective, and the incredible result she's seenBuy the book: More Than Words: The Freedom to Thrive after Trauma [affiliate link] Shownotes Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer ...
Thu, January 21, 2021
#036: Healthy Relationships Are Impossible Without Boundaries
Most people from broken homes struggle with boundaries. Usually, we were never taught how to set and enforce proper boundaries within our families. We’ve seen this again and again. Why is that damaging? Because you can’t have healthy relationships without proper boundaries. Period. In this episode, we cover: What are boundaries?The four types of boundary problemsSix of the ten laws of boundariesBuy the Book: Boundaries Updated and Expanded Edition: When to Say Yes, How to Say No To Take...
Thu, January 07, 2021
#035: My Parents’ Divorce Exposed My Insecurities | Emily Luke
Emily knew her parents might divorce, but nothing could’ve prepared her for it. It made her feel alone. It made her feel like nobody understood. Feeling insecure, she sought security by trying to control things, especially her relationships. In this episode, Emily shares her story and more: How she kicked healing down the road since she knew it would be painfulThe #1 thing that has helped her heal her broken idea of love and marriageHow to handle anger toward your parents in a healthy way whi...
Wed, December 23, 2020
#034: The Best of 2020: Restored Podcast Highlights
We know. “Best” and “2020” don’t belong in the same sentence… what a year. To celebrate the good, here are 10 of the best highlights from the Restored Podcast in 2020. Donate to Restored: https://restoredministry.com/donate Shownotes | RestoredMinistry.com/34 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Thu, December 10, 2020
#033: Does Divorce Damage Children? 67 Studies Answer
Is divorce damaging for the children? There’s a lot of misinformation around that question. In this episode, we dispel the myths by breaking down a study. That study summarizes the results of 67 studies about children of divorce. Don’t worry, we make it simple. By listening, you’ll hear: The insane number of children of divorce in the world (hint: It is mindblowing)Statistics and talking points to use in conversations about divorceUnderstand the negative effects that most children of di...
Thu, November 26, 2020
#032: How to Navigate the Holidays: Advice from 11 Children of Divorce
The holidays are especially challenging for anyone with separated or divorced parents. So many of us dread this time of the year. We often feel alone and uncertain of how to deal with it all. To offer practical guidance, some of our audience submitted voice memos to answer this question: What’s one tip you’d give to teens or young adults from divorced or separated families on navigating the holidays? This episode contains that advice. By listening and implementing the tips, our hope is that y...
Thu, November 12, 2020
#031: My Parents’ Divorce Made Me Crave Belonging | Carlie Spaulding
Seeing her parents divorce, Carlie wrestled with this question: If it didn’t work out for my parents, how can I make someone stay with me? That led her to crave the approval of others and became whoever she needed to be to make them stay. But deep down, she desired more. She wanted to belong in an authentic way. By listening, you’ll hear: How Carlie fills that desire for belongingHow children of divorce typically ignore their own needsWhat happened when Carlie hit rock bottom in college...
Thu, October 29, 2020
#030: How to Heal Your Broken Marriage | Greg & Julie Alexander
How do you heal a broken marriage? We tackle that topic with two experts, Greg and Julie Alexander. They’ve helped over 5,000 seriously struggling couples in the past 20 years. Their success rate? 98%. By listening, you’ll hear: How Greg & Julie healed their marriage after both cheated on each otherWhat they offer struggling couplesSpecific advice, such as: What’s the first step to rescue a broken marriage? How can a couple heal from infidelity? What should you say to help a friend ...
Thu, October 15, 2020
#029: Stories of Impossible Marriages Redeemed | Leila Miller
Struggling spouses often feel like they have two options: Stay married and be miserable or get divorced and be happy. Thankfully, there’s a third option: Healing your marriage. Leila Miller shares stories of hope from her new book, “Impossible” Marriages Redeemed: They Didn’t End the Story in the Middle. It features 50 stories of broken marriages that have been healed and more. By listening, here’s what you’ll walk away with: Common things that breakdown a marriage and common things th...
Thu, October 01, 2020
#028: Tips for Building a Great Marriage from an Amazing Couple - Part 2 | Joe & Maria Keller
If you want to build a great marriage, follow the advice of couples who’ve done it. Learn from them. Like last episode, that's exactly what we do in this episode with the most beautiful married couple Joey knows, Joe and Maria Keller. They offer a roadmap for marriage and hope for those of us from broken families who often feel lost in building love that lasts. By listening, you’ll also hear: What destroys a marriage and how to avoid those thingsHabits and advice on money, faith, and c...
Thu, September 17, 2020
#027: Tips for Building a Great Marriage from an Amazing Couple - Part 1 | Joe & Maria Keller
If you want to build a great marriage, follow the advice of couples who’ve done it. Spend time with them and learn from their example and wisdom. That's exactly what we do in this episode with the most beautiful married couple Joey knows, Joe and Maria Keller. They offer a roadmap and inspiration for those of us from broken families who often feel lost in building love that lasts: How to handle personality differences and conflictThe #1 thing you can do for your kids and friends as a married...
Thu, September 03, 2020
#026: Viral Facebook Post: What if We Spoke Well of Marriage? | Sarah Jarrard
One day, Sarah got really discouraged and frustrated. Why? Because of people saying bad things about their spouses and bashing marriage itself. So she wrote her thoughts and feelings on a Facebook post. She was surprised even 20 people shared it. But before she knew it, it went viral. In no time, it had over 40,000 shares. She was blown away. Soon, the post reached over 80,000 shares, more than 30,000 likes, and over 7,000 comments. Obviously, it struck a chord. In this epis...
Thu, August 20, 2020
#025: Men, Women, and the Mystery of Love | Dr. Edward Sri
It’s easy to feel discouraged or lost in searching for love. Perhaps you’ve even given up on love altogether, thinking it’s not possible for you. If that’s you - or you just want to know how to build real love and avoid divorce - listen to this episode. Here’s what you’ll get: Practical advice on finding and building authentic love - whether you’re single, dating, engaged or marriedThe two ways that men and women are attracted to each other and where each can leadSigns to watch out for to kno...
Thu, August 06, 2020
#024: Tips for Engagement, Wedding, and 1st Year of Marriage - Part 2
If you come from a broken home, planning a wedding and getting married throws some unique challenges at you. Joey shares what he and his wife, Brigid, wish someone told them about engagement, the wedding, and the first year of marriage. By listening, you’ll hear this and more: Challenges you’ll face planning your wedding if you’re from a broken family or you’re marrying someone who is - and how to deal with themWedding day anxiety and what to do about itThings to keep in mind about your...
Thu, July 23, 2020
#023: Tips for Engagement, Wedding, and 1st Year of Marriage - Part 1 | Brigid Pontarelli
Getting engaged and married is exciting! But it can also be overwhelming, especially if you come from a broken home. Joey and his wife, Brigid, share their story and what they wish someone told them about engagement, the wedding, and the first year of marriage. By listening, you’ll hear this and more: Brigid talks about dating and marrying someone from a broken home - plus advice for people like herHow to keep building your friendship in a romantic relationshipA tactic to avoid allowin...
Fri, July 10, 2020
#022: A Quick and Simple Healing Exercise
If you could go back in time and have a conversation with the younger version of you, what would you say? So often, those of us from broken homes are never asked how we feel about it all. Nobody asks how it has affected us. Never having a chance to speak, we bottle it up inside. In this episode, you’ll learn a powerful yet simple exercise that’ll give you the chance to speak to the little version of yourself. If you give it a shot: It may bring up a lot of raw emotionsIt’ll bring healin...
Thu, June 25, 2020
#021: How to Build Love That Lasts: The 5 Love Languages
Most couples experience love fading at some point, usually after the wedding. They long for love that lasts, but they doubt it is possible. And even if it were, they don't know how to build it. The 5 Love Languages are a simple and effective tool for building real love. They're so simple, they're often overlooked. In this episode, you'll hear how the 5 Love Languages help you: Make your significant other feel lovedBuild deeper intimacyCreate a more satisfying relationshipStart using the 5 Lo...
Thu, June 11, 2020
#020: Navigating Singleness | Sarah Swafford
Navigating the single years can be challenging and lonely. In this episode, we hit on some of the unique struggles we face during a season of singleness. Our guest, Sarah Swafford, offers advice on dealing with those struggles and preparing for the love we all long for. By listening, you'll walk away with: How to deal with the loneliness of singleness How to overcome the fear and shame of not being chosenWe even go beyond singleness into identity, self-worth, and the reality of marriage...
Thu, May 28, 2020
#019: How to Find Your Soulmate Without Losing Your Soul | Jason Evert
Ladies, if you've ever felt discouraged and alone in your search for love, this episode is for you. Jason Evert offers advice from the book he and his wife wrote titled How to Find Your Soulmate Without Losing Your Soul. By listening, you'll get: The type of guys to avoidHow the "Love Test" helps you figure out if a man really loves youOne thing you can do to reduce the chance of divorce in your own marriageHow to break up with a guy, even if you're afraidEncouragement if you've made mistak...
Thu, April 30, 2020
#018: The Dating Blueprint: What Women Want But Won't Tell Men | Jason Evert
Men are rarely given advice on how to pursue a woman. In fact, they're usually just told what not to do. In this episode, author and speaker Jason Evert gives practical advice based on his new book The Dating Blueprint: Answers from 1,000 women about how they want to be pursuedThe #1 vice women want men to overcome before dating themHow to break up with a womanHow to know if "she's the one"How to guard your love and make it strongBuy The Dating Blueprint: What She Wants You to Know Ab...
Thu, April 16, 2020
#017: 6 Tips to Conquer Your Fear of Love
I felt torn. On one hand, I craved love. On the other, I feared it. Why? Because I didn’t think love could last. I feared my relationship would end the way my parents’ marriage did. Thankfully, that fear no longer controls me. It took time and intentional effort to overcome it. But by doing so, I felt free to pursue my wife and begin building our marriage. In this episode, you’ll get: A better understanding of yourself and why you fear loveReal life relationship stories and lessons fro...
Thu, April 02, 2020
#016: Everyone Acted Like My Parents’ Separation Wasn’t a Big Deal | Erin Hasso
Erin’s parents separated when she was 16 after a big fight. It was really painful for her. However, everyone acted like it wasn’t a big deal. And so, she felt like something was wrong with her for feeling so hurt. In the years that followed, she struggled with depression, loneliness, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. In this episode, you’ll hear how she overcome those things and found healing. She also shares some practical wisdom for coping, healing, and thriving. Shownotes | RestoredMinist...
Thu, March 19, 2020
#015: Navy SEAL: Calm is Contagious | Mike Sarraille
Who knows the most about staying calm during chaotic situations? A combat experienced Navy SEAL. In this episode, you'll get the advice of Navy SEAL Mike Sarraille on staying calm during a crisis like the Coronavirus. Shownotes | RestoredMinistry.com/15 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Tue, March 17, 2020
#014: Psychologist: How to Handle Fear and Anxiety During a Crisis (Like the Coronavirus) | Dr. Julia Sadusky, PsyD
The Coronavirus is causing a lot of panic. There's so much fear, anxiety, and uncertainty going around. So, how do we deal with all of that during a crisis? Dr. Julia Sadusky shows us how. Shownotes | RestoredMinistry.com/14 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Sat, March 07, 2020
#013: Why We Repeat Our Parents' Mistakes and How to Avoid It | Dr. Julia Sadusky, PsyD
Most of us with separated or divorced parents are afraid of getting divorced or repeating our parents’ mistakes. We want to avoid the bad behavior we saw in our families and our parents’ marriages, but we don’t know how to do that. If you can relate, listen to this episode. Dr. Julia Sadusky answers to these questions and more: Why do we repeat the bad behavior we saw in our families growing up?Why does someone from a dysfunctional family often become bored with “normal” in life and rel...
Thu, March 05, 2020
#012: Counseling: How It Works and Why It Helps | Dr. Julia Sadusky, PsyD
Counseling is a tool for healing. But how does it work? And will it actually help me? We answer those questions and much more in this episode: How many sessions do you need to start feeling better?The #1 factor that determines whether counseling works or notHow to find the right counselor for youQuestions to ask a counselor before you commitHow to make the most of itShownotes | https://restoredministry.com/12 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're ...
Thu, February 20, 2020
#011: I Thought My Parents’ Divorce Didn’t Affect Me | Jennifer Cox
Jen thought her parents’ divorce didn’t affect her - until her brokenness surfaced at 26 on a medical mission in Honduras. Still, she didn’t make the connection between her struggles and her parents’ breakup right away. In this episode, you’ll hear her story, her struggles, and how she has healed. She also shares advice and words of encouragement for anyone in a similar situation - especially anyone who is single but wants to be married. Shownotes | https://restoredministry.com/11 Question ...
Thu, February 06, 2020
#010: 5 Practical Tips to Cure Loneliness
Did you know that children of divorce are actually more prone to experience loneliness? If you or someone you know struggles with loneliness, this episode is for you. You'll hear 5 common sense tips that you can start today to overcome loneliness. Shownotes | https://restoredministry.com/10 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Thu, January 23, 2020
#009: A Retreat for Adult Children of Divorce | Dr. Daniel Meola, PhD
How did you find out that your parents were divorcing? Today’s guest, Dr. Daniel Meola, actually found out before his mom. Then as an 11 year old boy, he called her to break the news. You’ll hear about the impact the divorce has had on him over the years and what he’s doing to help other adult children of divorce to heal. Shownotes | https://restoredministry.com/9 Question for Joey or our guests? Text us. We'll answer on the show as soon as we're able. You can be anonymous if you'd like!
Thu, January 09, 2020
#008: The Hardest Part of My Life | Miranda Rodriguez
What’s been the hardest part of your life? For Miranda, it has been navigating her parents’ divorce. If you read her article “Dear Divorce” you already know how clearly and beautifully she articulates the pain and the struggles she’s faced. But this episode isn’t just about the pain and struggles. We talk about her #1 method of healing, the awareness she’s developed about herself, and the fact that nobody can heal alone. We all need help. Shownotes | RestoredMinistry.com/8 Question for J...
Fri, December 27, 2019
#007: 9 Common Struggles of Adult Children of Divorce - Part 3 | LeeAnne Abel
Part 3 of 3. When your parents separate or divorce, it hurts. It brings a lot of pain, problems, and struggles into your life. But what are some of those common struggles? That's the topic of today's show. We discuss 9 common struggles that children of divorce typically face based on a survey of 350 adult children of divorce. Throughout the conversation, we offer practical advice on how to deal with those struggles. In addition, this episode will help you understand yourself if your parents...
Thu, December 12, 2019
#006: 9 Common Struggles of Adult Children of Divorce - Part 2 | LeeAnne Abel
Part 2 of 3. When your parents separate or divorce, it hurts. It brings a lot of pain, problems, and struggles into your life. But what are some of those common struggles? That's the topic of today's show. We discuss 9 common struggles that children of divorce typically face based on a survey of 350 adult children of divorce. Throughout the conversation, we offer practical advice on how to deal with those struggles. In addition, this episode will help you understand yourself if your parents...
Fri, November 29, 2019
#005: 9 Common Struggles of Adult Children of Divorce - Part 1 | LeeAnne Abel
Part 1 of 3. When your parents separate or divorce, it hurts. It brings a lot of pain, problems, and struggles into your life. But what are some of those common struggles? That's the topic of today's show. We discuss 9 common struggles that children of divorce typically face based on a survey of 350 adult children of divorce. Throughout the conversation, we offer practical advice on how to deal with those struggles. In addition, this episode will help you understand yourself if your parent...
Fri, November 15, 2019
#004: 7 Tips to Navigate the Holidays for Children of Divorce
The holidays are a challenging time for most children of divorced or separated parents. Most of us feel alone, lost, and uncertain of how to navigate the holidays with our broken families. Instead of experiencing the joy of the holidays, we often feel overwhelmed, frustrated, embarrassed, and sad. If you can relate, we made this episode for you. In it, we give 7 tips on how to navigate the holidays so you can enjoy them and hopefully, avoid all the drama. The advice is from a survey of ol...
Thu, October 31, 2019
#003: How Craving Wholeness Motivated Her to Heal | Beth Sri
#003 - Beth’s parents divorced when she was very young. However, she still remembers the cardboard boxes and feeling confused about her dad leaving. Over the years, she saw her parents’ divorce impact her in various ways. She recalls looking for external approval, feeling lost, and the challenge of constantly navigating between two homes. She also shares what she has done to heal and how her life is better now because of it. By listening to Beth’s story, you’ll find that no matter how b...
Fri, October 18, 2019
#002: How 70 Adult Children of Divorce Have Suffered | Leila Miller
#002 - When your parents separate or divorce, it hurts and you feel alone. You feel like nobody can understand what you are going through. At Restored, we know how that feels. But we want you to know this: You’re actually not alone. To prove that, we talk with speaker and author Leila Miller about her book Primal Loss, which features 70 stories from children of divorce. We uncover the shocking ways divorce has affected them, even years later as adults, and some practical advice to deal ...
Thu, October 03, 2019
#001: How Restored Helps Children of Divorce
#001 - Are your parents divorced? Are they separated? Has that brought a lot of pain and problems into your life? Do you feel alone and unsure of how to deal with it all? If you answered yes, the Restored podcast is for you. In this intro episode, we'll talk about how your parents' divorce is affecting you, what you can do about it, and how the Restored podcast exists to help you cope, heal, and feel whole again. Also, if you love or lead someone with divorced or separated paren...
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