The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast
When host Amanda meets Dick, the charming Mormon man from Las Vegas relentlessly pursuing her via social media for months, she never could have imagined the whirlwind that would follow. What starts as a passionate romance quickly spirals into something far more sinister. The Dichotomy Diaries isn’t just about your “run-of-the-mill” divorce—it’s about seven women, all unknowingly connected by the same predator, sharing their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, manipulation, and abusive games disguised as love. Season One pulls back the curtain on The Dichotomy that is Dick; as Amanda and his other victims untangle the dark layers of...
Bonus · Wed, February 05, 2025
The Prequel: The Eye of the Storm
Dear Diary & Listeners, There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims. When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done. That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything. Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide. Welcome to The Eye of the Storm... Forever Speaking the Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR STORYS TO SHARE! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is ready to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Pitch Your Story Here Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ashley Klemm Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: Exclusive Video Episodes & More! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries</
Trailer · Tue, November 12, 2024
A Storm's A'Comin' - Official Trailer #1
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm —a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season. Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle. Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience. Forever Sharing Our Truths, Amanda & Ashley Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok WANT TO SHARE YOUR STORY ON THE DICHOTOMY DIARIES? If you have experienced anything similar and are willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Submit Your Story Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Amanda Arnier Graphic Design: Ashley Klemm & Amanda Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E33 · Tue, October 08, 2024
From The Ashes: The Final Episode
Dear Diary & Listeners, I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes , I've wrestled with being broken down only to rise again. That song is close to my heart because, just as Phoenix shaped who I am today, it’s also where I became my most broken. It's ironic: Phoenix both created and nearly destroyed me. As humans, we crave understanding. When faced with unanswered questions, we can either bury them or seek answers, no matter the cost. So, yes— I fucked around and found out, and I don't regret it. There were days I wanted to give up, to disappear from the internet entirely. But each day, I rose with purpose, determined to see this through. And while this process has been healing, it has also been intensely challenging, revealing both sadness and the joy of personal transformation. Hosting this podcast has unintentionally filtered out the wrong people from my life— The Fuck Boy Filter , if you will. Those who approached me should have known that I have no patience for those who aren’t genuine or respectful. It's worked, more or less, but I have encountered some strange birds along the way. Thankfully, the DMs have slowed, and the wildest proposals now feel like a distant memory. Even better, the podcast has acted as a background check, a sort of litmus test for anyone new who enters my life. I am so happy to mention that the new man in my life is beyond amazing. Though he respects my work and acknowledges my commitment, he hasn’t listened to a single episode. Initially, I was disappointed—it’s my art , after all. But then, I realized that not everyone needs to know every detail. True connection doesn’t need to know the scars in high definition; it can see the resilience in your eyes and recognize your strength without needing every gritty detail. I am positive that if he tuned in, he’d be fuming just a few minutes into the first episode. And honestly? I can’t blame him. I hope this final episode brings you the closure it brought me. I hope you found value in listening to my journey, and if you did, I’d love to hear about it. My DMs are always open. As I wrap up Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries , I find myself reflecting on all I’ve endured and overcome. There were countless times when I was faced with people trying to burn down everything I had worked to rebuild. To those who wanted to see me fall, here’s my response: What do you want from me tonight? You wanna burn down everything in sight? I’ve walked through the flames and emerged str
Bonus · Tue, October 08, 2024
Let's Chat with Kyree Oliver: The #1 Masculinity Coach in the World
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others. The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of relationships, the importance of authenticity, and the challenges of staying true to oneself in a world full of expectations. From navigating difficult conversations and setting boundaries to understanding the complexities of energy in relationships, this bonus episode offers a fresh perspective on what it means to grow and connect in today's world. Whether you’re curious about the modern take on masculinity or looking for advice on personal growth and relationships, this episode is a must-listen. Don’t miss out on the powerful insights and practical advice that could change the way you see yourself and those around you. Forever Speaking Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS HOW DO I GET IN TOUCH WITH KYREE? Website: https://www.kyree.com Kyree's Course: The Man Inside: Personal Power Through Identity Instagram: @kyree YouTube: @Kyreeoliver94 TikTok: @kyreeoliver Twitter: @kyreeoliver Facebook: @kyreeoliver1994 WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: <a href='https://www.
Bonus · Mon, September 23, 2024
Boystown Bathtub
TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode. Dear Diary & Listeners, The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all. I think I know what sparked the shift, but it’s still a bit confusing. I reconnected with someone who just gets my brain. Being around him feels amazing—safe, even. It’s like all the overthinking noise in my head quieted down for a change. But here’s the thing: I need challenges in my life to stay motivated. I thrive on goals to work toward every day. This podcast was that challenge for me. But as Season 1 wrapped up and I got to the final interview, I looked around and thought, “ WTF? This is too easy now. ” And you know what? The most unexpected challenge I found was in my own head. My new relationship is healthy and fulfilling, but I’m literally challenging my traumatized brain every day not to go off the deep end and screw it all up. Can you imagine that feeling? Being completely happy and fulfilled, yet your brain is like, “ABORT! Everyone's a liar!” It’s a wild ride. Here’s the thing I didn’t know: there are people out there who see you struggling, who actually help and affirm your feelings, and who can take a horrible situation born from trauma and make it better. Yep, not worse—better. So, that brings me to why I’m sharing what I’m sharing today. I’m going to take you back to something that happened to me about 11 years ago. It was traumatic then, and it still is to think about (I definitely had a few mini panic attacks while recording this—watch it on YouTube if you want to see how wild it was). I’ll walk you through one of my first Tinder dates, back when it was the hottest dating app out there. As I always say, shame has no home inside me. I made some bad choices that put me in danger, and I need to own up to that. I want to share it with you so you can see, 1) we all make mistakes, 2) how serious those mistakes can be, 3) what you can do to avoid them, and 4) the tools you need to stay safe in this crazy dating world. Maybe it’s because I feel safe, seen, and truly loved right now, but I really want to get this off my chest. I’m not going to lie, though—this is rough. It’s graphic, and if you have any issues with content related to sexual assault, I suggest you skip this episode. As always, thanks for giving me a place to be 100% myself. Thank you for listening to me without judgment. You all keep me going. Oh, and PS: I’m so glad to be back on the mic. Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda WE ARE ACTIV
Bonus · Wed, August 07, 2024
Let's Chat with Behk & LAH from Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!
Dear Diary & Listeners, I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH . If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to. Enjoy! Amanda --------------------------------------------------- In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people. Topics Discussed: Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries Trust – is it earned or a gift? Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries” podcast The importance of sharing our stories The case of Dick The dual mothership theory by Dr. Vaknin We’re Carl Jungians Attachments Amanda’s healing journey What's next for “The Dichotomy Diaries?” Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing. Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience. Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share! Book mentioned in this episode: The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D. Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised. We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice. Hosts: Behk & LAH Follow us on Instagram + Facebook @ngcompod Production & Design: LAHarden</p
Bonus · Wed, August 07, 2024
Let's Chat with The Duchess of Bay Ridge AKA Dr. Nadine Macaluso, LMFT, PhD
Dear Diary & Listener's, I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story. Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street . Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit! Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts. In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers. She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner. The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well! @TheRealDrNadine Website: https://drnae.com/about-dr-nadine-mac... Free Assessments by Dr. Nae: https://drnae.com/assessments/ Order Run Like Hell Book Here: <a href='https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqb
Bonus · Fri, July 12, 2024
Let's Chat with Vanessa Reiser, LCSW
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!) We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece. We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges of conveying the complexity of narcissistic abuse in a concise manner others. A topic that I've really struggled with lately... This episode also explores trauma bonding and addiction in narcissistic relationships. Vanessa and I talk about the repetitive cycle of love bombing, devaluing, and discarding, which creates a trauma bond and intense addiction to the makeup session. Vanessa emphasizes the need for support and understanding for those trying to extricate themselves from these relationships, comparing it to drug addiction. Not to mention the post-separation abuse that can occur, which more often than not, includes attempts to destroy the victim's life. I had SO MUCH FUN chatting in up with Vanessa and learning all the things from her not only about my relationship with Dick, but about important topics and congruencies I wasn't even aware of. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Vanessa's website, how to find her on Social Media, and Pre-Order her new book: Narcissistic Abuse: A Therapist's Guide to Identifying, Escaping, and Healing from Toxic and Manipulative People. @vanessareiserlcsw-narcissi5380 Website: https://www.tellatherapist.net Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessareiserlcsw TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@vanessareiser BOOK PRE ORDER: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0306833174 WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Vanessa Reiser, LCSW Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: <a href='https://patreon.com/TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast?utm_medium=unknown
S1 E32 · Tue, July 02, 2024
SAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners, I think we may have uncovered something important during this episode... As Savana and I discuss how her and Dick's engagement came to an abrupt end, I realize that I share with her that she had NO idea about. Imagine her surprise when I fill her in on what HER FIANCE was doing way back when. Better yet, imagine the AUDACITY this man has to tell me the truth about his whereabouts and doings, while completely leaving out the fact that he was actively engaged to this beautiful human. Savana and I really want to emphasize how important it is to continue to do things for YOURSELF while in a relationship, NEW or OLD, you need to maintain your sense of self at all cost. Luckily for Savana, Dick wasn't able to break her spirit like he did many others, myself included. Savana's fighter soul is what gave her the strength to persevere and know what was best for her... A LIFE WITHOUT DICK. Let's be honest, that's literally what's best for everyone. I hope you enjoyed hearing Savana's story and have some good takeaways. Whether you're in a similar relationship, or know someone who is struggling to get out- just remember that your presence matters in the life of others. Whether they are gracious or not. Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Savana's Hair Instagram Savana's Personal Instagram Savana's TikTok WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Savana Martin Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: <a href='https://www.facebook.com/TheDichotomyDiaries/?locale=hi_IN&paipv=0&eav=AfbXf1FDw
S1 E31 · Thu, June 20, 2024
SAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 1
Dear Diary & Listeners, In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex. Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revealing insights that are both startling and compelling. This episode marks part one of their revealing conversation, titled “Straight to Zelle.” Be sure to give Savana a follow, her social media links are listed below! Oh, go check out the video recording of this podcast, now live on YouTube. Don’t forget to subscribe to our channel, each podcast episode drops on YouTube before anywhere else! Forever Sharing My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Savana's Hair Instagram Savana's Personal Instagram Savana's TikTok Stay tuned for PART 2 of Straight to Zelle coming out NEXT WEEK! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Savana Martin Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E30 · Thu, June 20, 2024
AMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 3
Dear Diary & Listeners, HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE! I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say? I love it when things like that happen. I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long. I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story. In this episode you will hear some pretty shocking things... From Dick's unconventional bedroom requests to a new scary part to his persona- stalking... I hope you enjoy Summer Solstice Part 3. Please make sure you give Ambre a follow, her links are below and make sure you head over and subscribe to YouTube. All episodes are released there FIRST. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Instagram: @AmbreFit YouTube: @ambrefit Twitter: @TheAmbreFit TikTok: @AmbreFit www.AmbreFit.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ambre McKee Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E29 · Tue, June 04, 2024
AMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including: Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured. Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial issues they faced, including how their partners used money as a tool for control and manipulation. Emotional and Verbal Abuse: They recount the hurtful comments, derogatory language, and verbal attacks that characterized their relationships, highlighting the damaging impact on their mental health. Gambling Addiction: The episode explores the significant role that Amanda's husband's gambling addiction played in their lives, adding another layer of complexity to the abuse. Conflict Diffusion: Amanda and Ambre describe their roles as peacemakers in constant conflicts, often at the expense of their own well-being. Suspicious Friendships: The conversation also touches on the suspicious and unhealthy relationship between Amanda's husband, Dick, and his friend Matt. The episode continues with Ambre's experiences of manipulation, coercion, and financial abuse in her relationship. Key points include: Broken Promises and Anxiety: Ambre recounts how her partner's broken promises left her feeling scared and anxious, a sentiment Amanda relates to deeply. Self-Prioritization and Derogation: They discuss how their partners prioritized themselves, often putting Ambre down and making her feel insignificant. Steroids and Hormone Therapy: Ambre shares how her partner's involvement with steroids and hormone therapy affected their relationship, including an incident of physical aggression. Car Situation: They talk about the partner's procrastination in getting a new car, reflecting his overall lack of responsibility. Finally, Amanda and Ambre discuss their experiences living with a narcissist, shedding light on: Unstable Living Conditions: They share stories of being moved to different apartments without consent, contributing to financial instability. Empty Promises: The narcissists' habit of making promises and failing to follow through, leaving them in precarious situations during trips and daily life. Obsession with Fitness: The narcissists' fixation on gyms and fitness, and how it impacted their relationships. Dangerous Behavior: Accounts of physically aggressive behavior during "play fights" and the narcissists' lack of remorse. Through this candid conversation, Amanda and Ambre highlight the manipulative, unpredictable, and damaging nature of their relationships with narcissists. Tu
S1 E28 · Wed, May 29, 2024
AMBRE - Summer Solstice: Part 1
Dear Diary & Listeners, In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing. Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate. Our conversation also takes a personal turn as Ambre shares insights into her background, family life, and religious upbringing, providing a rich context to her part of this story. We navigate through my own experiences, recounting the excitement and connection I felt upon meeting Dick. I reveal the challenges and discoveries I faced, including the surprising revelations about his past engagements and financial behaviors that led to a stark realization of dishonesty and manipulation. Together, Ambre and I explore the intricate dynamics of our scarily similar relationships, from meeting significant family members to confronting the turmoil and uncertainties that emerged. It's a heartfelt and eye-opening discussion about love, trust, and the lessons we learn along the way. Thank you for tuning in, and I hope this episode resonates with you as much as it did with me. You can learn more about Ambre by checking out her socials below: Instagram: @AmbreFit YouTube: @ambrefit Twitter: @TheAmbreFit TikTok: @AmbreFit www.AmbreFit.com Stay tuned for PART 2 or this THREE part story next week! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Ambre McKee Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: <a href='
S1 E27 · Sat, May 18, 2024
KYLIE - All Bark. No Bite.
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships. Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship. Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ultimately ended the toxic relationship, leading to a much healthier co-parenting dynamic with her ex. We dive deep into the dynamics of Kylie's relationship with Dick, including his neglect of his own children while trying to claim hers, his financial instability and gambling, and his secret life as a sex worker for men! Kylie’s revelation about being deceived by Dick's false narratives highlights the importance of setting boundaries and recognizing red flags. We also discuss how Dick used location sharing as a control tactic, the financial strain he caused, and his outrageous public behavior. Join us for a heartfelt and insightful conversation that underscores the importance of resilience, boundaries, and self-awareness in relationships. Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more episodes every week! 💖 Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO RECORDING OF THIS EPISODE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Kylie Brocato Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: <a href='https://www.facebook.com/TheDichotomyDiaries/?locale=hi_IN&paipv=0&eav=AfbXf1FDwyYhuQZ0Rb1wyvVb30kpc2IkXMLUfa_FldH6H7A
S1 E26 · Thu, May 02, 2024
ROHANNA - Never Been Pro
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas. The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it....Dick. The revelations of abuse begin to align with the healing power of storytelling as we both reflect on the importance of empathy, accountability, and reciprocity. We candidly discuss the dynamics of different relationships, from familial to romantic, highlighting the lessons learned about safety, trust, and maintaining one’s individuality. Throughout, Rohanna hopes her openness helps others feel less alone, emphasizing the strength found in shared stories and the support of true friendship- an amazing byproduct of Dick's treacherous ways. Please give Rohanna a follow and support her business: https://www.sweetsistersbodycare.com Business Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sweetsistersbodycare Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wildonefit WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Rohanna Wildon Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E25 · Fri, April 26, 2024
JOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick. They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter. The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity. Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment and manipulation in the relationship, detailing the emotional and physical abuse she endured. She recounts harrowing experiences, including a violent incident where Dick attempted to suffocate her. Amidst the darkness, Joanna opens up about her journey to healing and the pivotal role therapy played in her recovery process. Follow Joanna and support her business ventures through the links below: Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Joanna Hans Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E24 · Wed, April 17, 2024
JOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1
Dear Diary & Listeners, In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know. Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life. Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ. From the outset, Joanna's father had reservations about Dick. Yet, Dick managed to maintain a convincing facade, impressing Joanna's family to some extent. As circumstances would have it, Joanna found herself becoming roommates with Dick, eventually leading to an "exclusive" relationship...or so she thought. The relationship seemed picture-perfect on social media, providing Joanna with a sense of security. However, this facade crumbled when she began receiving messages about Dick's inappropriate behavior. Joanna soon recognized that Dick had used his Mormon faith as yet another tool for manipulation. In addition to this, Joanna discovered some of Dick's unconventional side hustles, one of which even surprised Amanda. Much like Amanda, Joanna found herself trapped in a trauma bond with Dick, experiencing lies, abandonment, verbal abuse, and coercion firsthand. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Please give Joanna a follow & support her business! Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Joanna Hans Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: <a href='https://www.youtube.com/@TheDic
Bonus · Tue, April 09, 2024
Total Eclipse of the Heart
Dear Diary & Listeners, Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries. (I KNOWWWWWWW) I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX. I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me. However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity. During this brief break, I'll address these challenges and return with content that exceeds expectations. On a brighter note, our first interviewee, Joanna, will be introduced via social media before her episode goes live with Part One on April 16th and Part Two on April 23rd. Your patience and support are appreciated as we navigate life's curveballs. Thank you for understanding. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: SOLO Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E23 · Tue, March 26, 2024
A Lil' Update
Dear Diary & Listeners, Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes. Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess. What you'll hear today had me shook. Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: SOLO Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E22 · Wed, March 20, 2024
KYLE - For The Plot: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners, We're back with Kyle for Part Two! I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us. It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own. I know you've waited alllll day. So here you go. Let's get to it! VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: "Kyle" Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E21 · Tue, March 12, 2024
KYLE - For The Plot: Part 1
Dear Diary & Listeners, You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as... THE INTERVIEWS Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married. What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw , and chronological. You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes... Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDichotomyDiaries Instagram or directly to Email at TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com First up, we have Kyle . A wonderfully warm and chatty gentleman from Phoenix, AZ who saw through Dick's facade faster than most; but played along- because the P L O T was just too juicy. Please don't forget to rate, review, share, and comment. Your interactions get The Dichotomy Diaries noticed. Thank you for your continued support as always. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: "Kyle" Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E20 · Tue, March 05, 2024
Beyond The Rainbow
Dear Diary & Listeners, We made it! We survived. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought. This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story. And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER.. The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus… To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others. Many times while recording this episode, I caught myself smiling. Stupidly proud of what I have created. Stupidly proud of my own personal growth and accelerated healing. But most importantly, stupidly proud that the woman I have become- is someone little 7 year old, ruby slipper wearing Amanda would be proud to become. While sometimes I feel down when reflecting on the path my life has taken; the pride I feel directly relating to my resilience supersedes all of it. In Episode 20, you will hear how my story ends. You will hear exactly how I uncovered all the other women Dick swindled in almost the exact same way. You will learn who’s interview comes first, as well as who to expect in the upcoming episodes. There’s No Place Like Home. Especially when you build home within yourself. Be on the lookout for opportunities to interact with the upcoming guests on Instagram. Thank you all for your support and hanging in there during this difficult and trying story that was my life. I will be forever grateful and humbled by this extraordinary experience. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Web
S1 E19 · Tue, February 27, 2024
This Fuggin' Guy
Dear Diary & Listeners, Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story. We've been on a wild ride together. But you know what...? There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with. Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste... This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended. Yep. This is the one. I won't keep you waiting. Just please, don't forget. One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore. I promise. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E18 · Tue, February 20, 2024
With Liberty & Justice for All
Dear Diary & Listeners, While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed. Did I get the justice I deserved? Not at all. My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies. But does it matter in the grand scheme of things? Also -Nope. Why? Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you. That feels like a win to me. In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready for more drama as I spill the beans on the treachery leading up to my first wedding anniversary. Buckle up—it's gonna be a wild ride! VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E17 · Tue, February 06, 2024
Creampie Confessions
Dear Diary & Listeners, Stress has taught me a lot this year. I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating. I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price . I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself. So what do we do with this information? Well- we learn of course. We learn how to manage our stress levels. We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our activities of daily life. But we also learn that stress relief is NO ONES job, but our own. Episode 17 is ALL THE THINGS. You're going to hear the raunchy, the sad, the shocking, and of course- the heartbreaking... So sit tight. OH- and if you're not fully prepared to hear some insanely gross sexual content...I would advise you to skip this episode. Shit's NASTYYYYYY up in here. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E16 · Thu, February 01, 2024
Bang, Bang
Dear Diary & Listeners, You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness? Yeah ...Me too. This is where I am this week. After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened. I got sick. And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold. Bang, Bang. I hit the ground. Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life. So that's fun. And what better a story to lull myself to sleep tonight...than my own. In Episode 16 you'll join me as I cringingly beg Dick to come back home after abandoning me yet again for Las Vegas. Does he come back? Oh- you bet- but as always, I'm sure you'll never guess how this episode ends. Buckle your seatbelts. Bang, Bang. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E15 · Wed, January 24, 2024
Behoove This
Dear Diary & Listeners, The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in. Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...( sarcasm ) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick. It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back. Le Sigh... Now I just need to sleep more. Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote tonight... Dick: Untrustworthy & Secretive I Value: Mystery & Enigma A mysterious aura adds an element of excitement and intrigue. I value a man who has the ability to keep a sense of mystery while still being open and vulnerable. Dick: Weakness & Inability to Cope I Value: Strength & Resilience There is nothing sexier than physical and emotional strength to navigate challenges. A man who is humbly resilient in the face of adversity, reflecting a capacity to overcome obstacles. Dick: Absence of Protective Instincts I Value: Guardian-like Qualities A man with protective instincts are key. Having the willingness to be a guardian and support in times of need. A sense of justice and the ability to stand up for what is right. Dick: Disconnect from Spiritual & Emotional Depth I Value: Spiritual Connection My person has the capacity to connect on a deep, spiritual level while maintaining strong emotional intelligence and empathy for understanding and support of shared inner growth. Dick: Predictable & Monotonous Behavior I Value: Unpredictable Allure An element of positive unpredictability that adds excitement to the relationship is a must. The distinct allure of this person should keeps the flame of passion perpetually burning. In Episode 15 I am officially homeless. Well- for a few days anyway. After Dick deploys an atomic bomb in Las Vegas, we are forced to seek refuge in Illinois. (Cue the Country Music) All is going well...I feel my nerves calming and an overwhelming sense of safety being around my family. It's short lived. SHOCKER. And guess what..? Dick recants yet another one of HIS decisions. You're going love Episode 15. Grab your popcorn y'all. BEHOOVE THIS. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo
S1 E14 · Thu, January 18, 2024
Divina Commedia
Dear Diary (& Listeners), This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature. But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first time... Life's got its own plans, right? Wrong. This wasn't fate or left to chance- this was strategic . Calculated. So, grab your popcorn...this one gets GOOD. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E13 · Wed, January 10, 2024
Make a Wish
Dear Diary & Listeners, I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that. Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek. The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me. Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it. I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad decisions and pain inflicted on me. It is a very simple answer I will repeat over and over again. TO PROCESS IT. Unprocessed trauma is and will always be the underlying reason for all the things that go wrong. Choosing to experience pain over immediate pleasure of ignorance takes a self-aware individual. Are you self-aware? EP13 - Make a Wish is the story of my 32nd birthday in Arizona for Super Bowl Weekend & the Valentine's Day to follow. Here's a secret I never admitted to anyone ever... Each birthday that I spent with Dick, my birthday wish as I blew out the candles was always the same. "Please Heavenly Father (what Mormons refer to God as), make things easier for my husband so that we can have a good life. I never wished for things to be easier for me. And that should tell you everything you need to know. Enjoy and be sure to listen to the entire Outro for some additional sneak peeks that will reinvigorate the marathon listener in you... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: <a href='https://
S1 E12 · Tue, January 02, 2024
Butterfly Language
Dear Diary & Listeners, As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024. A New Year always brings reflection. I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year. I remember waking up in an empty bed. I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long. And yet here I was, waking up on the first day of the New Year, wondering where he was... At this point, I'm sure you won't be shocked to hear that he was naked on camera, doing a video call with one of his regular clients... It hit me different this morning. So much so that I remember it a year later. The reality that no matter what had happened yesterday, my current days would most likely always consist of THIS...was horrifying. I thought I was seeing change in him, but in reality- it was me wishing change on him. Dick will forever be a Caterpillar person. And I speak Butterfly Language . In Episode 12 you will witness Dick's aggression increase incrementally. You'll also join me on the ever-so-frequent rollercoaster of a "Run Up" where Dick will eventually hit a BIG jackpot. We will head to Arizona for my favorite week of the year and return once again as my birthday approaches. Excitement turns to anxiety when I uncover yet another demonstration of his promiscuous personality... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomy
S1 E11 · Thu, December 28, 2023
Method Acting
Dear Diary & Listeners, We all strive to be the best at something. For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member. For others it might be more career oriented or status driven. Not for me. I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life. I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to be the best version of myself; I find that I fall short in a lot of areas I once thought I had conquered... The thing is, I hadn't conquered anything. I was acting like I had. In pure hope that one day I would meet the expectations I and my husband had set out for me. But as it does often in this story- the goalpost kept moving. And I kept falling short. It was easier to adopt a " fake it 'till I make it " mentality than it was to sit with my shortcomings and dissect them. While we are striving to be the best at whatever that " one thing " might be; there is someone out there looking for the perfect partner for them. Setting exceedingly high standards in the name of self respect or " not settling "... This could really be the basis on which a lot of relationships fail. Instead of trying to find or be the perfect partner, I believe that we should love an imperfect partner- perfectly . That should be the goal. To grow and stretch your beliefs in everything you ever wanted out of life; for the sake of happiness and love. If you can look at someone who is imperfect and see through the scars and skeletons, and STILL find a way to love them. I think you've beat the game. You win. In this episode you'll hear pivotal conversations that pave the disastrous road ahead. We will celebrate New Years Eve with friends and finally uncover the reason behind me painting our life so "picture perfect" constantly online. Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guest: Marissa Murray Patreon: <a href='https://patreon.com/TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast?utm_medium=unknown&utm_source=join_link&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=copyL
S1 E10 · Tue, December 19, 2023
The House Always Wins
Dear Diary & Listeners, There is so much I want to say. Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries... TEN?! I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys... I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices. Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love. With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emotional than usual. I am so PROUD of myself. I am so HUMBLED with the support I receive from you all. I am SHOCKED at the amount of listener submissions I receive. I am NOSTALGIC for the warmth of family tradition around the holiday season. I am DISGUSTED at the attempts of Victim Shaming that happens in our society. I am MOTIVATED to continue to lead by example for those who have been taken advantage of an abused. I AM ALL THE THINGS. And that's probably why I cried during this episode. In Episode 10 - The House Always Wins, we uncover the truth behind the mysterious Arizona Woman who shared countless hours on the phone with Dick, and all the things associated. We finally move into our BELOVED apartment in the " best part " of town...And Christmas is spent with Dick's family. That holiday was filled with a lot of love. I remember feeling such warmth. However, there was this unshakable feeling that something was wrong...or maybe it was that there was something- that everyone around me knew, but I didn't. This is my piece of advice for you. Especially after recording this episode... Childhood Trauma, whatever that may be, is NO joke. If you do not seek to heal or understand your childhood trauma, you WILL carry it into every relationship you have in the future- until you do. Give your parents grace. They are doing this for the first time too. And tell your family that you love them as often as you can. While Christmas may seem like a happy time of year to most; to some, there is a dreaded anticipation around the approach of this holiday. To some, Christmas serves as a stark reminder that the people we love most, are no longer with us. If you find yourself sad around the Christmas because of the absence of loved ones; I challenge you do at least one thing a day that is in celebration of those gone too soon. Light a candle at church. Play their favorite song in the car. Cook their favorite meal. The more we keep their memory alive, the more we embrace the feeling of happiness and feel freer to celebrate instead of mourn during Christmastime. Buon Natale, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY
S1 E9 · Tue, December 12, 2023
Wined, Dined, and Sixty-Nined
Dear Diary & Listeners, S U R P R I S E! You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu... I'd like to introduce you to Kyle. Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo. He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client. AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy. The Tea Kettle is Whistling Bay BEE . One thought I'd like to leave you with this week... We all have a past. We all have baggage that we carry around with us. It gets heavy. I know. Don't put your bags down. Your bags are what MAKE you... Sit on your floor and invite human beings over to help you unpack them. Speak to people. Leave your house. Write a love letter. Sing loud as fuck in the car. It's time to live again. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guest: "Kyle" Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E8 · Tue, December 05, 2023
Mama Tried
Dear Diary & Listeners, I am stressed this week. I have so many things going at once. The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends. I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings. I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now. Thats why this week it's extra appropriate to introduce you to my Mom for the very first time. In Episode 8, you will get a first-hand, unfiltered ( as always ) view as to what Life with Dick looked like from a Mother's perspective. Join us as this delusional cross-country road trip takes us to Lake Geneva, WI & Huntsville, AL and takes Dick on a Farewell to FinDom Tour all along the East Coast. Prepare yourself for some SHOCKING confessions. Oh - and in this Episode, Dick leaves his precious computer unlocked while he goes on a day trip to see a "client" in Reno. Finally, you're never going to FUCKING guess who calls me... ** One last thing. If you find yourself feeling down because of the holidays. Seriously- shoot me a message. I'll be the first to remind you that your presence in this World is not only important; it may be the very reason someone else exists...** Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda L. Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guest: Tina Scianna Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: <a href='https://www.facebook.com/TheDichotomyDiaries/?locale=hi_IN&paipv=0&eav=AfbXf1FDwyYhuQZ0Rb1wy
S1 E7 · Mon, November 27, 2023
Rocky-Road Trip
Dear Diary & Listeners, You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it" ... First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT. Why? I'm glad you asked! When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met. I ate that shit up. As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the very thing he loved so much about me, threatened him. He no longer asked my advice about complex matters. My opinions were shot down and even criticized. Which leads me to another question: How do you starve a dog to death? I know...You're like AMANDA...what?! I listened to a talk Dr. Jordan Peterson gave with Sean & Saxony Whalen the other day. He asked this question and here's why it's relevant. Starving a dog to death is simple. All you have to do is swat it on its nose with a newspaper every time it goes to eat. After about 50 times, the dog will stop eating and eventually perish. The same is true for humans. Dick figuratively swatted me on my nose every time I used my brain in a way that he couldn't. Dissect that how you may; jealousy, dominance, or just plain hatred- it fucked me up. I found myself in this space where I would ignore my creative thoughts, my opinions, my views, and my expertise. I rarely spoke up and on the rare occasion he would ask me for my advice- I actually found hard to articulate my thoughts. If you don't use it, you lose it. That saying scared the SHIT out of me. I thought I would never regain my ability to create complex thought process. It made me sad. It made me scared. It made me a slave to him and his approval. As I sit here typing to you today, I can proudly affirm that if you don't use it, you won't lose it. My brain is operating at what seems like 150% these days. So much so, that I can see why all of this was entirely necessary. Cruel. Abusive. Villanous. But 100% necessary for me to become the woman I knew I was destined to be. I had lost my faith. Given up on God simply because years of my prayers weren't answered. The happiest realization I've had since regaining my functional nerd-brain is that God actually DID answer my prayers. I couldn't see it then, but I see it now. He will never bring you to something; he won't bring you through. In Episode 7: Rocky-Road Trip you will join my best friend of 20 years, Marissa and I as we navigate leaving Phoenix, AZ to start our cross country road trip. Join us as we talk about this quest to find a less "depressive" home base, what happens along the way, and revisit some topics from past episodes. You will finally get to hear the perspective of someone close to me. And when I say she holds NOTHING back...I m
S1 E6 · Tue, November 21, 2023
Vanished in Happy Jack
NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, There's a theme this week. We Teach People How To Treat Us. And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me... My lesson plan is a little different now. Boundaries are difficult for so many reasons. The scariest part for me always was that I meant well with them, but they were always perceived as mean, cruel, or selfish. We tend to fall into habits of letting people cross our boundaries to "keep the peace". But let's be honest, PEACE for who? Episode 6 comes with a TRIGGER WARNING. This episode contains discussions about suicide ideations. Listener discretion is advised. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or your local crisis hotline. This week you will sit with me some of the darkest times I've ever experienced. I'm not going to lie to you. This isn't something I share easily. I am embarrassed about it. However, just like everything else I am embarrassed of- I know it is something I have to get out of my soul. You will find that all of my fears and assumptions come true in this episode. My false sense of self-esteem comes shattering down. And just when you think the delulu can't get any worse...I sell all my belongings. Someone asked me this week if I am open to love again... I giggled. I am love. I don't know any other way to be. And that is something I will never change about myself. We teach people how to treat us. So if we lead with love, chances are- we just might just end up finding that needle in the hay stack. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guest: Riley Imwie Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: <a h
S1 E5 · Wed, November 15, 2023
Sergeant Steroids
NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking. You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished. I did some shit I didn't even think I was capable of... I just recorded, edited, and fully produced an entire podcast episode BY MY SELF! I put myself out there to create new relationships with actual human people. I gritted my teeth through the discomfort of social anxiety and what I uncovered on the other side is so fucking special. (Not me basking in the new incredible friendships I have created) Now you're probably like "Wait, Amanda...You're so extroverted. How could you possibly have social anxiety...?" Let me let you in on a little secret. When you are alienated from everyone you love and continue to self isolate through healing- you straight up lose those skills. I'm also just going to be blatantly honest... The trauma I endured while with Dick, made me develop an anxious speech pattern where I LONG PAUSE almost every time I speak, when asked a question. I also swear to ( Non-Mormon ) God, that I developed a stutter. This is what happens when you are so afraid of constantly saying the wrong thing. Walking on eggshells virtually every second of your life, does crazy shit to your brain. And when you have an immensely unique and complex brain, you need to socialize. Otherwise, you end up in a prison of your own thoughts. It wasn't very fun, but thankfully as you can hear- no more stutter and shorter pauses. WIN. During this episode we dive DEEP into the World of Financial Domination . You will meet Jamie, a client of 9 years and begin to understand the "why" behind this secret fetish lifestyle that so many live behind closed doors. Join me as my two oldest friends and I explore all things FinDom in Episode 5, Sergeant Steroids. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guests: Brittany Ryan & Jenny Jeske Patreon: <a href='https://patreon.com/TheDichotomyDiar
S1 E4 · Tue, October 31, 2023
Promises, Panic & Poppers
Dear Diary & Listeners, I cried recording part of this episode. And it got me thinking... Why did THIS episode make me cry? What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears? You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad... I know the answer. This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again. I felt hijacked. Such important meaningful moments, all hijacked by a human incapable of love and compassion. The thing is...it’s all bullshit. We don’t just get ONE shot at happiness. We get as many as we give ourself. So this is me publicly throwing away the self-limiting doubts. I finally feel happy again. I know who Amanda Lynette Arnier is. I love that bad ass, resilient bitch. Someone will love me. Far better than I could ever imagine before. In this episode you will join me for my beautiful wedding in Sedona, AZ. You will also spend an evening in the emergency room. Followed by a road trip to Colorado, Dick’s self-proclaimed LEAST FAVORITE state. Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier & Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: Th
S1 E3 · Tue, October 31, 2023
Electric Daisy Abandonment
Dear Diary & Listeners, You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"? After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot. The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding. There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you. I probably have some of the same questions you all are having: Why didn't I just let him leave for good? How many times does Dick have to tell me he doesn't want to be with me before I actually believe him? But the biggest question of them all is... Why didn't leaving him ever cross my mind? So, I did a little soul searching, and what I realized was heart-wrenching. I subliminally laid everything I had at his feet: my money, my family, my love, my support, and my future. I continued to trust him even when he gave me every reason not to. I was scared not to trust. I was scared to lose the ONE thing I had left... Him. God would never give me more than I can handle, right? This week, you'll learn more about my proposal, wedding planning, and events leading up to the big day. We will uncover yet another Sugar Daddy, dissect the gambling more, and experience the worst abandonment up until this point in the story. You'll also begin to understand his explanation behind leaving, followed by our plan to fix the core problem. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok:
Bonus · Sat, October 28, 2023
Q&A Surprise!
Dear Diary and Listeners, Surprise! I had fun answering all your questions. Can’t wait for Tuesday! See you there, Amanda WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E2 · Tue, October 17, 2023
Shroom Things & Wedding Rings
Dear Diary & Listeners, I had a profound realization this week. It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss. Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness. How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return? Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him? Was I actually loving him? And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try, My Consistency, My Persistence...it was all unconditional, always. This week you will start to see Dick's true colors start to emerge. Lies wrapped in manipulation presenting themself as love are sprinkled all over this episode. You'll meet a few Sugar Daddies, Our Bishop, and find yourself front row to the epic way Dick proposed... Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
S1 E1 · Tue, October 10, 2023
The Sin City Serpent
Dear Diary & Listeners, There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one. The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other. Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you. How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted? It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof. This inaugural episode of The Dichotomy Diaries is called The Sin City Serpent. You will relive with me; meeting the Mormon/Latter Day Saint (LDS) man I married. We will dive into the spiraling, dark world where his career choice lived. You will experience the love-bombing, narcissistic tendencies, and financial abuse and manipulation first hand. Together we will dissect how deep trauma bonds are formed. And how trauma responses can look different for everyone. You may find yourself, like me- asking these questions... Why does she offer love to those who treat her so poorly? Why does she exhaust herself for the sake of others' comfort? Why does she anchor her "home" in another person rather than within herself? These questions and more will be answered throughout Season One. If you're looking for " The Tea ", you have come to the right place. Every episode released will get you closer and closer to the center of what just might be, the cruelest love scam of all time. Stay tuned for surprise BONUS episodes featuring special guests and the highly anticipated upcoming episodes featuring the NINE WOMEN who DICK got to first; and how all of this was unknown, until now. If you're looking for an amazing story on True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Financial Abuse, Manipulation, Sex Work, and Spiritual Abuse. You're in the right place. Brace yourself, this is just beginning. With Truth, Courage, and Pain, Amanda Arnier, MLS WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries
Trailer · Mon, September 18, 2023
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Official Trailer
Dear Diary & Listeners, The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Trailer · Sun, September 17, 2023
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #2
Dear Diary & Listeners, Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Trailer · Sat, September 16, 2023
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #1
Dear Diary & Listeners, This is your FIRST Sneak Peek at what is to come. Here is a taste of what to expect in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME- your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
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